i know...i sound like the biggest bitch right now
Every night I, I lay inside my bed and dream, I wonder if I ever meant anything, but do your loving know that you hurt me so bad and I, cause I will try, much did I try, I tried, but I, I wont suceed, because everyday away from you is one away from me....TRY:OFF BY ONE
psycochild5150: BOO
crazeedizzee: hey
crazeedizzee: what are you up to?
psycochild5150: i went look for u?/
crazeedizzee: ok
crazeedizzee: my mommy told me
crazeedizzee: i was at rubys with dev....we were feeding our fat asses with her sis
crazeedizzee: it was so funny...tree hugger
psycochild5150: bitch
psycochild5150: lucky i keep calling dev but she never picked her phone up
crazeedizzee: hmmm
crazeedizzee: i think she had it on vibrate
crazeedizzee: because when we were at my mommys work
psycochild5150: ooo me like
crazeedizzee: and then she had it in her back pack so she didnt know
psycochild5150: ooo i c no she should of had it in the front poket
crazeedizzee: ok
psycochild5150: lol hmmm chris say.... bitch
crazeedizzee: what?
psycochild5150: nothgi
crazeedizzee: PIZZA IS HERE
psycochild5150: ooo
crazeedizzee: is chris there right now again?
psycochild5150: yup yup
psycochild5150: ahh
psycochild5150: !!!
crazeedizzee: ahh?
psycochild5150: why??
crazeedizzee: AHH...MY COMP JUST MOOED AT ME
psycochild5150: hahahahah
crazeedizzee: its the alert for dillion thats why
psycochild5150: ooo hahahah
crazeedizzee: it was just scary
psycochild5150: scary
psycochild5150: yup yup
psycochild5150: hmmmmmmmmmm
psycochild5150: * o o o o bubble*....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................*POP*... nooooooo
crazeedizzee: no
psycochild5150: i know their diying on me ahh
crazeedizzee: no
psycochild5150: i now save them hey r u still going 2 give me the negative pic??
psycochild5150: so i can get the pic i want??
crazeedizzee: oh yea...me forgot
crazeedizzee: yea
psycochild5150: dam u
psycochild5150: ok give then 2 chris k cause he"ll give them 2 me k
crazeedizzee: umm...when am i supposed to see chris
psycochild5150: 2mrrow!
psycochild5150: he will see u at lunch and then go 2 me at lunch and give them 2 me
crazeedizzee: check out this journl...youll like it
crazeedizzee: http://www.deadjournal.com/users/insomniah/
psycochild5150: oo me do like
crazeedizzee: see...me told you
psycochild5150: i know ur good
crazeedizzee: DUH
crazeedizzee: i do know my twiggys
psycochild5150: yup yup
crazeedizzee: you wanted to know what i was talking about when i said the robby drinking comment...go look at the very old journal...www.ujournal.org/users/yezzie
crazeedizzee: its somewhere on there
psycochild5150: ok then
psycochild5150: lol i have a ujornal
crazeedizzee: lolx
crazeedizzee: why?!
psycochild5150: cause i wanted one
psycochild5150: yup yup
crazeedizzee: you loser
psycochild5150: yea whatever bitch hahah
crazeedizzee: GOD....I FORGOT HOW MUCH OF A DRAMA QUEEN I WAS, AND HOW MUCH I WAS STUCK IN MY OWN POINT OF VIEW
crazeedizzee: glad ive learned alitte bit
psycochild5150: lol hahahahahaha u woke up
psycochild5150: good
crazeedizzee: atleast someone can learn from there mistakes
psycochild5150: hey me and u still going 2 new york right??
psycochild5150: huh anywaz!!
crazeedizzee: you do realize one of these times its not going to be an anyways conversation
psycochild5150: what u mean by that??
crazeedizzee: i mean....you still havent learned very much from your mistakes
psycochild5150: yes i have
crazeedizzee: and when i try to talk to you about that stuff, you think im joking....but its gotten past joking now
crazeedizzee: you're really started to worry me
crazeedizzee: like a fucking lot
psycochild5150: no dont worry i have done anything for awhile
crazeedizzee: and if this keeps up, i mught have to make it and out of sight out of mind type of thing
psycochild5150: hmmm wht u mean?/
crazeedizzee: yea...thats why it says on your journal you just took something earlier today
crazeedizzee: i mean...that even though i want to be your friend, you might no longer be the acception to the rules
psycochild5150: what??
psycochild5150: what rules??
crazeedizzee: umm...weve gone over this before...remember, when you wanted to know why i wasnt being nice to oliver and what not
psycochild5150: hmmm i know but hun u seem like i am going 2 die soon!!'
