My mind is everywhere but my studies at the moment
I have a test in Horticulture tomorrow, which I should be studying for, but i don't have the will power to do so right now. I'm so distracted it's pathetic... and why am I so distracted? Oh, just him of course. (Yes, that is pathetic -- a guy is actually distracting me from my studying for exams).
There's nothing wrong -- I thought there was a couple days ago by the way he acted and the questions he asked me like the whole "why do you like me?" type questions. But after talking about it a bit the last couple days I understand more and it doesn't seem to bother him. I guess initially he didn't really know what I was looking for in him... which is a bit understandable considering the first day we hang out together alone over the AGS house I end up sleeping in his bed and then initiating the first kiss myself. Was it quick? Yes, definitely - and we both agreed. But, as I told him, I wanted to because I just liked what I saw that much. I've never done that before, because I never had the urge to do so so quick before -- and I told him that when we were out at the park Sunday night.
I kind of laugh at how he anticipates me getting mad over things that I don't find worth getting mad over. Last night he admitted how he thought he was going to be in deep shit on Sunday because he left my room Sunday morning because one of the guys in his frat called him and wanted him to play in the softball game against some other frats. Then later when I asked him to go to the park with me and he called me back 15 minutes later to tell me that some of his buddies wanted to go get something to eat and asked him to go. Okay, so his he's in a frat - I understand that he needs to go to that sort of stuff... and he didn't eat yet when I already did that night -- he needs to eat... so why would I be mad over either of those things? It doesn't make any logical sense, but yet, I guess there's girls that will complain over illogical things.
Haven't had to complain yet, but at least he seems like he'll be understanding and not sit here and turn it so everything is my fault, as I had put up with before. It's funny how I mention to him some little things and he relates. Like I told him last week about how I was feeling like crying for no apparent reason earlier that day. He'd be like, "Yeah, I've had that before and it's best to just let it out." And it's funny how he'll say such things but not want any of his frat guys to hear because he knows they'll make fun of him for it.
Then he was so worried a few nights ago about physical advances. I could quite understand why at first and it really baffled me. He'd be like "I don't need it" but I'd be like "but I want to". He seemed so worked up Sunday night. Then last night we got talking and he said how in his last long-term relationship of about 4 years ended when they started doing more physically and they stopped talking as much. I told him it would only be that way if we made it that way.... so I asked him if that was the only problem and he said that he did have a problem with lying too. I told him with that you just start loosing trust and after you loose that you might as well forget it. He said he's stopped the lying because it wasn't worth it at the time. I could tell he was just listening to what I said and thinking about it. He only likes to say bits and pieces at a time and eventually I get the whole story behind it with certain things.
Everything is so well and he's wonderful -- and I don't want to loose him anytime soon. I really don't know how I got so lucky to run into him when I did.
I'm not a person to say things that I'm not sure that I mean... so I keep asking myself the question as to how you know when your falling for him?? It seems so quick, but everything is so right on.
P.S. I hate how dorm rooms never have heat until it's offically winter!! agh.
There's nothing wrong -- I thought there was a couple days ago by the way he acted and the questions he asked me like the whole "why do you like me?" type questions. But after talking about it a bit the last couple days I understand more and it doesn't seem to bother him. I guess initially he didn't really know what I was looking for in him... which is a bit understandable considering the first day we hang out together alone over the AGS house I end up sleeping in his bed and then initiating the first kiss myself. Was it quick? Yes, definitely - and we both agreed. But, as I told him, I wanted to because I just liked what I saw that much. I've never done that before, because I never had the urge to do so so quick before -- and I told him that when we were out at the park Sunday night.
I kind of laugh at how he anticipates me getting mad over things that I don't find worth getting mad over. Last night he admitted how he thought he was going to be in deep shit on Sunday because he left my room Sunday morning because one of the guys in his frat called him and wanted him to play in the softball game against some other frats. Then later when I asked him to go to the park with me and he called me back 15 minutes later to tell me that some of his buddies wanted to go get something to eat and asked him to go. Okay, so his he's in a frat - I understand that he needs to go to that sort of stuff... and he didn't eat yet when I already did that night -- he needs to eat... so why would I be mad over either of those things? It doesn't make any logical sense, but yet, I guess there's girls that will complain over illogical things.
Haven't had to complain yet, but at least he seems like he'll be understanding and not sit here and turn it so everything is my fault, as I had put up with before. It's funny how I mention to him some little things and he relates. Like I told him last week about how I was feeling like crying for no apparent reason earlier that day. He'd be like, "Yeah, I've had that before and it's best to just let it out." And it's funny how he'll say such things but not want any of his frat guys to hear because he knows they'll make fun of him for it.
Then he was so worried a few nights ago about physical advances. I could quite understand why at first and it really baffled me. He'd be like "I don't need it" but I'd be like "but I want to". He seemed so worked up Sunday night. Then last night we got talking and he said how in his last long-term relationship of about 4 years ended when they started doing more physically and they stopped talking as much. I told him it would only be that way if we made it that way.... so I asked him if that was the only problem and he said that he did have a problem with lying too. I told him with that you just start loosing trust and after you loose that you might as well forget it. He said he's stopped the lying because it wasn't worth it at the time. I could tell he was just listening to what I said and thinking about it. He only likes to say bits and pieces at a time and eventually I get the whole story behind it with certain things.
Everything is so well and he's wonderful -- and I don't want to loose him anytime soon. I really don't know how I got so lucky to run into him when I did.
I'm not a person to say things that I'm not sure that I mean... so I keep asking myself the question as to how you know when your falling for him?? It seems so quick, but everything is so right on.
P.S. I hate how dorm rooms never have heat until it's offically winter!! agh.