What a hell of a month this has been. My grandmother passed away suddenly and unexpectedly on the evening of the 12th, one of my cats had to be euthanised the day after that, and to-night I came home from work to find a note from my father saying that my mother's been taken to hospital for an irregular heartbeat. He's since returned and explained ( Read more... )

So here I am in the States-suburban Kansas City, Kansas to be more precise-to spend my annual two-week holiday visiting wolfpaws and his boyfriend Todd. I've actually been here for the past nine days but that time has passed distressingly quickly, and I'm bothered even more by the fact that I haven't yet gone out on my own to sightsee and really take in ( Read more... )

A very happy Canada Day to all my fellow Canadians who are reading this. I hope your several-hour-long wait in line for the celebratory free buffet at your local Mandarin restaurant was more fruitful than mine. ;)

To-day I bought the very first pieces of furniture that I can truly call my own: a pair of oak candlesticks. They're a very small first step towards being able someday to furnish my own apartment, but they're a first step nevertheless, and I could scarcely be happier for it (and that they're not from IKEA ;) ).

Arrived safely at home yesterday morning after an eleven-day visit with wolfpaws and halex in Kansas City, Missouri. The bus ride was uneventful but far too long for me to consider doing all at once again. Next time I think I'll break it up into two parts with an overnight stay in Chicago. That'll hopefully give me a chance to get some sleep on my way to KC, ( Read more... )

I had many impulses to write since the last entry I made in February, but because I was so embarrassed about so many things about my life I could hardly breathe a word to anyone about what I was doing, much less write about it. I'm still very embarrassed and my life is very compartmentalised because of it, with friends, family, school, politics and ( Read more... )

Here's an uncommon twist on the Myers-Briggs profiles that I'm familiar with: a 'brutally honest' description of one's personality type that discouragingly highlights its shortcomings instead of encouragingly playing up its strengths. Not that I had to take an OkCupid quiz to realise that I'm boring, but the insulting and pessimistic tone of my ( Read more... )

Like I have been for much for the past week or so, I'm in a somewhat antisocial, peevish and all-around cranky mood, probably from a combination of recent anxieties and frustrations that I've let fester for fear of failure or embarrassment. But I promised a friend that I'd write something here to-day to break my almost five months' silence, and I ( Read more... )

To-day is the 29th anniversary of my being born a day late. Although I'm not as far ahead in life at this age as years ago I thought I should be, I have the consolations, at least, that I still have no grey hairs, no sign of male-pattern baldness, no crow's feet, no ripening jowls nor dewlaps, no sagging paunch, and all my natural teeth, riddled ( Read more... )

My probationary period at my workplace is almost over. I can hardly fathom that it's already been almost three months since I began working there, and that it's also been almost that long since I wrote my last entry here. As usual, I've had no shortage of thoughts and experiences since then, but I've been reluctant to write about them here and ( Read more... )