crazeedizzee: for all i know, you can
crazeedizzee: you can die every single time you do any of that stuff
psycochild5150: but i am not so dont think that way
crazeedizzee: and you seem to have this idea that it will never happen to you
psycochild5150: well cause its not
crazeedizzee: i was alight with the drnking and the pot, but now that its getting into heaver stuff, i dont want to be around that
crazeedizzee: i dont want to watch you lose control
psycochild5150: well ur not tho
psycochild5150: i am not i can controle it
crazeedizzee: i dont want to be the bystander to your slow suicide
psycochild5150: what ur not tho
crazeedizzee: i usually dont let a friendship even go this far
crazeedizzee: and in a little while, im going to be getting out from the backseat
psycochild5150: what u mean?? srry yezzie but ur confuseing me?/
psycochild5150: so ur say i cant be ur friend cause i do drugs??
crazeedizzee: like ive said time and time to you, im not going to stand around and watch all this happen, im not going to watch your life go down the drain
psycochild5150: but u now i chose u over drugs u now that!!
crazeedizzee: for awhile there i truely thought i could stop you, but the problem is you dont want to stop
crazeedizzee: YOU SAY THAT, BUT SO FAR YOU HAVENT SHOWED IT
psycochild5150: huh yea i have i have not dont any fucking drugs but 2 day woo big fucking deal
crazeedizzee: hun im about to start crying, because i feel like im usualess to you now
crazeedizzee: do you not get that?!
psycochild5150: ur not tho
psycochild5150: i luv my yezzie
psycochild5150: and ur a good friend 2 me
crazeedizzee: you keep saying that drugs rnt a big thing in your life, that you have control of it....BUT YOU CAN NEVER HAVE CONTROL OF SOMETHING THAT DANGEROUS
psycochild5150: yes u can!!
psycochild5150: huh i am not like how it use 2 be were i go do it everday i stop that
crazeedizzee: it doesnt matter how often you do it, it matters that you do it
crazeedizzee: people die everyday from that.....EVEREYSINGLE FREAKING HOUR...some because there addicted, others because they just thought they could handle it, and more from the wrong hit at the wrong time
psycochild5150: hun i am not going 2 die and stop tripping
psycochild5150: i mean ill stop some time
psycochild5150: it not like i am going 2 do it the rest of my life
crazeedizzee: DON YOU NOT GET IT....YOUR NOT GOING TO HAVE A REST OF YOUR LIFE
psycochild5150: yes i am
psycochild5150: why u say i am not?
crazeedizzee: because your throwing you life away right now
psycochild5150: no i am not i am still in skool right
crazeedizzee: twiggy...i never wanted it to come to this, and i truely thought it wouldnt, i truely thought it would change, i could change it, but it has come here....
psycochild5150: what has come??
crazeedizzee: i cant be around you like this
crazeedizzee: i cant be around this stuff
psycochild5150: huh ur not tho
psycochild5150: ur never around me
crazeedizzee: thats another point that made me come to this conclusion
psycochild5150: what??
crazeedizzee: im not going to be the by stander anymore!
psycochild5150: but u never where?/
crazeedizzee: JUST BECAUSE IM NOT THERE DOESNT MEAN IT DOESNT EFFECT ME
crazeedizzee: just because i wasnt there when you die, wont mean iit has nothing to do with me
psycochild5150: well i am srry u feel like this.. but huh i mean u make me sound like a i need drugs all the time!!
crazeedizzee: im not saying that
psycochild5150: but thats what your making it seem like
crazeedizzee: im saying that in order for us to be still friends im going to step back, and let you do with your life as you want
crazeedizzee: im no longer going to be watching you from the side lines, wishing i could change something
psycochild5150: your a friend for caring donm't get me wrong
psycochild5150: but you have to let me learn by my self
crazeedizzee: damnit twiggy...i love you to the moon and back, dont get me wrong...but thats exactly what ive tried to do, and you havent learned
psycochild5150: but its all on my time
crazeedizzee: you havent seemed to figure out that you never are around anymore...that you never see me, that you dont even act like a friend anymore
psycochild5150: yea i do
psycochild5150: i ask about all the time
crazeedizzee: twiggy...youre not there anymore
psycochild5150: huh
psycochild5150: hey gtg but we will talk 2 morrow k
crazeedizzee: no we wont, i dont want to talk about it, ive said all i had to say
psycochild5150: we'll talk tomorrow
crazeedizzee: ne. no we wont
psycochild5150: yes
psycochild5150 signed off at 7:51:47 PM.
