How do you feel today?
I pulled out my Violin today.
Tuned it up, turned on some music and just messed around, playing along with the songs.
It totally made my day;
A. That I can still play
B. That I can play well.
Had my voice lesson. It went really well. Helped me notice a lot of the things I've been doing for months and we've just now figured out how to fix them. It's all in the mechanics and getting to the point where you can just use less breath and it will come out crystal clear. I love voice lessons. I love having music in my life. I'm just so passionate about it.
Tonight a friend of mine said this;
"I hate being alone- seriously. I know its horrible that I am dependant on someone else for my happiness- but thats how it is."
And I responded to them with this;
"I don't think it's so horrible to be "dependent on someone else for your happiness" I mean, you're still you when you're alone, you're still a functioning human being. Happiness comes in many shapes and sizes. I seek out my happiness as often as I can, in music, personal triumphs, taking the me-time I need and doing productive things with the rest of my time. (it probably helps that I have my family so close) but really it's not like we can just sit around and think "Okay I'm happy now" without anything exterior having any effect, and have that work 100% of the time. Just do what you need to take care of yourself and don't apologize for it."
And I really whole-heartedly do feel that way.
I used to think I needed someone else to make me happy, to make me feel beautiful.
And while another person may increase my happiness or increase how beautiful I feel, I understand the difference between the two.
I am me. I'm intelligent. I'm beautiful. I'm happy.
I don't have anyone serious in my life right now, and I haven't for a very long time.
But I do take pleasure in making a guy smile, or laugh.
There are guys in my life who do brighten my day with their presence so it's not like I'm devoid of a male presence in my day-to-day life.
I find myself in the people around me and in the things I do.
When I'm talking to a co-worker and they actually care about the things I'm saying - it's that they care about me enough to listen - so I know that I'm not alone.
When I'm in my room by myself belting out show tunes, or other songs, or (like today) playing my violin I feel like I'm doing something wonderful because it's special to me.
Today was a good day;
Violin
Voice
Nap
and soon to be Grey's Anatomy.
Hope everyone else is well.
Tuned it up, turned on some music and just messed around, playing along with the songs.
It totally made my day;
A. That I can still play
B. That I can play well.
Had my voice lesson. It went really well. Helped me notice a lot of the things I've been doing for months and we've just now figured out how to fix them. It's all in the mechanics and getting to the point where you can just use less breath and it will come out crystal clear. I love voice lessons. I love having music in my life. I'm just so passionate about it.
Tonight a friend of mine said this;
"I hate being alone- seriously. I know its horrible that I am dependant on someone else for my happiness- but thats how it is."
And I responded to them with this;
"I don't think it's so horrible to be "dependent on someone else for your happiness" I mean, you're still you when you're alone, you're still a functioning human being. Happiness comes in many shapes and sizes. I seek out my happiness as often as I can, in music, personal triumphs, taking the me-time I need and doing productive things with the rest of my time. (it probably helps that I have my family so close) but really it's not like we can just sit around and think "Okay I'm happy now" without anything exterior having any effect, and have that work 100% of the time. Just do what you need to take care of yourself and don't apologize for it."
And I really whole-heartedly do feel that way.
I used to think I needed someone else to make me happy, to make me feel beautiful.
And while another person may increase my happiness or increase how beautiful I feel, I understand the difference between the two.
I am me. I'm intelligent. I'm beautiful. I'm happy.
I don't have anyone serious in my life right now, and I haven't for a very long time.
But I do take pleasure in making a guy smile, or laugh.
There are guys in my life who do brighten my day with their presence so it's not like I'm devoid of a male presence in my day-to-day life.
I find myself in the people around me and in the things I do.
When I'm talking to a co-worker and they actually care about the things I'm saying - it's that they care about me enough to listen - so I know that I'm not alone.
When I'm in my room by myself belting out show tunes, or other songs, or (like today) playing my violin I feel like I'm doing something wonderful because it's special to me.
Today was a good day;
Violin
Voice
Nap
and soon to be Grey's Anatomy.
Hope everyone else is well.