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[then_hurt_me]

i forgot i had this thing.
it's nice i guess. i need to vent right now. kinda.
yea. summer is over as of the 21st. creepy. growing old and all.
i never knew how terrified i would be of the future.
like i have been looking back at my life and i can't believe that 18 years have passed.
time seems so short.
it's funny seeing how much i have matured and all.
and counting all the people that have been in and out of my life.
i miss being young
and i have made a promise to myself to always wear little girl barrettes every day until i die.
i want to be young forever and i dont ever want to have to grow up.
i know that won't last forever
but until then...i will...
-play in the rain
-listen to boy bands and kid music like when i was 10
-laugh at pointless things
-color in coloring books
-use my imagination more than necessary
-watch cartoons
-stare at the clouds going by
and things that fit along those lines.
the thing is...i just hate having to say goodbye to the people i love the most and grew up with.
i guess it gets easier?