it had to be said....i couldnt just be the by stander anymore...i cant do this anymore...i cant wait for 3 days to hear from him, i cant wait around wondering what he is going, i cant wait around for the news that he isnt coming back
its too hard to wait for...
psycochild5150: BOO
crazeedizzee: hey
crazeedizzee: what are you up to?
psycochild5150: i went look for u?/
crazeedizzee: ok
crazeedizzee: my mommy told me
crazeedizzee: i was at rubys with dev....we were feeding our fat asses with her sis
crazeedizzee: it was so funny...tree hugger
psycochild5150: bitch
psycochild5150: lucky i keep calling dev but she never picked her phone up
crazeedizzee: hmmm
crazeedizzee: i think she had it on vibrate
crazeedizzee: because when we were at my mommys work
psycochild5150: ooo me like
crazeedizzee: and then she had it in her back pack so she didnt know
psycochild5150: ooo i c no she should of had it in the front poket
crazeedizzee: ok
psycochild5150: lol hmmm chris say.... bitch
crazeedizzee: what?
psycochild5150: nothgi
crazeedizzee: PIZZA IS HERE
psycochild5150: ooo
crazeedizzee: is chris there right now again?
psycochild5150: yup yup
psycochild5150: ahh
psycochild5150: !!!
crazeedizzee: ahh?
psycochild5150: why??
crazeedizzee: AHH...MY COMP JUST MOOED AT ME
psycochild5150: hahahahah
crazeedizzee: its the alert for dillion thats why
psycochild5150: ooo hahahah
crazeedizzee: it was just scary
psycochild5150: scary
psycochild5150: yup yup
psycochild5150: hmmmmmmmmmm
psycochild5150: * o o o o bubble*....................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................*POP*... nooooooo
crazeedizzee: no
psycochild5150: i know their diying on me ahh
crazeedizzee: no
psycochild5150: i now save them hey r u still going 2 give me the negative pic??
psycochild5150: so i can get the pic i want??
crazeedizzee: oh yea...me forgot
crazeedizzee: yea
psycochild5150: dam u
psycochild5150: ok give then 2 chris k cause he"ll give them 2 me k
crazeedizzee: umm...when am i supposed to see chris
psycochild5150: 2mrrow!
psycochild5150: he will see u at lunch and then go 2 me at lunch and give them 2 me
crazeedizzee: check out this journl...youll like it
crazeedizzee: http://www.deadjournal.com/users/insomniah/
psycochild5150: oo me do like
crazeedizzee: see...me told you
psycochild5150: i know ur good
crazeedizzee: DUH
crazeedizzee: i do know my twiggys
psycochild5150: yup yup
crazeedizzee: you wanted to know what i was talking about when i said the robby drinking comment...go look at the very old journal...www.ujournal.org/users/yezzie
crazeedizzee: its somewhere on there
psycochild5150: ok then
psycochild5150: lol i have a ujornal
crazeedizzee: lolx
crazeedizzee: why?!
psycochild5150: cause i wanted one
psycochild5150: yup yup
crazeedizzee: you loser
psycochild5150: yea whatever bitch hahah
crazeedizzee: GOD....I FORGOT HOW MUCH OF A DRAMA QUEEN I WAS, AND HOW MUCH I WAS STUCK IN MY OWN POINT OF VIEW
crazeedizzee: glad ive learned alitte bit
psycochild5150: lol hahahahahaha u woke up
psycochild5150: good
crazeedizzee: atleast someone can learn from there mistakes
psycochild5150: hey me and u still going 2 new york right??
psycochild5150: huh anywaz!!
crazeedizzee: you do realize one of these times its not going to be an anyways conversation
psycochild5150: what u mean by that??
crazeedizzee: i mean....you still havent learned very much from your mistakes
psycochild5150: yes i have
crazeedizzee: and when i try to talk to you about that stuff, you think im joking....but its gotten past joking now
crazeedizzee: you're really started to worry me
crazeedizzee: like a fucking lot
psycochild5150: no dont worry i have done anything for awhile
crazeedizzee: and if this keeps up, i mught have to make it and out of sight out of mind type of thing
psycochild5150: hmmm wht u mean?/
crazeedizzee: yea...thats why it says on your journal you just took something earlier today
crazeedizzee: i mean...that even though i want to be your friend, you might no longer be the acception to the rules
psycochild5150: what??
psycochild5150: what rules??
crazeedizzee: umm...weve gone over this before...remember, when you wanted to know why i wasnt being nice to oliver and what not
psycochild5150: hmmm i know but hun u seem like i am going 2 die soon!!'
