Lifting Myself out of the Gutter
Today I woke up around 6 pm and hated myself, because I needed to make some phone calls during the business day. I woke up with a headache. I sat at my desk for a bit and said a quick hello to a friend and then looked in my pantry and fridge with a blank stare, because I couldn't think of anything I wanted to eat. I thought, I want to have a good day. Not a blah day. So, I took an Excedrin to get rid of my headache and some vitamins to help boost my energy. My boyfriend suggested we go to Red Robin to eat. I grabbed a TCP/IP text book and he taught me some things about networking while we ate. So, far so good. Now I have to get ready for work. I am working the night shift from 10 pm until 6 am. It's a tough shift.
I had a rough night at work last night, which is probably what carried into my not-so-great mood when I woke up today. I started work last night thinking, "What joy do I have?" I was feeling in the dumps and my co-worker, another server, noticed right away and called me grumpy, LOL. I tried to be happier, by having a little fun while serving, but it still didn't seem to be working. I guess I feel kind of down when I don't have control over my schedule. That's the way I have felt, because I have woken up too late to get anything done before work, including cleaning.
I am finishing writing this journal entry almost a day later and I read it. I realize that I don't hate myself, because hate is such a strong word. I was disappointed with myself. Last night at work was really awesome. I've been reading the book, "How to Win Friends and Influence People" and also, "How to Work a Room: The Ultimate Guide to Savvy Socializing in Person and Online." I've been applying the principles of these books subconsciously and consciously and I have noticed my tips have gone up. Within the last week, I have had two days where I made more money than my co-worker (two servers work the night shift). My tips were 20% or more of my total sales. Wow. I'm not boasting that I'm better than the other server, just typically I've made about the same as the other server in sales and tips. Now, it's improving and that makes me happy. I'm so excited. During work this morning, I took a break to write down a list of things I wanted to get done today and things I needed to get done by Friday (because I have a really busy weekend). That really helped me to refocus. I took a melatonin pill to help me sleep around 8 am this morning. I didn't feel tired around 6 am when I got off work, because I had slept until 6 or 7 pm the previous day. I woke up refreshed only after 6 hours. Awesome. I've accomplished a lot today that was on my list and that is a great feeling, especially for a Capricorn. (Right, Amy?)
I had a rough night at work last night, which is probably what carried into my not-so-great mood when I woke up today. I started work last night thinking, "What joy do I have?" I was feeling in the dumps and my co-worker, another server, noticed right away and called me grumpy, LOL. I tried to be happier, by having a little fun while serving, but it still didn't seem to be working. I guess I feel kind of down when I don't have control over my schedule. That's the way I have felt, because I have woken up too late to get anything done before work, including cleaning.
I am finishing writing this journal entry almost a day later and I read it. I realize that I don't hate myself, because hate is such a strong word. I was disappointed with myself. Last night at work was really awesome. I've been reading the book, "How to Win Friends and Influence People" and also, "How to Work a Room: The Ultimate Guide to Savvy Socializing in Person and Online." I've been applying the principles of these books subconsciously and consciously and I have noticed my tips have gone up. Within the last week, I have had two days where I made more money than my co-worker (two servers work the night shift). My tips were 20% or more of my total sales. Wow. I'm not boasting that I'm better than the other server, just typically I've made about the same as the other server in sales and tips. Now, it's improving and that makes me happy. I'm so excited. During work this morning, I took a break to write down a list of things I wanted to get done today and things I needed to get done by Friday (because I have a really busy weekend). That really helped me to refocus. I took a melatonin pill to help me sleep around 8 am this morning. I didn't feel tired around 6 am when I got off work, because I had slept until 6 or 7 pm the previous day. I woke up refreshed only after 6 hours. Awesome. I've accomplished a lot today that was on my list and that is a great feeling, especially for a Capricorn. (Right, Amy?)