Stress: now in new packing.
I'm having some stress.
Type 1: Regular job stress (making myself seem responsible, competent, and pleasant to others). Usually manageable. Now with added pressure of trying to make myself hireable so i could get a permanent job at CAMH.
Type 2: Thinking ahead stress - about my life, where it's going, and where I'll be working/living come December of next year.
Type 3: Change-associated stress of finishing one fellowship and starting another. It didn't help that when I called Payroll nothing was in place for paying me for November or December. Fixed now, but still, stressed.
Type 4: Guilt and panic stress due to being behind on the fellowship that's ending. AAAAaaaa! Still transcribing! Qualitative analysis not yet done! Presenting on this on december 3rd with no real results yet! May have something solid by the 3rd, but will muddle through anyway.
Type 4: Reproductive stress as I race to the finish line of my fertility while trying to secure stable housing and income along the way. Is this period too short? Too light? Does that mean anything? Should I be worried? When should I stop taking these pills? How will I know if it's too late already?
Type 5: Brother stress. I have a court date tomorrow, for example, at which I may be expected to pay upwards of $6k. This is one of many court dates, all of which relate back to December of last year.
Type 6: Money stress. Used to be a regular on The Moogie Show, but now only stops in for guest appearances. Been living off my credit cards until I get paid due to larger than usual expenses in October and November, coupled with late pay schedule.
I'm getting rashes on my feet and hands, back pain (which could also be related to carrying the laundry, and to sneezing and coughing), and other stress-associated flare-ups. My teeth hurt, and I worry I need to go to the dentist, which brings an avalanche of fear and shame and money anxiety a-flowing.
Luckily, my relationship with mr_pugh is solid. My relationship with my boss is good. My work is mostly rewarding. I have solid credit that support me when things get dicy financially. I'm earning money and am up to date on all my bills.
So I've been re-reading Dale carnegie's How To Stop Worrying And Start Living - a very dated book with great strategies. Lately I've been "living in day-tight containers," one day at a time, focusing only on what do I need to do right now? Today? It's helping. That, and remembering to breathe.
Type 1: Regular job stress (making myself seem responsible, competent, and pleasant to others). Usually manageable. Now with added pressure of trying to make myself hireable so i could get a permanent job at CAMH.
Type 2: Thinking ahead stress - about my life, where it's going, and where I'll be working/living come December of next year.
Type 3: Change-associated stress of finishing one fellowship and starting another. It didn't help that when I called Payroll nothing was in place for paying me for November or December. Fixed now, but still, stressed.
Type 4: Guilt and panic stress due to being behind on the fellowship that's ending. AAAAaaaa! Still transcribing! Qualitative analysis not yet done! Presenting on this on december 3rd with no real results yet! May have something solid by the 3rd, but will muddle through anyway.
Type 4: Reproductive stress as I race to the finish line of my fertility while trying to secure stable housing and income along the way. Is this period too short? Too light? Does that mean anything? Should I be worried? When should I stop taking these pills? How will I know if it's too late already?
Type 5: Brother stress. I have a court date tomorrow, for example, at which I may be expected to pay upwards of $6k. This is one of many court dates, all of which relate back to December of last year.
Type 6: Money stress. Used to be a regular on The Moogie Show, but now only stops in for guest appearances. Been living off my credit cards until I get paid due to larger than usual expenses in October and November, coupled with late pay schedule.
I'm getting rashes on my feet and hands, back pain (which could also be related to carrying the laundry, and to sneezing and coughing), and other stress-associated flare-ups. My teeth hurt, and I worry I need to go to the dentist, which brings an avalanche of fear and shame and money anxiety a-flowing.
Luckily, my relationship with mr_pugh is solid. My relationship with my boss is good. My work is mostly rewarding. I have solid credit that support me when things get dicy financially. I'm earning money and am up to date on all my bills.
So I've been re-reading Dale carnegie's How To Stop Worrying And Start Living - a very dated book with great strategies. Lately I've been "living in day-tight containers," one day at a time, focusing only on what do I need to do right now? Today? It's helping. That, and remembering to breathe.