booooo
i haven't updated in a really long time for lack of interesting subject matter. not completely true, but i guess i've been absorbed in other things or maybe have not wanted to admit in writing the desperation of my situation...
i passed three weeks in new york and vermont with david as a bit of a vacation. it was sortof a vacation for me, because i was able to see my family, but the relaxation part was nothing new..i've been doing that since may. i was also supposed to get things moving with my italian nationality stuff, which i was able to do a bit of, but more importably i was able to convince my mother that she should help me with it as well..and she is. so thankful for that. the problem is that it will take a long time to process, but when it does i'll be home free. sweet.
most of the time was spent at long beach surfing, or trying to, with david. it was the fist time all summer i was able to enjoy 'the summer' even though it was technicall fall. we had great weather and decent conditions. david bought me my own surfboard which motivated me even more, which is sometimes difficult with such a frustrating sport.
while in vermont we were able to go mountain biking, equally frustrating because i have never really done it before and thought walking up the face of the mountain while pushing the bike was just ridiculous. in the end i was happy to have done it, i guess..
we only spent 2 days in the city, while staying at my grandma's in queens. we rented bikes around central park which was really enjoyable. we ended up with some good photos as well.
some downpoints of the trip were my lower back problems that prevented me from getting myself up on the board numerous times, feeling like david is amazing at every sport and i'm not so it makes it 10x harder and him not realizing this, not getting to see leakhena because of her new amazing job at LVMH (not i'm not jealous..maybe just a little), getting into a screaming match about driving to queens with david at 10pm (we were successful despite various road detours and accidents etc, he's an awesome copilot), and other minor ups and downs in general. overall it was a great 3 weeks and i was happy to have spent time at home, my parents were equally as happy.
upon arriving back in france, realization that france is dreary and depressing set in. cold weather, rain, no job, no school, no prospects, friends are gone etc etc.
i'm in the midst of applying to mba programs that offer courses in english and to those who don't necessarily have the 10 years of professional experience usually required. the one i was looking at, inseec, is a work study program that sounded great. unfortunately i just realized there are bac+4 courses in february, only bac+5 which is one year ahead of what i have. boo. so now i'm investigating other options of jan/february but i fear that it might be too late. i'll have to speed study for the gmats and apply asap.
on the other hand there might be an opportunity at Y&R, but i'm not holding my breath. alessandro, a charming italian, took me out to lunch last week to discuss the prospects of a position on the volvic account. it sounded alright, but with my visa situation i'm not too optomistic. i have an interview with hr tomorrow so we'll see what happens.
david and i are good, several times i was reminded of why and how much i love him. together nonstop for 3 weeks was as perfect as one could expect. because i'm not working we get to see eachother every other day which is nice, but i admit that it's losing it's charm. i feel the urgency to get a project moving whether it's a job or school, i need to occupy my mind. i've gotten back into reading and plan to read a lot more in the next few months to keep my mind working. i honestly feel like i've digressed in intelligence over the last few years, something that worries me if i plan on studying at one of the best business schools in the world .
i just go over a case of food poisoning, or something of the sort. last week i couldn't sleep because of terrible stomach pains which lead to a near fainting spell. david was able to lay me down with my feet raised which helped a bit. the strange thing was that i had weird symptoms for the rest of the week (cramps, headache and fever). i'm feeling better now and even went running for 45 minutes yesteday, the first time in 3-4 weeks.
next week david and i are going surfing in the south of france. i'm excited to go but feel like this extended vacationing is not warranted or even deserved. i hate that my parents are still funding me despite the weak dollar and my strong spending habits. to apply to a spring semester program i really need to hurry my ass or i'll be stuck doing nothing for the rest of the year. i hate that my situation is so limited because i don't have a visa and can't really get one. i started to thing that if it weren't for david i'd probably get annoyed and decide to get a move on with my life and either go back home and start working or work for the company matea works for and travel the world on company exenses. it wouldn't be such a bad thing after all. it's funny how david was once the last reason why i wanted to stay and work in france and now he's becoming one of the only reasons...not something i'm entirely thrilled about.
