Oh my dear you look so lost...
I'm tired of working. I'm tired of doing school work, haha ,and like...not knowing if it's right. Im tired or grades being so limited, and papers being so important. I love college, dont get me wrong, and I love one of my classes....the other three make me wanna kill myself and I"m behind, which sucks because like...I have midterms coming up. And I'm trying not ot waste so much time, but Christ am I stressed.
Then can I just say that boys are fucking morons. I'm really tired of them...I'm kind of aggravated right now, no joke. I know that I Just have to see him, but jesus christ I wont know whether to kick him or kiss him...maybe do both...I just kinda wanna like...scream, and of course I can't really talk to anybody else about it cuz they dont really know the background and i'm just like...grah. But in hte end it's okay...I know it'll work out...
But I love college. It makes me happy. My favorite part is where I am appreciated. People love me, and call me, and wanna do stuff with me. It's amazing. I have no desire to back in high school, so to those who're obsessed with that drama...stop. High School is over...dont even pretend you were that nice in high school, because you weren't. A pre-requisite of a good life is growing up. So what: people make up and people break up, there's a whole fucking world out there, and treating people like shit isn't going to help you embrace it. You can say all you want about me. I'm happier without you. I dont need your friendship, of course I will always welcome any overtures you make towards reconciliation...however, i mean in a talking-adult sense. No more bullshit. I honestly dont have the time or energy to let people in my life who are just looking to get even. The funny thing is that there isn't anything to get even about. My concience is clear. I know who I am, and what I'm like. The funny part is that I didn't have to do anything, and other people learned/remembered. So you're the only one who hates me now...which is fine with me.
And deleting those people from my life was not an act of immaturity or anger...it was just the acknowledgement that I didn't care enough to play "pretend" and that actually, I was moving on, and didn't need them. Besides, I needed more space in my piece of shit cellphone for new numbers, lol.
Currently I am sitting in my room with some buddies. We're actually all studying so I'm not going to end up on academic probation...I hope. I'm just really stressed, but I figure it'll all work out...I hope.
I can't wait for next weekend, it is much needed....
peace and love =)
Then can I just say that boys are fucking morons. I'm really tired of them...I'm kind of aggravated right now, no joke. I know that I Just have to see him, but jesus christ I wont know whether to kick him or kiss him...maybe do both...I just kinda wanna like...scream, and of course I can't really talk to anybody else about it cuz they dont really know the background and i'm just like...grah. But in hte end it's okay...I know it'll work out...
But I love college. It makes me happy. My favorite part is where I am appreciated. People love me, and call me, and wanna do stuff with me. It's amazing. I have no desire to back in high school, so to those who're obsessed with that drama...stop. High School is over...dont even pretend you were that nice in high school, because you weren't. A pre-requisite of a good life is growing up. So what: people make up and people break up, there's a whole fucking world out there, and treating people like shit isn't going to help you embrace it. You can say all you want about me. I'm happier without you. I dont need your friendship, of course I will always welcome any overtures you make towards reconciliation...however, i mean in a talking-adult sense. No more bullshit. I honestly dont have the time or energy to let people in my life who are just looking to get even. The funny thing is that there isn't anything to get even about. My concience is clear. I know who I am, and what I'm like. The funny part is that I didn't have to do anything, and other people learned/remembered. So you're the only one who hates me now...which is fine with me.
And deleting those people from my life was not an act of immaturity or anger...it was just the acknowledgement that I didn't care enough to play "pretend" and that actually, I was moving on, and didn't need them. Besides, I needed more space in my piece of shit cellphone for new numbers, lol.
Currently I am sitting in my room with some buddies. We're actually all studying so I'm not going to end up on academic probation...I hope. I'm just really stressed, but I figure it'll all work out...I hope.
I can't wait for next weekend, it is much needed....
peace and love =)