I've been pretty numb lately. Last few days - dunno. Have just only really felt pleasure in getting things done then going to sleep. I feel like this happens to me every time I get close to someone. Maybe I am just over using my social battery and falling back into a more comfortable recluse but I don't know. I used to always need to be around ( Read more... )

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He will be here in less than 7 hours and I am so very anxious. I know I will enjoy it - being touched again but I'm so very terrified. I have never felt physical love. I've felt used physically and always trapped in a bubble but now... it's such an odd opportunity. I suggested it in hopes that maybe it wouldn't happen out of fear, but now it is ( Read more... )