crazeedizzee: for all i know, you can
crazeedizzee: you can die every single time you do any of that stuff
psycochild5150: but i am not so dont think that way
crazeedizzee: and you seem to have this idea that it will never happen to you
psycochild5150: well cause its not
crazeedizzee: i was alight with the drnking and the pot, but now that its getting into heaver stuff, i dont want to be around that
crazeedizzee: i dont want to watch you lose control
psycochild5150: well ur not tho
psycochild5150: i am not i can controle it
crazeedizzee: i dont want to be the bystander to your slow suicide
psycochild5150: what ur not tho
crazeedizzee: i usually dont let a friendship even go this far
crazeedizzee: and in a little while, im going to be getting out from the backseat
psycochild5150: what u mean?? srry yezzie but ur confuseing me?/
psycochild5150: so ur say i cant be ur friend cause i do drugs??
crazeedizzee: like ive said time and time to you, im not going to stand around and watch all this happen, im not going to watch your life go down the drain
psycochild5150: but u now i chose u over drugs u now that!!
crazeedizzee: for awhile there i truely thought i could stop you, but the problem is you dont want to stop
crazeedizzee: YOU SAY THAT, BUT SO FAR YOU HAVENT SHOWED IT
psycochild5150: huh yea i have i have not dont any fucking drugs but 2 day woo big fucking deal
crazeedizzee: hun im about to start crying, because i feel like im usualess to you now
crazeedizzee: do you not get that?!
psycochild5150: ur not tho
psycochild5150: i luv my yezzie
psycochild5150: and ur a good friend 2 me
crazeedizzee: you keep saying that drugs rnt a big thing in your life, that you have control of it....BUT YOU CAN NEVER HAVE CONTROL OF SOMETHING THAT DANGEROUS
psycochild5150: yes u can!!
psycochild5150: huh i am not like how it use 2 be were i go do it everday i stop that
crazeedizzee: it doesnt matter how often you do it, it matters that you do it
crazeedizzee: people die everyday from that.....EVEREYSINGLE FREAKING HOUR...some because there addicted, others because they just thought they could handle it, and more from the wrong hit at the wrong time
psycochild5150: hun i am not going 2 die and stop tripping
psycochild5150: i mean ill stop some time
psycochild5150: it not like i am going 2 do it the rest of my life
crazeedizzee: DON YOU NOT GET IT....YOUR NOT GOING TO HAVE A REST OF YOUR LIFE
psycochild5150: yes i am
psycochild5150: why u say i am not?
crazeedizzee: because your throwing you life away right now
psycochild5150: no i am not i am still in skool right
crazeedizzee: twiggy...i never wanted it to come to this, and i truely thought it wouldnt, i truely thought it would change, i could change it, but it has come here....
psycochild5150: what has come??
crazeedizzee: i cant be around you like this
crazeedizzee: i cant be around this stuff
psycochild5150: huh ur not tho
psycochild5150: ur never around me
crazeedizzee: thats another point that made me come to this conclusion
psycochild5150: what??
crazeedizzee: im not going to be the by stander anymore!
psycochild5150: but u never where?/
crazeedizzee: JUST BECAUSE IM NOT THERE DOESNT MEAN IT DOESNT EFFECT ME
crazeedizzee: just because i wasnt there when you die, wont mean iit has nothing to do with me
psycochild5150: well i am srry u feel like this.. but huh i mean u make me sound like a i need drugs all the time!!
crazeedizzee: im not saying that
psycochild5150: but thats what your making it seem like
crazeedizzee: im saying that in order for us to be still friends im going to step back, and let you do with your life as you want
crazeedizzee: im no longer going to be watching you from the side lines, wishing i could change something
psycochild5150: your a friend for caring donm't get me wrong
psycochild5150: but you have to let me learn by my self
crazeedizzee: damnit twiggy...i love you to the moon and back, dont get me wrong...but thats exactly what ive tried to do, and you havent learned
psycochild5150: but its all on my time
crazeedizzee: you havent seemed to figure out that you never are around anymore...that you never see me, that you dont even act like a friend anymore
psycochild5150: yea i do
psycochild5150: i ask about all the time
crazeedizzee: twiggy...youre not there anymore
psycochild5150: huh
psycochild5150: hey gtg but we will talk 2 morrow k
crazeedizzee: no we wont, i dont want to talk about it, ive said all i had to say
psycochild5150: we'll talk tomorrow
crazeedizzee: ne. no we wont
psycochild5150: yes
psycochild5150 signed off at 7:51:47 PM.
it had to be said....i couldnt just be the by stander anymore...i cant do this anymore...i cant wait for 3 days to hear from him, i cant wait around wondering what he is going, i cant wait around for the news that he isnt coming back
its too hard to wait for...