[Log] The Silver Lining
Who: Fuji Syuusuke & Kirihara Akaya
What: Kirihara has an idea ♥
When: December 11th
Where: The cabins
Rating: G :O
Comments: Sure. (Also, I went ahead and posted this, Ari. Oops. >> ♥)
"..." Fuji sat on the bed in the cabin, staring down at the bag in front of him. He couldn't even remember where he got it, but the bag was filled to the brim with potato chips, marshmallows and other candy. He shouldn't, he really shouldn't, and he had promised Mizuki and Echizen, but... But... I want to be clean, from the inside and out. That was what it all boiled down to; he wanted to be clean.
Akaya had gone out to get himself some cocoa and when he came back was greeted with the sight of Fuji staring intensely at a bag full of junk food, "Dude....what are you doing? Waiting for it to talk to you?"
"Oh, it's already talking to me. Eeeeeaaat meeee, eeeeeeaaaaat meeeeeeeee it says." He looked up, plastic smile on his lips.
"That's creepy on so many levels...." Akaya mumbled and put his cocoa down before walking over to flop down next to Fuji on the tensai's bed, not caring he was invading his personal space at all. He knew something was up with the other boy, even if he didn't know what.
He blinked at him. "... Can I help you, Kirihara?"
"Why you been so depressed lately?" He asked bluntly and looked at the other man carefully.
"De--depressed?" Fuji looked startled for a second, then the smile was back in place. "... Me? Are you sure you're not talking about Echizen?"
Akaya snorted, "Dude, I'm smarter than Fukubuchou says, alright? I can tell both of you are crazy depressed, and I know why he is, but not why you are. You can't hide it from me, ya know?"
"..." Fuji smiled, tiredly, and shrugged. "Post relationship break up blues. Nothing serious."
"Dude...I know how serious that can be....." Akaya mumbled and bumped against Fuji's side a little.
"Hey... You wanna sit here? Just... Sit?" He couldn't believe he was asking this of Kirihara of all people.
"Sure." Akaya smiled a little and just sat contently. His last breakup had almost cost him his life and he understood how painful they could be, so he'd help Fuji anyway he could, even if the guy normally drove him nuts.
"How... How are you feeling, Kirihara?" He glanced over at him. "... Christmas is coming soon, and we're all being depressed around you..."
"Me? I feel pretty good. A little worried bout An-chan, but other than that, great. I love Christmas," Akaya smiled at him. Nothing could bring him down around Christmas. New years...that was a whole other story.
"An? Yeah, me too." Well, he missed her, was more like it. Didn't really spend much time with anyone lately, or so it seemed.
"She.....she loves me...for some unknown reason....and.....I'm worried I'm gonna end up hurting her......how you and Echizen are hurting right now....and how I was hurt last year...." He sighed and ran a hand through is curly hair before laying back with a little frustrated noise before sitting back up to look at him, "but we're talking about you, not me."
"We can talk about us both. And An. Since we love her, right?"
"I guess..." Akaya mumbled and stretched a little.
"... I am going to be very angry with you if you do end up hurting her, but I do think you really love her, so... I'm sure you won't."
"I......that's the thing though....I....I don't love her.....not how I loved my ex-boyfriend....it's different.....ya know?" He looked away from the genius, wondering how this got turned around on him again.
"... Really? Then... Why are you dating her?"
".....You can date people if you don't love them, ya know...it's not an instant feeling...... hell at least I'm trying....I didn't think it would ever happen...."
"I know, but... Believe me, I know." He thought back on his life, the bad choices in boyfriends that he made. "But, still..."
"If...I don't think it will ever happen, then I'll tell her....I won't lead her on....she's important to me.....no matter what...she's the reason I'm still alive." Akaya explained and rubbed the back of his neck.
Fuji stared at him. "Sti--still alive?!"
"Oh, were you not here during the whole fiasco?" Akaya laughed a little and ran his hand through his hair, "Yeah....um....that's why I'm not allowed in the snow by myself or nothing....I went out into the snow after my ex and I broke up and I almost died at the shrine....I got really bad hypothermia but An-chan found me and saved me....."
"I... heard something about that, but... never got the whole picture, I'm afraid. I'm sorry to hear that, really."
Akaya shrugged and sighed, "I healed, it's not a big deal....."
"Of course it is." He reached out a hand and ruffled Akaya's hair.
Akaya pouted at him and put his hair back into an appropriately messy state.
Fuji found himself giggling at the pout. Cute.
Sticking his tongue out at the tensai, Akaya couldn't help smiling afterward. The other didn't have a bad laugh. It was a shame it wasn't more common.
"... I really can't believe this. I think I'm friends with Mizuki... And now you as well." It was quite the wonder, when you thought about it.
"Ehhh? You're friends with my cousin now? He never tells me anything! Damn data-jerk!" Akaya pouted again and made a mental note to poke his cousin right in his side the next time he saw him.
"Yes, we are. I think." He laughed meekly. "He sort of scolded the hell out of me the other day though, so..."
"Ooooh, you got Haji-scolded....I'm sorry....though you mustve done something pretty bad....he doesn't do a real scolding unless he's really mad...." Akaya mumbled and watched Fuji curiously.
"Well... I guess it was pretty bad." And here I am, almost about to do the same stupid shit again. What the hell's wrong with me?
"Wanna talk about it?"
"..." He thought, quickly. Well, Akaya had confided in him, so he figured he could return the favor. "Yes. I... binged out. And then made myself throw up. And he noticed."
"Bulimic?" Akaya asked, voice not judging at all as he watched Fuji.
He nodded.
Akaya nodded a little again and looked to the other side of the room, "How often do you do that?" His eyes wandered down to the bag of junk food subtly.
