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[then_hurt_me]

so this has become more than ridiculous.
i don't want to be here.
that excited state i used to be in has gone downhill.
i want to be home.
alone.
i don't care about college or anything else for that matter.
i seem to have forgotten everything i once knew.
anything that ever mattered to me seems to be some fake fairytale.
i have become extremely indecisive as well.
i found what i wanted then it was taken away like candy from a baby.
this has made me question every thing about my life.
and nothing seems to be set in stone anymore.
i feel like an airhead.
i feel empty beyond belief.
i just want something that i can hold on to.
something that will last forever.
i want to be able to believe something can last forever.
i am sick of reality.