the rest of the conversation, i didnt have enough time last night to put it up
psycochild5150: ok i am back so whats going on then?
psycochild5150: so we r still going 2 be friends or no?/ i want 2 now!!
crazeedizzee: i guess then no
psycochild5150: why?/
psycochild5150: i need a good dam reason!!
crazeedizzee: because i cant be around somebody who doesnt see what they are doing to themselves
crazeedizzee: and to some of there freids around them
crazeedizzee: friends*
psycochild5150: u make me sound blinde but i am not
psycochild5150: u now whats so sad i thought we were going 2 be friend fro a long time. what was i thinking its dum that u cant be my friend cause i hardly do fucking drugs thats sad
crazeedizzee: you asked for a yes or no answer, i gave it to you, you asked for a reason, i gave it to you
psycochild5150: yea but it wasnt good enoff
crazeedizzee: what...you want me to explain that no matter what i love you, but i cant be around you anymore?
psycochild5150: its so sad how ur just thoring me away
psycochild5150: and i never would do that
psycochild5150: 2 u
crazeedizzee: you want me to tell you that even though i put this off for so long, it finally came up, and i said what i had been thinking about ever since school started
crazeedizzee: you want me to tell you that i feel like an outsider in your world
crazeedizzee: like im the one thats doing everything wrong
psycochild5150: no ur not dont
crazeedizzee: that, because im the one that doesnt do any of this, i dont get any of your time
crazeedizzee: or attention
psycochild5150: huh! hey i am fucking grounded and i have 2 go home after my skool is over so yea i cant see u but i always ask about u
crazeedizzee: you want to know that i so didnt want it to come to this, but the harder i am trying to hold on the more you back off
psycochild5150: i am not backing off of u
psycochild5150: i cant believe u think that
crazeedizzee: you dont even see how much you hurt me, how much that youve gone to me do you?
psycochild5150: what i never ment 2 hurt u and u now that!
crazeedizzee: you dont even see that by doing this your making it so much harder on me....that by bringing drugs into your life, you brought them into mine
psycochild5150: how u dont even do them
psycochild5150: so i dont see how that is
psycochild5150: i cant believe after all i did for u!! and u throw me away like nothing huh!!
psycochild5150: i cant believe that
crazeedizzee: if you meant nothing to me, you wouldnt even know me
crazeedizzee: you were my fucking world, and you threw me aside
psycochild5150: no i didnt i never did that
crazeedizzee: me and dev, we were you world....remember us...even when you werent grounded you bearly paid any attention to us
psycochild5150: no not fucking true
crazeedizzee: just because your around doesnt mean youre actually there...you havent been there for a lot longer
crazeedizzee: you were too caght up in your own world
psycochild5150: huh i know cause i go 2 a different skool
crazeedizzee: FUCKING BEFORE THAT
psycochild5150: no i did
psycochild5150: i alway heard u out and dev
crazeedizzee: you say that....but were you really...think about it
psycochild5150: no i didnt think about thorwing u guys aside
crazeedizzee: think about the last time we spent the whole day together
psycochild5150: how dare u say that
crazeedizzee: thinking about how long ago that was
psycochild5150: omg yezzie u 2 live far away from me
crazeedizzee: think about the last time we all went to ructys....was that time how long before you changed school?!
psycochild5150: omg no one ever told me about let go eat after skool
psycochild5150: yezzie think about what ur saying!!
crazeedizzee: i have been....i have been thinking about it for so long
psycochild5150: and why now?? why fucking now?? hmm
psycochild5150: opmg u 2 r still my world and i luv u 2 more then anything it self
crazeedizzee: because theres no better time then no
psycochild5150: no what??
crazeedizzee: now
crazeedizzee: its better to burn out then to fade away.....thats why now
crazeedizzee: i dont want to fucking be your friend in the back of your mind
crazeedizzee: and not mean anything to you
crazeedizzee: i dont want to slowly fade away, and you never remember me
psycochild5150: OMG I CANT BELIEVE UR SAYING THAT
crazeedizzee: i dont want to be a by stander
psycochild5150: YOUR NOT
psycochild5150: OMG I LUV U AND U NOW THAT.. I NEVER BUT U 2 BEHIND MY FUCKIHNG HEAD
psycochild5150: and ur not my by stander ur my right hand
psycochild5150: u will always betheir
crazeedizzee: THEN WHY IS IT ONLY NOW THAT YOU KNOW WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR SO LONG
crazeedizzee: you say i mean so much to you, but you have no clue about anything that ive been feeling
psycochild5150: hey what kills u only makes u stronger
crazeedizzee: if your such a great friend, why didnt you notice?!
