Last night...
Aside from the incredibly hilarious conversations with Erin and Joe, I had a revalation while smoking Kiwi/Watermelon/Cantelope out of the hooka and drinking hot tea. I am finally getting a grip on myself and finding it slightly more comfortable to talk about sexual things in public settings.
I mean, for a long time it was really bad. I wasn't always like this. I used to be the most open about it, but then there were those who had objections and I felt self-conscious whenever I would bring it up after that. Eventually it stopped altogether until I couldn't even be around others when they did it.
Quite frankly, it was the goddamned hipocrisy. I was chided (and at one point threatened with physical harm) if I brought it up, but there were others in my social group who could do it as they pleased. It really made me want to cry sometimes because I couldn't figure out why I couldn't express myself sexually but everyone else could.
I think last night was a good transition away from those times. I don't really know. Maybe it was the talk of a gay encounter that my best friend Keddy had (Keddy is getting married in less than two weeks) that he thoroughly enjoyed. Let's just say there was a tongue involved.
Now, I'm openly bi, and it just irks me that other people are getting the kind of things I'd love to experience.
Beh! Sexual stagnation! Sometimes, I just need a good hard cock, and there's no one to oblige!
Strap-on, anyone?
I mean, for a long time it was really bad. I wasn't always like this. I used to be the most open about it, but then there were those who had objections and I felt self-conscious whenever I would bring it up after that. Eventually it stopped altogether until I couldn't even be around others when they did it.
Quite frankly, it was the goddamned hipocrisy. I was chided (and at one point threatened with physical harm) if I brought it up, but there were others in my social group who could do it as they pleased. It really made me want to cry sometimes because I couldn't figure out why I couldn't express myself sexually but everyone else could.
I think last night was a good transition away from those times. I don't really know. Maybe it was the talk of a gay encounter that my best friend Keddy had (Keddy is getting married in less than two weeks) that he thoroughly enjoyed. Let's just say there was a tongue involved.
Now, I'm openly bi, and it just irks me that other people are getting the kind of things I'd love to experience.
Beh! Sexual stagnation! Sometimes, I just need a good hard cock, and there's no one to oblige!
Strap-on, anyone?