What's Happening To Me?
I don't know what the hell is going on... I’ve been having a lot of trouble sleeping, I just got new earrings, which don't really have much to do with anything, but will explain how I got to where I was this morning...
I had them in too tight so my ears were hurting, so I got out of bed at around 5am and took them out, sitting there I started feeling nauseous and then I got really hot and started sweating, I got up to go to the bathroom because I thought I was going to throw up, and I stood near the toilet, but I couldn't bring myself to vomit, I was feeling really sick, and weak, my face was really hot, and it was the sick kind of sweat, my face started to feel funny, and I knew then I was going to pass out, last thing I remember I was turning for the door, I think I opened it and was going to call for my mother but before anything could come out I went down.
I don't know how long I was laying on the floor, awkwardly laying flat on my back on the bathroom floor, my eyes started to focus as I heard my mother and my dad calling my name.. I didn't know where I was at first with my head to the side, when I looked up I realized I was on the bathroom floor, they sat me up but I was still covered in this sick sweat, and still feeling very nauseous and my head was pounding, my breath was short and I could barely talk, I told my mom I was nauseous and she put the garbage can in front of me, and told me to try to get it out, I finally threw up and it was just this sour tasting fluid that came out, then sweats started to go away, and they had me drink some rose water and eventually stood me up and took me over to the couch, my legs were shaking under me.
I could barely walk, this was NOT a panic/anxiety attack, I’ve been having those for a few months, and this was nothing like it, no rapid heart rate, no shortness of breath, no dizziness, no numbness of limbs... with the panic/anxiety attacks, I get all those and feel like I’m going to pass out but I never do, this was totally different, this happened to me once before back in November before I had to move back in with my parents, same thing, the nausea, the hot face and sweating, I went into the bathroom to splash water on my face, my face started feeling funny, my ears started ringing and down I went, I started having panic attacks a few weeks after that initial passing out, but those episodes were totally different from these.
I’ve been diagnoses with PCOS & Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, and depression in association with those, I’m also anemic, and b-12 deficient, but none of my doctors have an answer to why I’m passing out, and it's scaring me, somehow my brain is losing oxygen, I’m on 100mcg of levothyroxin, 500mcg metformin 2xs a day, 60mg cymbalta, 2500mg b-12 2xs a day, 325mg ferrous sulfate 2xs a day, 5000mg biotin, orthotrycyclin-lo, and a multivitamin, if anyone knows why this might be happening please help. I don't know if that has anything to do with my diseases or not. I’m staying home from work again using my FMLA leave, I’m worried about my job security, and my family is less than helpful, yelling at me and blaming me for what’s happening, did you eat? What did you eat, it's what you ate! Oh you didn't eat? That’s why then, it’s because you were hungry! It’s because your lip is pierced that causes diseases! (Even though my lip has been pierced for over two years now.) I just want to figure out what is wrong with me and fix it. I think I’m going to have to get a new primary doctor, my therapist, psychologist, and endocrinologist have nothing new to offer, so I’m assuming my primary needs to handle this, I’m going to try to get an appointment today, but I think I need a new one, I’m still going to my pediatrician and I’m 24, its time for a new doctor.
I thought this was over, but I guess I was wrong. I was starting to look for apartments so I could move out again, but after what happened today I don't think I can. Maybe someone is trying to tell me something. I don't think I can go to Ireland like me and John were planning either. My other flight isn't until July though, so maybe I'll be better by then. Why me? I'm an oscar winner. :(
I had them in too tight so my ears were hurting, so I got out of bed at around 5am and took them out, sitting there I started feeling nauseous and then I got really hot and started sweating, I got up to go to the bathroom because I thought I was going to throw up, and I stood near the toilet, but I couldn't bring myself to vomit, I was feeling really sick, and weak, my face was really hot, and it was the sick kind of sweat, my face started to feel funny, and I knew then I was going to pass out, last thing I remember I was turning for the door, I think I opened it and was going to call for my mother but before anything could come out I went down.
I don't know how long I was laying on the floor, awkwardly laying flat on my back on the bathroom floor, my eyes started to focus as I heard my mother and my dad calling my name.. I didn't know where I was at first with my head to the side, when I looked up I realized I was on the bathroom floor, they sat me up but I was still covered in this sick sweat, and still feeling very nauseous and my head was pounding, my breath was short and I could barely talk, I told my mom I was nauseous and she put the garbage can in front of me, and told me to try to get it out, I finally threw up and it was just this sour tasting fluid that came out, then sweats started to go away, and they had me drink some rose water and eventually stood me up and took me over to the couch, my legs were shaking under me.
I could barely walk, this was NOT a panic/anxiety attack, I’ve been having those for a few months, and this was nothing like it, no rapid heart rate, no shortness of breath, no dizziness, no numbness of limbs... with the panic/anxiety attacks, I get all those and feel like I’m going to pass out but I never do, this was totally different, this happened to me once before back in November before I had to move back in with my parents, same thing, the nausea, the hot face and sweating, I went into the bathroom to splash water on my face, my face started feeling funny, my ears started ringing and down I went, I started having panic attacks a few weeks after that initial passing out, but those episodes were totally different from these.
I’ve been diagnoses with PCOS & Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, and depression in association with those, I’m also anemic, and b-12 deficient, but none of my doctors have an answer to why I’m passing out, and it's scaring me, somehow my brain is losing oxygen, I’m on 100mcg of levothyroxin, 500mcg metformin 2xs a day, 60mg cymbalta, 2500mg b-12 2xs a day, 325mg ferrous sulfate 2xs a day, 5000mg biotin, orthotrycyclin-lo, and a multivitamin, if anyone knows why this might be happening please help. I don't know if that has anything to do with my diseases or not. I’m staying home from work again using my FMLA leave, I’m worried about my job security, and my family is less than helpful, yelling at me and blaming me for what’s happening, did you eat? What did you eat, it's what you ate! Oh you didn't eat? That’s why then, it’s because you were hungry! It’s because your lip is pierced that causes diseases! (Even though my lip has been pierced for over two years now.) I just want to figure out what is wrong with me and fix it. I think I’m going to have to get a new primary doctor, my therapist, psychologist, and endocrinologist have nothing new to offer, so I’m assuming my primary needs to handle this, I’m going to try to get an appointment today, but I think I need a new one, I’m still going to my pediatrician and I’m 24, its time for a new doctor.
I thought this was over, but I guess I was wrong. I was starting to look for apartments so I could move out again, but after what happened today I don't think I can. Maybe someone is trying to tell me something. I don't think I can go to Ireland like me and John were planning either. My other flight isn't until July though, so maybe I'll be better by then. Why me? I'm an oscar winner. :(