Transfer #2
Yesterday was our second embryo transfer. Everything has gone really smoothly, passed my lining check no problem, yesterday went great. Actually saw the little bright flash of the embryo going in which we didn’t see last time. Super cool.
Feeling very positive. Very hopeful. Had a dream I was pregnant last night. In the dream I wasn’t sure if I was pregnant or not but I had a good sized belly so it was either that or severe bloat lol. But I think that’s just my doubt permeating the dream. Like I could be 5 months pregnant and still doubt because it’s just been such a long road. But I think this is it. I’m ready.
I’ve been doing the witchcraft thing and I think it helps. I think it just makes me focus on positive instead of negative. I took some crystals with me under the waist of my fold over yoga pants and I think it’s just a mindfulness thing. I knew they were there, I knew I was using them for positivity, so I felt very positive.
Mom was in town last week and she was very skeptical at first. I tried explaining to her the negative stigma comes from the witch trials which were really just puritans burning people they didn’t like for any reason. You’re a hermit lady and there was a fire in some building? You’re a witch. You didn’t wear the right clothing and someone’s kid died of the flu? You’re a witch. But these days and specifically what I’m into it for is focusing positive energy and connecting with nature. I’ve always loved nature, loved collecting little leaves and rocks and pinecones. I do believe in god, my version, not necessarily the Bible and Jesus god. So I’m not into worshipping random other religions’ deities.
Anyway. It’s helped me feel better about everything and feel more confident and hopeful. And Chris has been into it with me so that’s cool. It’s something we can do together.
I don’t think I’m gonna test at home before my blood test. I’m just going to assume I’m