psycochild5150: i did. i alwas ask about u 2 and i want 2 hang out
psycochild5150: but i fucking cant
psycochild5150: what dont u get
crazeedizzee: you think this has been a recent thing....IT HASNT
psycochild5150: i fucking now that
crazeedizzee: this has been building up for months now
psycochild5150: huh? well i am glad ur getting it out but fuck
psycochild5150: i mean ur just spiting me out
psycochild5150: like i am fucking nothing
psycochild5150: and that hurts me
psycochild5150: u have no fucking clue
crazeedizzee: i have no fucking clue?....do you not remember what happened to me
psycochild5150: yes i do
psycochild5150: how can i forget
psycochild5150: i was their remeber
crazeedizzee: DO YOU NOT GET THAT, THAT IS THE REASON I DID NOT WANT TO DO THIS
psycochild5150: do what???
crazeedizzee: i didnt want it to finally come to this, to what is happening now
psycochild5150: and u think i did
psycochild5150: omg yezzie i luv u.. and no one or nothing going 2 change that..
psycochild5150: but if u want 2 stop this friendship then i fined that really stupid
psycochild5150: but remeber u want it k..
crazeedizzee: i didnt want to stop the friendship, but you wanted the fucking yes or no answer
crazeedizzee: and at this point its a no
psycochild5150: no what??
psycochild5150: i dont want a yes or no i want u 2 be sure what u want
crazeedizzee: i want you to understand that i cant be your fucking friend like this
crazeedizzee: not with you like this
psycochild5150: what u mean like this how am i
psycochild5150: i am still the twiggy u now i havent changed
crazeedizzee: you have changed.....you just dont see it
psycochild5150: i would of noe abut it i am my self
crazeedizzee: i want to twiggy that went downtown with me at 9 in the morning before anything was open and sat infront of borders with me for hours just drnking coffee
crazeedizzee: the one that i could spend a whole day with and the conversation would never stop
psycochild5150: omg well i am hear whats stoping u
crazeedizzee: the one thatb acted like i was the only person on earth at that moment that mattered to him
psycochild5150: omg u still do
crazeedizzee: but thats not you anymore
psycochild5150: yes it is
psycochild5150: brb
psycochild5150 is away at 8:55:39 PM.
crazeedizzee: i miss that twiggy, the one that used to be my best friend, the one that if anybody asked me at any point in the day where he has, i knew exactly where it was, even if i hadnt talked to him and he hadnt been at school
Auto response from psycochild5150: I am away from my computer right now.
psycochild5150 returned at 9:15:33 PM.
crazeedizzee: dont you get it....you might not have lost yourslef, or your control with this stuff...but you may have lost me
psycochild5150: who so
psycochild5150: ?
psycochild5150: how*
crazeedizzee: you lost the person you used to be
psycochild5150: no i dont think so i am still hear
crazeedizzee: im still here...doesnt mean im anything like i was when i was a freshmen
crazeedizzee: that i still hang out with those people
psycochild5150: well u chose 2 hang out with them
crazeedizzee: i may still be charlenes friend....but it doesnt mean we were as close as we once where...im still friends with aof of people, doesnt mean they arnt different from who i got to know
psycochild5150: and i havent not lose the twiggy u now hes still hear waiting 2 hang out with u
crazeedizzee: twiggy...i just wanted you to realize you changed, that you rnt the same, and that you no longer seem to need me in this new life of yours
psycochild5150: yes i do
psycochild5150: i alway want u in my life
psycochild5150: thats why i want 2 go 2 new york with u.. hello so we can start new and freash
crazeedizzee: ahhh...fuck
psycochild5150: what??
crazeedizzee: nothing
psycochild5150: ok
psycochild5150: but se yezzie. i may not be their for u now.. but i will be soon and make it up for u
crazeedizzee: thats what you said last time
crazeedizzee: and you do it for a week, and then forget about me
psycochild5150: no i dont i never how could i ur a big part of my life
crazeedizzee: i believe, but i dont know if thats enough anymore
psycochild5150: what do u mean?? how much do u want??
crazeedizzee: i dont know if you being a huge part of my past means you have a place in my future
psycochild5150: hmmm well i do
crazeedizzee: i want to see what you mean....not just say your going to change...words are empty
psycochild5150: hmmmm well will see
psycochild5150: lol the how can the be so powerful if their empty??
crazeedizzee: the actions behind the words
psycochild5150: hmmm
crazeedizzee: the actions hold the power, the words are nothing
psycochild5150: i guess
crazeedizzee: if you dont understand the action, you will never understand the words
crazeedizzee: thats why you cant believe in the words of the bible until you believe that there were actions behind it
psycochild5150: i guess
psycochild5150: hmmm
crazeedizzee: so....i finished popping every single buble on those bubbles thingys that come with packages in the mail
psycochild5150: lol ooi c
psycochild5150: i like doing that
crazeedizzee: yea...it was the huge ones too...and very long
psycochild5150: haha
crazeedizzee: tells you what types of nervous habbits i get
psycochild5150: ooo i c
psycochild5150: brb
psycochild5150: so we r still going 2 be friends or no?/ i want 2 now!!
