I am
Ok, hopefully people are reading because I consider this the most important journal I've ever written. Haha, got you. I did spend a lot of time writing this, but I'm not sure why. Apparently from time to time I feel the need to define who I am in case you already didn't know. But here it is anyway.
I am not a god.
I see them walking around, noses in the sky in some bizarre ritual of self worship. They are oblivious to the mortals that surround them, and they march about like giants among ants. They have mastery over everything, even themselves, basking in their unabashed greatness. And religions spring up around these towering figures, religions made up of people lost in the diety's delusion. And I know that while I act like it at times, I am not one of them.
I am not a man.
I see them sitting around, determined not to show themselves. Bragging about how much they can lift, how much they can drink, how many women they can get. They are in a bar, telling a story about how they wrestled a shark to impress some girl whose name they never bothered to learn. They fight for honor as if there is anything honorable in spilling another's blood. Alone they are simply rediculous, but in groups they start wars, destroy homes and lives, and forge weapons. And I know that while I may act like it at times, I am not one of them.
I am myself.
Other people see me wandering around and give me strange looks. I come off as odd, irritating, even obnoxious at times. I hold on to my beliefs so tightly that I can hear and discuss other opinions. I may not be the most attractive, the most intelligent, the most talented, or the strongest, but I am the most Russell-like. I believe in the good in the world, despite having been disappointed again and again. I believe that there is art and beauty all around us even in this age of urban sprawl and rappers. I believe that fights should be few and furious and that romantic conquests should be drawn-out challenges with surprises around every corner. I believe that sports stars are overvalued and teachers underappreciated. I believe that rock songs should be twenty minutes long with fifteen minute instrumentals and I believe in long, drawn-out conversations about God and philosophy. And above all, I believe that even though I might not know how to handle it yet, love is the most powerful force in the universe. This is me, take it or leave it.
I am not a god.
I see them walking around, noses in the sky in some bizarre ritual of self worship. They are oblivious to the mortals that surround them, and they march about like giants among ants. They have mastery over everything, even themselves, basking in their unabashed greatness. And religions spring up around these towering figures, religions made up of people lost in the diety's delusion. And I know that while I act like it at times, I am not one of them.
I am not a man.
I see them sitting around, determined not to show themselves. Bragging about how much they can lift, how much they can drink, how many women they can get. They are in a bar, telling a story about how they wrestled a shark to impress some girl whose name they never bothered to learn. They fight for honor as if there is anything honorable in spilling another's blood. Alone they are simply rediculous, but in groups they start wars, destroy homes and lives, and forge weapons. And I know that while I may act like it at times, I am not one of them.
I am myself.
Other people see me wandering around and give me strange looks. I come off as odd, irritating, even obnoxious at times. I hold on to my beliefs so tightly that I can hear and discuss other opinions. I may not be the most attractive, the most intelligent, the most talented, or the strongest, but I am the most Russell-like. I believe in the good in the world, despite having been disappointed again and again. I believe that there is art and beauty all around us even in this age of urban sprawl and rappers. I believe that fights should be few and furious and that romantic conquests should be drawn-out challenges with surprises around every corner. I believe that sports stars are overvalued and teachers underappreciated. I believe that rock songs should be twenty minutes long with fifteen minute instrumentals and I believe in long, drawn-out conversations about God and philosophy. And above all, I believe that even though I might not know how to handle it yet, love is the most powerful force in the universe. This is me, take it or leave it.