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Having one of my down nights. I'm laid up in bed with very little social interaction. Weight loss has plateaued since I stopped being mobile.
I just feel like there's no point. I want to ask a girl out and have her actually consider dating me. Right now, I'd just horrify them. I'm lonely. I want a relationship in my life. I want someone to be important to me and to be important to someone.
I'm dead broke. I'm too fat and staying that way, and I have a hole in my foot that isn't closing. I almost want them to take the toe, because it will be over with and healed faster than this.
I need money. It's not starvation yet, but I'm really isolated and bored. I mean you have no idea how bored you can get until you stay inside for a week at a time. I can't even go to trivia because of the walking.
Sigh. I think a lot of this comes down to confidence. There are women I would ask out, but I'm just too afraid and I'm barely a human. People are repulsed by the thought of being intimate with someone like me.I'm afraid of the rejection I've felt basically all of my life, and I don't know if the reward is worth the risk.
I just feel like there's no point. I want to ask a girl out and have her actually consider dating me. Right now, I'd just horrify them. I'm lonely. I want a relationship in my life. I want someone to be important to me and to be important to someone.
I'm dead broke. I'm too fat and staying that way, and I have a hole in my foot that isn't closing. I almost want them to take the toe, because it will be over with and healed faster than this.
I need money. It's not starvation yet, but I'm really isolated and bored. I mean you have no idea how bored you can get until you stay inside for a week at a time. I can't even go to trivia because of the walking.
Sigh. I think a lot of this comes down to confidence. There are women I would ask out, but I'm just too afraid and I'm barely a human. People are repulsed by the thought of being intimate with someone like me.I'm afraid of the rejection I've felt basically all of my life, and I don't know if the reward is worth the risk.