i'm just feeling kinda negative about the whole situation and it's hard to write anything positive at the moment. so i'll stop now.
i passed three weeks in new york and vermont with david as a bit of a vacation. it was sortof a vacation for me, because i was able to see my family, but the relaxation part was nothing new..i've been doing that since may. i was also supposed to get things moving with my italian nationality stuff, which i was able to do a bit of, but more importably i was able to convince my mother that she should help me with it as well..and she is. so thankful for that. the problem is that it will take a long time to process, but when it does i'll be home free. sweet.
most of the time was spent at long beach surfing, or trying to, with david. it was the fist time all summer i was able to enjoy 'the summer' even though it was technicall fall. we had great weather and decent conditions. david bought me my own surfboard which motivated me even more, which is sometimes difficult with such a frustrating sport.
while in vermont we were able to go mountain biking, equally frustrating because i have never really done it before and thought walking up the face of the mountain while pushing the bike was just ridiculous. in the end i was happy to have done it, i guess..
we only spent 2 days in the city, while staying at my grandma's in queens. we rented bikes around central park which was really enjoyable. we ended up with some good photos as well.
some downpoints of the trip were my lower back problems that prevented me from getting myself up on the board numerous times, feeling like david is amazing at every sport and i'm not so it makes it 10x harder and him not realizing this, not getting to see leakhena because of her new amazing job at LVMH (not i'm not jealous..maybe just a little), getting into a screaming match about driving to queens with david at 10pm (we were successful despite various road detours and accidents etc, he's an awesome copilot), and other minor ups and downs in general. overall it was a great 3 weeks and i was happy to have spent time at home, my parents were equally as happy.
upon arriving back in france, realization that france is dreary and depressing set in. cold weather, rain, no job, no school, no prospects, friends are gone etc etc.
i'm in the midst of applying to mba programs that offer courses in english and to those who don't necessarily have the 10 years of professional experience usually required. the one i was looking at, inseec, is a work study program that sounded great. unfortunately i just realized there are bac+4 courses in february, only bac+5 which is one year ahead of what i have. boo. so now i'm investigating other options of jan/february but i fear that it might be too late. i'll have to speed study for the gmats and apply asap.
on the other hand there might be an opportunity at Y&R, but i'm not holding my breath. alessandro, a charming italian, took me out to lunch last week to discuss the prospects of a position on the volvic account. it sounded alright, but with my visa situation i'm not too optomistic. i have an interview with hr tomorrow so we'll see what happens.
david and i are good, several times i was reminded of why and how much i love him. together nonstop for 3 weeks was as perfect as one could expect. because i'm not working we get to see eachother every other day which is nice, but i admit that it's losing it's charm. i feel the urgency to get a project moving whether it's a job or school, i need to occupy my mind. i've gotten back into reading and plan to read a lot more in the next few months to keep my mind working. i honestly feel like i've digressed in intelligence over the last few years, something that worries me if i plan on studying at one of the best business schools in the world .
i just go over a case of food poisoning, or something of the sort. last week i couldn't sleep because of terrible stomach pains which lead to a near fainting spell. david was able to lay me down with my feet raised which helped a bit. the strange thing was that i had weird symptoms for the rest of the week (cramps, headache and fever). i'm feeling better now and even went running for 45 minutes yesteday, the first time in 3-4 weeks.
next week david and i are going surfing in the south of france. i'm excited to go but feel like this extended vacationing is not warranted or even deserved. i hate that my parents are still funding me despite the weak dollar and my strong spending habits. to apply to a spring semester program i really need to hurry my ass or i'll be stuck doing nothing for the rest of the year. i hate that my situation is so limited because i don't have a visa and can't really get one. i started to thing that if it weren't for david i'd probably get annoyed and decide to get a move on with my life and either go back home and start working or work for the company matea works for and travel the world on company exenses. it wouldn't be such a bad thing after all. it's funny how david was once the last reason why i wanted to stay and work in france and now he's becoming one of the only reasons...not something i'm entirely thrilled about.
i'm just feeling kinda negative about the whole situation and it's hard to write anything positive at the moment. so i'll stop now.