Jan 29, 2007 15:27
This last four days of random traveling, this random moments and now I'm here for an anticipated funeral tomorrow because it happened at the middle of the night when I was miserably poised in a hotel in Memphis, when things were so far away, and now I am in Virginia, after a day that began at 5 am central time and ended here at 1 am from constant traveling to be everywhere, to cover so much ground and to make it all happen.
I won't really be on the internet for a while when I am here, where things are okay, kind of weirdly numb and expected. There exist funeral ritualisms and those are the things that keep us sane. We're not upset or anything, things are okay. I don't know what else to say except that Memphis made me so much in pain yet excited too, happy to meet people but upset because one person who I traveled with is such an evil waste of creation that I have no desire to talk to people. If a person can make anything I say irrelevant by her snippy speech, that is so disheartening. Yet I must forgive and love, it just made me not want to do things. Plus, I don't like to go out to bars where music is loud, air is very unable to be breathed, and nothing good happens with the expensive drinks. Whatever, if this is humanity, I'll have to bemoan it more.
So that's it for a bit.