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I can't be trusted.
This revelation just came to me, as I was talking to a friend of mine about something completely different. I guess I've always known this, but it kind of hit me square between the eyes because I've based my life on honesty. But honesty and trust don't nessisarilly walk hand-in-hand, though I haven't thought about it before.
I know of course that you can't trust even those closest to you as far as you can throw them, which is just a fact of life, but I never really let it sink in. I was told today for the first time from someone very important to me that she loved me. To tell someone that means that you are choosing to trust them, which is a big deal to me. I had to ask myself, do I love her back, and if so, do I also trust her. Well I do trust her in some things, but not in everything. But I do know that I love her, and having come to that conclusion, it means that the dynamics of our relationship must change. Natural progression, or however you would choose to call it. We had a nice, touchy-feely kind of conversation which throroughly made me feel like I needed to eat a burrito and watch football to gain back a little testosterone, but I'll admit it wasn't a waste of time at all.
Tomorrow is the big day at work. We have a very serious staff meeting before we open, where the management is allegidly going to tear us to pieces. I don't really think they will, and I'm anticipating quite the snoozer to be perfectly honest. I mean, they like to go all out and talk big, but when they're contradicting one another and saying things like, "we're going to fire so-and-so (not me) on such-and-such a day," and then not do it, it makes me question their resolve. I mean, this person deserved to be fired, and we can't afford all the staff we have anyway. I don't appriciate scare tactics, and I really really really don't enjoy it when management relays all their stress to their staff, who don't really need to hear about it. We can all see where the problems are, and we know the problems are not our fault. So don't make us feel like we're bringing down your business. And have a nice trip to New York, by the way.
So much to complain about, gotta ballance it out. However, it's officially way past my bedtime, so I'll leave that for another day!
This revelation just came to me, as I was talking to a friend of mine about something completely different. I guess I've always known this, but it kind of hit me square between the eyes because I've based my life on honesty. But honesty and trust don't nessisarilly walk hand-in-hand, though I haven't thought about it before.
I know of course that you can't trust even those closest to you as far as you can throw them, which is just a fact of life, but I never really let it sink in. I was told today for the first time from someone very important to me that she loved me. To tell someone that means that you are choosing to trust them, which is a big deal to me. I had to ask myself, do I love her back, and if so, do I also trust her. Well I do trust her in some things, but not in everything. But I do know that I love her, and having come to that conclusion, it means that the dynamics of our relationship must change. Natural progression, or however you would choose to call it. We had a nice, touchy-feely kind of conversation which throroughly made me feel like I needed to eat a burrito and watch football to gain back a little testosterone, but I'll admit it wasn't a waste of time at all.
Tomorrow is the big day at work. We have a very serious staff meeting before we open, where the management is allegidly going to tear us to pieces. I don't really think they will, and I'm anticipating quite the snoozer to be perfectly honest. I mean, they like to go all out and talk big, but when they're contradicting one another and saying things like, "we're going to fire so-and-so (not me) on such-and-such a day," and then not do it, it makes me question their resolve. I mean, this person deserved to be fired, and we can't afford all the staff we have anyway. I don't appriciate scare tactics, and I really really really don't enjoy it when management relays all their stress to their staff, who don't really need to hear about it. We can all see where the problems are, and we know the problems are not our fault. So don't make us feel like we're bringing down your business. And have a nice trip to New York, by the way.
So much to complain about, gotta ballance it out. However, it's officially way past my bedtime, so I'll leave that for another day!