So I have recently found out a lot of things...

[the__jester]

I know I said I would never write on here again, but you know.. if I vent anywhere else, people will see and I will probably get bitched at for no reason as usual. So you see, here is my dilemma, I am stuck in a circle of a bunch of fucking high school bull shit.. Honestly, you figure when people always complain about how they are so mature, and

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[the__jester]

So, yeah... If you wish not to talk to me, fine whatever.. that's your decission, if you do decide to talk to me, leave all this shit out of it, cause I don't want to deal with it anymore than I have to.. Next time, I will just keep my mouth shut, but I swear to God, Jesus as my savior I will fucking go to your mom about shit that I still to this day keep quiet about out of respect for our friendship, and my love for you... You are my Sister, and I will love you until time ceases to exist, just don't fuck with me, cause of something that I was pissed about that really had nothing to do with the situation itself, just the situation that was built around that one.. and as a side note.. Fuck what Chase said to Katie, that was wrong, but it wasn't my words, and it wasn't my opinion.. Whatever Chase says to or about Katie is his opinion, and if it were my opinion then I would probably tell her face to face... just because that's what I do...

So I am sorry about all of this, if you can't get it through your head that I wasn't blaming Katie, I was using her as an example of the fact that when I first came into the family, Mom told Chase that I would not be allowed to hang out with any of you kids if I ever offered any of you alcohol, or cigarettes, or pot.. and I think that is a little fucked when I would never do that in the first place.. Just out of respect for your parents.. If I make that choice then so be it, but I won't ask you to smoke around me, or drink around me, fuck that.. It's not what I do...

Good night
-Paul

[___eleanorrigby]

I don't offer Amber cigarettes, pot, or alchohol.

I yelled at Amber when she smoked.
I've never given her pot/asked her to smoke... etc.
I asked her not to drink that night... but ultimately, it's her choice.

So don't go comparing yourself to me like you're the good kid and I'm some horrible influence... because I'm not.

And you know what, I actually do agree with you that Amber should have taken responsibility for her actions, but I was confused and trying to be a good friend - So I took the fall - & it killed me. Seriously, to see the hurtful things that we're being said about me was killing me... and Amber realized that and fessed up.

I don't hate you, or Chase. I hate that this is all getting this way. I think it's incredibly stupid that our "family" is falling apart because of a single cigarette.

& Thank you for knowing that what Chase said about me was wrong. I understand it was out of anger, but to be wished cancer-ridden...

I think you get it, and I think we're both mature enough people that this won't plague us forever.