crazeedizzee: i guess then no
psycochild5150: why?/
psycochild5150: i need a good dam reason!!
crazeedizzee: because i cant be around somebody who doesnt see what they are doing to themselves
crazeedizzee: and to some of there freids around them
crazeedizzee: friends*
psycochild5150: u make me sound blinde but i am not
psycochild5150: u now whats so sad i thought we were going 2 be friend fro a long time. what was i thinking its dum that u cant be my friend cause i hardly do fucking drugs thats sad
crazeedizzee: you asked for a yes or no answer, i gave it to you, you asked for a reason, i gave it to you
psycochild5150: yea but it wasnt good enoff
crazeedizzee: what...you want me to explain that no matter what i love you, but i cant be around you anymore?
psycochild5150: its so sad how ur just thoring me away
psycochild5150: and i never would do that
psycochild5150: 2 u
crazeedizzee: you want me to tell you that even though i put this off for so long, it finally came up, and i said what i had been thinking about ever since school started
crazeedizzee: you want me to tell you that i feel like an outsider in your world
crazeedizzee: like im the one thats doing everything wrong
psycochild5150: no ur not dont
crazeedizzee: that, because im the one that doesnt do any of this, i dont get any of your time
crazeedizzee: or attention
psycochild5150: huh! hey i am fucking grounded and i have 2 go home after my skool is over so yea i cant see u but i always ask about u
crazeedizzee: you want to know that i so didnt want it to come to this, but the harder i am trying to hold on the more you back off
psycochild5150: i am not backing off of u
psycochild5150: i cant believe u think that
crazeedizzee: you dont even see how much you hurt me, how much that youve gone to me do you?
psycochild5150: what i never ment 2 hurt u and u now that!
crazeedizzee: you dont even see that by doing this your making it so much harder on me....that by bringing drugs into your life, you brought them into mine
psycochild5150: how u dont even do them
psycochild5150: so i dont see how that is
psycochild5150: i cant believe after all i did for u!! and u throw me away like nothing huh!!
psycochild5150: i cant believe that
crazeedizzee: if you meant nothing to me, you wouldnt even know me
crazeedizzee: you were my fucking world, and you threw me aside
psycochild5150: no i didnt i never did that
crazeedizzee: me and dev, we were you world....remember us...even when you werent grounded you bearly paid any attention to us
psycochild5150: no not fucking true
crazeedizzee: just because your around doesnt mean youre actually there...you havent been there for a lot longer
crazeedizzee: you were too caght up in your own world
psycochild5150: huh i know cause i go 2 a different skool
crazeedizzee: FUCKING BEFORE THAT
psycochild5150: no i did
psycochild5150: i alway heard u out and dev
crazeedizzee: you say that....but were you really...think about it
psycochild5150: no i didnt think about thorwing u guys aside
crazeedizzee: think about the last time we spent the whole day together
psycochild5150: how dare u say that
crazeedizzee: thinking about how long ago that was
psycochild5150: omg yezzie u 2 live far away from me
crazeedizzee: think about the last time we all went to ructys....was that time how long before you changed school?!
psycochild5150: omg no one ever told me about let go eat after skool
psycochild5150: yezzie think about what ur saying!!
crazeedizzee: i have been....i have been thinking about it for so long
psycochild5150: and why now?? why fucking now?? hmm
psycochild5150: opmg u 2 r still my world and i luv u 2 more then anything it self
crazeedizzee: because theres no better time then no
psycochild5150: no what??
crazeedizzee: now
crazeedizzee: its better to burn out then to fade away.....thats why now
crazeedizzee: i dont want to fucking be your friend in the back of your mind
crazeedizzee: and not mean anything to you
crazeedizzee: i dont want to slowly fade away, and you never remember me
psycochild5150: OMG I CANT BELIEVE UR SAYING THAT
crazeedizzee: i dont want to be a by stander
psycochild5150: YOUR NOT
psycochild5150: OMG I LUV U AND U NOW THAT.. I NEVER BUT U 2 BEHIND MY FUCKIHNG HEAD
psycochild5150: and ur not my by stander ur my right hand
psycochild5150: u will always betheir
crazeedizzee: THEN WHY IS IT ONLY NOW THAT YOU KNOW WHAT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR SO LONG
crazeedizzee: you say i mean so much to you, but you have no clue about anything that ive been feeling
psycochild5150: hey what kills u only makes u stronger
crazeedizzee: if your such a great friend, why didnt you notice?!
