Crizap
So... to be completely blunt, I've always thought it to be annoying when people write such things as this, about their problems and crap in their life... so this is going to be pretty hypocritical...
Everyone has problems, some unique in their own ways... but yet, strangely similar...I for one... can advocate such things...
Lately my emotions have been going haywire at such extremes as well... I'm either ridiculously happy ... more than anyone should be... or im in a state where I realize I shouldn't be feeling this way but i feel depressed over dumb, reasons...a lot of these feelings come from a selfish side of myself... where i drastically want something so bad... and know i can't have it... but... end up pursuing it nonetheless.
I love when im happy tho... I came from a place where i was depressed for quite a long time... and now I've been laughing a lot... and im myself for short periods of times... What I find weird is that I KNOW my problem (as most people do) but yet... I can't seem to get over it.. it's almost like I don't have enough will-power to commit my self to do such a thing...Truthfully i would like to hold onto what i have... but i know i have to let go ... and let life move on as it inevitably will....
my only REAL "escape" from this inescapable TIDAL WAVE of emotions is when im with my friends... or dreaming... I have such gorgeous dreams... some that are so amazing... I sit in awe just recollecting such magnificent "experiences." I also have amazing friends... and .. if i didn't have them, sometimes i wonder where i'd be... thanks guys...
"Have yourself a merry little christmas"