You need to stop this. If you keep telling yourself that nobody gives a fuck, then you're going to keep believing it. If you keep feeling sorry for yourself everytime something goes slightly wrong, you're never going to see any of the positive things are are happening everyday. You can post like this and get hundreds of girls saying "Leeeee <33333 omg <333 I love you" but is it going to help? You need to get out of this yourself - I'm not sure how, but you really do.
You don't need someone there to tell you that you're ok. You can do it yourself. Stop relying on other people, that's what's causing you problems. Think positively. Don't suggest suicide and pretend there's no use in living, but there has to be at least one positive thing that you can focus on to make you smile for more than three seconds at a time.
lol i could have a hundred girls screaming 'Leeeeee <3333333 omg <3333 I love you'...but your right, it doesn't help, most of it doesn't actually mean anything to me. Its only words, people say it as like a basic instinct reaction....in most cases they dont even mean it, they just say it to make themselves feel less bad... As for positives? all my positives in live are the ones which give me hope, I strive forward, and live in hope that things will turn out the way I wish they would....but they always turn out the way I expect. All the good things in life for me always turn around and bite me in the ass. There is no good for me here...I just upset people and they hurt me, and they dont even care...they act like its my fault, if i dont act like its my problem they make it my problem....suicide? its not suicide...its my peace.
but wow Nik? im impressed, You have advice to give me. *hugs* Thanks. xxxx
Lee...you know, I'm sure there are a lot of people who actually give a f*ck. I just wish you'd see that. Your entry the other day scared the bejesus out of me, I HATE seeing you like that. I just hope your days get better, and I hope you realize one day that life is worth living and things do turn up well eventually. I hope my happy Lee comes back soon, it's so sad without him. Don't put your nose to the ground Lee, look straight ahead. Life really is a blessing when you let it be. Everything about it. I'm here for you<33
Dude. Tired, bored and lonely all have one thing in common. They are temporary. It doesn't seem that way, I'm sure...or you're too weary to care. Either way, you're talking about letting circumstances win. Fuck that shit. Are you weaker than all these knuckleheads I see around me, managing to trudge through the crap that is their lives? We all deal with it. At least you know what doesn't make you happy. You are a step ahead of the oblivious, which puts you in a pretty small club
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Yeah. alot of this world sucks. We are reactionary and violent. We dismiss the plights of others if we don't share their problems. Often, we look down on them for being failures. We dump toxins into rivers then look at a tree and say, "See, environment's OK". We base our political decisions on single ads. We say "How are you?" and don't mean it. We suck dicks for rocks of crack, stomp on frogs to watch the explosion and wish ill fate upon others whom wake up every day hoping it will be nice...just like th erest of us. All some of us seem to see are the differences in others and how they make others less than we are
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yeah i've added you already. I will add you to MSN to. i'm just going offline though, been a long tiring weekend, need to go sit, be alone, think...sleep if i can? and take things one step at a time.
I'm not saying i'll end my life...but thats just how i feel right now. underneath i'm a fighter...i've just lost the will to carry on...but im trying to find it again.
what are you thinking writing that!!! I care a lot and you know that babe!!!!!!!!!!!! Please dont think that again because you know i care dont forget that okay! you need to get on aim so i can say hi to you :( i wish i could give you a big hug right now :( maybe that would make you feel better hehe :)
Make it out man, turn adn run. Live to fight another day.
When life's a bitch man, you move on. Its time for a change, new fields to walk through. If its that bad, and you can't change it, move elsewhere man. A new city, a fresh start, away from all the people who don't value you. Make new friends, join a few clubs, meet a few people. And these friends will, in a shorter time than you know, care about you. Sometimes its better and easier for you to leave everything behind and start anew. Might sound harsh to say, but I don't know your whole situation.
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You don't need someone there to tell you that you're ok. You can do it yourself. Stop relying on other people, that's what's causing you problems. Think positively. Don't suggest suicide and pretend there's no use in living, but there has to be at least one positive thing that you can focus on to make you smile for more than three seconds at a time.
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As for positives? all my positives in live are the ones which give me hope, I strive forward, and live in hope that things will turn out the way I wish they would....but they always turn out the way I expect. All the good things in life for me always turn around and bite me in the ass. There is no good for me here...I just upset people and they hurt me, and they dont even care...they act like its my fault, if i dont act like its my problem they make it my problem....suicide? its not suicide...its my peace.
but wow Nik? im impressed, You have advice to give me. *hugs* Thanks. xxxx
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I'm not saying i'll end my life...but thats just how i feel right now. underneath i'm a fighter...i've just lost the will to carry on...but im trying to find it again.
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what are you thinking writing that!!! I care a lot and you know that babe!!!!!!!!!!!! Please dont think that again because you know i care dont forget that okay! you need to get on aim so i can say hi to you :(
i wish i could give you a big hug right now :( maybe that would make you feel better hehe :)
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I love you!
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When life's a bitch man, you move on. Its time for a change, new fields to walk through. If its that bad, and you can't change it, move elsewhere man. A new city, a fresh start, away from all the people who don't value you. Make new friends, join a few clubs, meet a few people. And these friends will, in a shorter time than you know, care about you. Sometimes its better and easier for you to leave everything behind and start anew. Might sound harsh to say, but I don't know your whole situation.
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