psycochild5150: i did. i alwas ask about u 2 and i want 2 hang out
psycochild5150: but i fucking cant
psycochild5150: what dont u get
crazeedizzee: you think this has been a recent thing....IT HASNT
psycochild5150: i fucking now that
crazeedizzee: this has been building up for months now
psycochild5150: huh? well i am glad ur getting it out but fuck
psycochild5150: i mean ur just spiting me out
psycochild5150: like i am fucking nothing
psycochild5150: and that hurts me
psycochild5150: u have no fucking clue
crazeedizzee: i have no fucking clue?....do you not remember what happened to me
psycochild5150: yes i do
psycochild5150: how can i forget
psycochild5150: i was their remeber
crazeedizzee: DO YOU NOT GET THAT, THAT IS THE REASON I DID NOT WANT TO DO THIS
psycochild5150: do what???
crazeedizzee: i didnt want it to finally come to this, to what is happening now
psycochild5150: and u think i did
psycochild5150: omg yezzie i luv u.. and no one or nothing going 2 change that..
psycochild5150: but if u want 2 stop this friendship then i fined that really stupid
psycochild5150: but remeber u want it k..
crazeedizzee: i didnt want to stop the friendship, but you wanted the fucking yes or no answer
crazeedizzee: and at this point its a no
psycochild5150: no what??
psycochild5150: i dont want a yes or no i want u 2 be sure what u want
crazeedizzee: i want you to understand that i cant be your fucking friend like this
crazeedizzee: not with you like this
psycochild5150: what u mean like this how am i
psycochild5150: i am still the twiggy u now i havent changed
crazeedizzee: you have changed.....you just dont see it
psycochild5150: i would of noe abut it i am my self
crazeedizzee: i want to twiggy that went downtown with me at 9 in the morning before anything was open and sat infront of borders with me for hours just drnking coffee
crazeedizzee: the one that i could spend a whole day with and the conversation would never stop
psycochild5150: omg well i am hear whats stoping u
crazeedizzee: the one thatb acted like i was the only person on earth at that moment that mattered to him
psycochild5150: omg u still do
crazeedizzee: but thats not you anymore
psycochild5150: yes it is
psycochild5150: brb
psycochild5150 is away at 8:55:39 PM.
crazeedizzee: i miss that twiggy, the one that used to be my best friend, the one that if anybody asked me at any point in the day where he has, i knew exactly where it was, even if i hadnt talked to him and he hadnt been at school
Auto response from psycochild5150: I am away from my computer right now.
psycochild5150 returned at 9:15:33 PM.
crazeedizzee: dont you get it....you might not have lost yourslef, or your control with this stuff...but you may have lost me
psycochild5150: who so
psycochild5150: ?
psycochild5150: how*
crazeedizzee: you lost the person you used to be
psycochild5150: no i dont think so i am still hear
crazeedizzee: im still here...doesnt mean im anything like i was when i was a freshmen
crazeedizzee: that i still hang out with those people
psycochild5150: well u chose 2 hang out with them
crazeedizzee: i may still be charlenes friend....but it doesnt mean we were as close as we once where...im still friends with aof of people, doesnt mean they arnt different from who i got to know
psycochild5150: and i havent not lose the twiggy u now hes still hear waiting 2 hang out with u
crazeedizzee: twiggy...i just wanted you to realize you changed, that you rnt the same, and that you no longer seem to need me in this new life of yours
psycochild5150: yes i do
psycochild5150: i alway want u in my life
psycochild5150: thats why i want 2 go 2 new york with u.. hello so we can start new and freash
crazeedizzee: ahhh...fuck
psycochild5150: what??
crazeedizzee: nothing
psycochild5150: ok
psycochild5150: but se yezzie. i may not be their for u now.. but i will be soon and make it up for u
crazeedizzee: thats what you said last time
crazeedizzee: and you do it for a week, and then forget about me
psycochild5150: no i dont i never how could i ur a big part of my life
crazeedizzee: i believe, but i dont know if thats enough anymore
psycochild5150: what do u mean?? how much do u want??
crazeedizzee: i dont know if you being a huge part of my past means you have a place in my future
psycochild5150: hmmm well i do
crazeedizzee: i want to see what you mean....not just say your going to change...words are empty
psycochild5150: hmmmm well will see
psycochild5150: lol the how can the be so powerful if their empty??
crazeedizzee: the actions behind the words
psycochild5150: hmmm
crazeedizzee: the actions hold the power, the words are nothing
psycochild5150: i guess
crazeedizzee: if you dont understand the action, you will never understand the words
crazeedizzee: thats why you cant believe in the words of the bible until you believe that there were actions behind it
psycochild5150: i guess
psycochild5150: hmmm
crazeedizzee: so....i finished popping every single buble on those bubbles thingys that come with packages in the mail
psycochild5150: lol ooi c
psycochild5150: i like doing that
crazeedizzee: yea...it was the huge ones too...and very long
psycochild5150: haha
crazeedizzee: tells you what types of nervous habbits i get
psycochild5150: ooo i c
psycochild5150: brb