So I have recently found out a lot of things...

[the__jester]

I know I said I would never write on here again, but you know.. if I vent anywhere else, people will see and I will probably get bitched at for no reason as usual. So you see, here is my dilemma, I am stuck in a circle of a bunch of fucking high school bull shit.. Honestly, you figure when people always complain about how they are so mature, and

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[xmonkeyxlovex]

ok first off - you arent stuck in this "circle of a bunch of fucking high school bull shit". NO ONE dragged you into it. You could EASILY get out of this fucking shit if you want to. If anyone is stuck in it it's me, katie, and chase. There wouldnt really be any "drama" if Chase didnt call katie up. This all could of easily of been dropped

[the__jester]

You are welcome, considering when I asked anyone about it, I got shit blown my way.. I have never told your mom shit that you asked me to keep quiet, and so fucking what if I get mad at you, time goes by and life moves on, big fucking deal.. You want to act like a big girl, then be a big girl, stop asking people to cover for your mistakes.. You know what, I wouldn't cover for shit, if it meant that it would ruin my life instead of theirs, it depends on how good my life is at that time, and if I gave a shit if it got ruined.. I am sorry if I am apparently not up to your brother standards, but if you children would stop trying to act like adults, and just accept responsibility for your actions, and quit lying to people then none of this shit would happen.. I do love you to death, and I have given you no reason to get pissed at me. And yes I am stuck in it, because one Chase is my best friend, and anything that happens to you or Katie, or him automatically get's passed through my ears, I keep my mouth shut.. I may ask a question here or

[xmonkeyxlovex]

I didnt ask katie in the first place to take the blame, she told me that she was, so then i realized that if i go ahead and tell chase that i did, he would just use that against me as blackmail and i hate that shit, he gets mad at me for no reasons at times and he will use that blackmail whenever he feels like it, but once he started saying shit that didnt need to be said about katie it really pissed me off, and so finally i had had enough of all of this, this really all could have been avoided. Paul, you know i say a lot of things that i dont mean when im really pissed, im sorry that i compared you to chase. You know how i feel about him and you. But what im not sorry about is the stuff i said about chase. I have told you how i feel, and now i am finally going to COMPLETLY stand up for myself, matt told me to relax and calm down, no, not this time. Im tired of all of this shit, im tired of being yelledat for no reason at all. Im just sick and tired. This is all stupid if you really think about it, i mean really. Im sorry if i said

[the__jester]

So, yeah... If you wish not to talk to me, fine whatever.. that's your decission, if you do decide to talk to me, leave all this shit out of it, cause I don't want to deal with it anymore than I have to.. Next time, I will just keep my mouth shut, but I swear to God, Jesus as my savior I will fucking go to your mom about shit that I still to this day keep quiet about out of respect for our friendship, and my love for you... You are my Sister, and I will love you until time ceases to exist, just don't fuck with me, cause of something that I was pissed about that really had nothing to do with the situation itself, just the situation that was built around that one.. and as a side note.. Fuck what Chase said to Katie, that was wrong, but it wasn't my words, and it wasn't my opinion.. Whatever Chase says to or about Katie is his opinion, and if it were my opinion then I would probably tell her face to face... just because that's what I do

[___eleanorrigby]

I don't offer Amber cigarettes, pot, or alchohol.

I yelled at Amber when she smoked.
I've never given her pot/asked her to smoke... etc.
I asked her not to drink that night... but ultimately, it's her choice.

So don't go comparing yourself to me like you're the good kid and I'm some horrible influence... because I'm not.

And you know what, I actually do agree with you that Amber should have taken responsibility for her actions, but I was confused and trying to be a good friend - So I took the fall - & it killed me. Seriously, to see the hurtful things that we're being said about me was killing me... and Amber realized that and fessed up.

I don't hate you, or Chase. I hate that this is all getting this way. I think it's incredibly stupid that our "family" is falling apart because of a single cigarette.

& Thank you for knowing that what Chase said about me was wrong. I understand it was out of anger, but to be wished cancer-ridden...

I think you get it, and I think we're both mature enough people that this won't plague us forever.

[chase0813]

Actually, none of this would have happened if your dumbass wouldn't have stolen a cigarette from mom and smoke it cause you're 'stressed' it's all psychological, if you didn't know.

And I didn't ask you if you wanted to drink, I asked you if you were.

Get it straight.

And you know, you and Katie get mad at me for saying something, when you two sit there and do it about me.

Don't say something and expect not to get a responce.

And I am indifferent towards Katie at the moment, you too.

[___eleanorrigby]

only thing I've really ever said about you is you're an asshole, which you already know and pride yourself in being.