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[then_hurt_me]

once again i believed i ruined everything by thinking too much into things...thus confusing myself and him. well yea i never realized that i really like him. i totally blame myself. i just want things to go back to the way they were before this fucking hurricane. but then again who doesn't?
i want my brother back
i want my house back
i want trey back
i want my bed
my computer
internet
my jobs
happiness
i think i just let myself lose everything
i don't think i could pick a better time to say i suck at life.
because i just really do.
and no im not trying to get pity from people
that is how i truly feel.
i feel like shit
i know i didnt lose everything
but i lost enough
sorry to sound selfish but you know this is my journal so i give myself the right to be self pitying
and i dont know if that is even correct lol
but yes its how i wanna be right now
its just that time when i wanna hide in a corner and cry
well i have more but i give up
i just don't want to care
about anything
i want to be hard like stone yet hollow like something hollow
over and out