An irritatingly long, pointless, and rambling entry to make up for lost time!!
I'm actually really truly honestly starting college tomorrow. That's just bizarre. I attended the same school from kindergarten through graduation, so I can't remember what it's like to start at a new school. When you're moving up from preschool to kindergarten, you're too young and oblivious to obsess over things like I've been doing for the past few days. It's like I went through the seven stages of grief, except it was the seven stages of stress, heh. First I worried about making friends, then I focused on my appearance, then I frantically wondered if I'll ever be able to locate my buildings and classrooms, and lastly I settled upon excessively trivial details like exactly what time I should arrive at, where I'll sit when I get there, the wording of my potential conversations... seriously, I overanalyze things. The stress manifested itself in my lowest low in months, but then today it dissipated somewhat... or is this just the eye of the storm? No, it's going to be okay, because I'm going to go to college looking at it completely objectively, as a machine. I am not going to regard college as a holy grail anymore, because that's what causes me to obsess and fret like this. I may make friends, and I may not. The important thing is that I work hard to become more skilled and knowledgeable. Right? Right. I can still feel the nervousness swirling in my stomach like some sickness, but I want that to become apathy, or better yet, determination. I can't let these feelings of weakness overwhelm me. If I continue on this path, my own weakness will surely kill me. mumblemumble
By the way, Death Note is amazing! It's my favorite manga right now, even more so than Fruits Basket. It's my favorite anything. It's so intellectual... I experienced physical pleasure from reading it!? How do you figure that? And no, I don't just get off on morbidity and murder, ha ha! This is a series that will definitely make you question your beliefs and maybe even twist you. (Mama, I'm in love with a sociopath, ha ha!)
And guess what? LightxL is my new OTP, replacing SeiferxSquall and Chesmond, if you can believe it! They're perfectly suited to one another, more so than any couple I've encountered, to the point where I have to think, if they're not together, who else could they be with? It's a sad thought, but it makes the relationship that much more powerful. I've never believed in soul mates before, but in this case, I'd actually say they're soul mates. There's just no one else on their emotional or intellectual level. They're meant for each other. <3 (Though, LightxMisa and LightxMikami are also cute couples.)
Anyway, I can't stop reading LightxL fanfiction and doujinshi! I've been doing nothing but reading novel-length fanfiction (on my shiny, speedy new computer <3) for days on end, and it is pure bliss. Even Death Note fanwork is so clever, with such intriguing premises and plot twists, I feel like I'm raising my IQ by reading it - and it's absolutely hilarious, too. I like the unique humor in fanfiction that allows me to cackle like a maniac, choke on my drinks, slam my hand on my desk... heck, I've taken up snorting as part of my laugh recently! Is that cute or just stupid? I'd like to think it's cute. ;; So, yes, I recommend Mind Games and its sequel if you're looking for an excellent, lengthy LightxL fanfic. I enjoyed it so very much. :D
Finally, I can't stop listening to this song! Why don't I upload it for you? Regina Spektor - Après Moi. Please take a listen and enjoy. It is a unique and beautiful song, in my humble opinion.
By the way, Death Note is amazing! It's my favorite manga right now, even more so than Fruits Basket. It's my favorite anything. It's so intellectual... I experienced physical pleasure from reading it!? How do you figure that? And no, I don't just get off on morbidity and murder, ha ha! This is a series that will definitely make you question your beliefs and maybe even twist you. (Mama, I'm in love with a sociopath, ha ha!)
And guess what? LightxL is my new OTP, replacing SeiferxSquall and Chesmond, if you can believe it! They're perfectly suited to one another, more so than any couple I've encountered, to the point where I have to think, if they're not together, who else could they be with? It's a sad thought, but it makes the relationship that much more powerful. I've never believed in soul mates before, but in this case, I'd actually say they're soul mates. There's just no one else on their emotional or intellectual level. They're meant for each other. <3 (Though, LightxMisa and LightxMikami are also cute couples.)
Anyway, I can't stop reading LightxL fanfiction and doujinshi! I've been doing nothing but reading novel-length fanfiction (on my shiny, speedy new computer <3) for days on end, and it is pure bliss. Even Death Note fanwork is so clever, with such intriguing premises and plot twists, I feel like I'm raising my IQ by reading it - and it's absolutely hilarious, too. I like the unique humor in fanfiction that allows me to cackle like a maniac, choke on my drinks, slam my hand on my desk... heck, I've taken up snorting as part of my laugh recently! Is that cute or just stupid? I'd like to think it's cute. ;; So, yes, I recommend Mind Games and its sequel if you're looking for an excellent, lengthy LightxL fanfic. I enjoyed it so very much. :D
Finally, I can't stop listening to this song! Why don't I upload it for you? Regina Spektor - Après Moi. Please take a listen and enjoy. It is a unique and beautiful song, in my humble opinion.