"... Not often. At all. But I... I just want to... I don't know. Make myself clean. That... sounds stupid, doesn't it?"
"No...but you should know, puking? Not the best way to do that, man." Akaya smiled a little and leaned against Fuji's side a bit, "Go to the shrine.....get a purification ritual done, come home, drink some sake and watch a sad movie with a friend and let out all the emotions you got pent up. I think that's a pretty good recipe for feeling cleaner."
"That... doesn't sound like a bad idea, honestly." Fuji glanced over at him and smiled. "But... I'm not good at letting all my emotions out like that."
"That's what the sake is for," Akaya grinned from ear to ear.
"I guess so." He smiled. "... Clever."
"I think you should give it a try......" Akaya said and smiled though one of his hands reached over and took the bag o' junk food from Fuji's hands, "And I'll take your temptation away, sound good?"
"... Help yourself." He blushed, glancing away. Maybe he should just have... a little...? Maybe?
"How bout this, why don't we watch a movie and eat these together? That way there's no binging and we don't have to think for a bit?" Akaya suggested happily.
Fuji thought about it and then nodded. "Sounds lovely. What is it with you and Mizuki and snuggling in front of a movie?"
"We're snuggly guys, what can I say?" Akaya laughed and went over to get his folder of dvds, "What should we watch?"
"I don't know. What do you have?"
"Lots~!"
"That's helpful," Fuji chuckled, moving closer to peek at the DVDs himself.
Akaya went through them with him, smiling a little because he was always happy to show off his DVD collection.
"This is quite impressive," Fuji said after a while. "How about... this one?" Some sort of super sentai show. Which meant he probably didn't need to think at all.
"Heh, that one's funny~ Sounds good to me~!" Akaya chimed and pulled out his laptop, putting the dvd in it then settling himself comfortably against the headboard with the junkfood so Fuji could get in close next to him.
Fuji did, pulling up the covers closely and turned his attention to the computer screen. Soon enough the cheerful opening theme played, and Fuji found himself humming along.
Akaya ate happily as they watched the show, stuffing himself with junkfood in the name of saving the older boy from himself.
What: Kirihara has an idea ♥
When: December 11th
Where: The cabins
Rating: G :O
Comments: Sure. (Also, I went ahead and posted this, Ari. Oops. >> ♥)
"..." Fuji sat on the bed in the cabin, staring down at the bag in front of him. He couldn't even remember where he got it, but the bag was filled to the brim with potato chips, marshmallows and other candy. He shouldn't, he really shouldn't, and he had promised Mizuki and Echizen, but... But... I want to be clean, from the inside and out. That was what it all boiled down to; he wanted to be clean.
Akaya had gone out to get himself some cocoa and when he came back was greeted with the sight of Fuji staring intensely at a bag full of junk food, "Dude....what are you doing? Waiting for it to talk to you?"
"Oh, it's already talking to me. Eeeeeaaat meeee, eeeeeeaaaaat meeeeeeeee it says." He looked up, plastic smile on his lips.
"That's creepy on so many levels...." Akaya mumbled and put his cocoa down before walking over to flop down next to Fuji on the tensai's bed, not caring he was invading his personal space at all. He knew something was up with the other boy, even if he didn't know what.
He blinked at him. "... Can I help you, Kirihara?"
"Why you been so depressed lately?" He asked bluntly and looked at the other man carefully.
"De--depressed?" Fuji looked startled for a second, then the smile was back in place. "... Me? Are you sure you're not talking about Echizen?"
Akaya snorted, "Dude, I'm smarter than Fukubuchou says, alright? I can tell both of you are crazy depressed, and I know why he is, but not why you are. You can't hide it from me, ya know?"
"..." Fuji smiled, tiredly, and shrugged. "Post relationship break up blues. Nothing serious."
"Dude...I know how serious that can be....." Akaya mumbled and bumped against Fuji's side a little.
"Hey... You wanna sit here? Just... Sit?" He couldn't believe he was asking this of Kirihara of all people.
"Sure." Akaya smiled a little and just sat contently. His last breakup had almost cost him his life and he understood how painful they could be, so he'd help Fuji anyway he could, even if the guy normally drove him nuts.
"How... How are you feeling, Kirihara?" He glanced over at him. "... Christmas is coming soon, and we're all being depressed around you..."
"Me? I feel pretty good. A little worried bout An-chan, but other than that, great. I love Christmas," Akaya smiled at him. Nothing could bring him down around Christmas. New years...that was a whole other story.
"An? Yeah, me too." Well, he missed her, was more like it. Didn't really spend much time with anyone lately, or so it seemed.
"She.....she loves me...for some unknown reason....and.....I'm worried I'm gonna end up hurting her......how you and Echizen are hurting right now....and how I was hurt last year...." He sighed and ran a hand through is curly hair before laying back with a little frustrated noise before sitting back up to look at him, "but we're talking about you, not me."
"We can talk about us both. And An. Since we love her, right?"
"I guess..." Akaya mumbled and stretched a little.
"... I am going to be very angry with you if you do end up hurting her, but I do think you really love her, so... I'm sure you won't."
"I......that's the thing though....I....I don't love her.....not how I loved my ex-boyfriend....it's different.....ya know?" He looked away from the genius, wondering how this got turned around on him again.
"... Really? Then... Why are you dating her?"
".....You can date people if you don't love them, ya know...it's not an instant feeling...... hell at least I'm trying....I didn't think it would ever happen...."
"I know, but... Believe me, I know." He thought back on his life, the bad choices in boyfriends that he made. "But, still..."
"If...I don't think it will ever happen, then I'll tell her....I won't lead her on....she's important to me.....no matter what...she's the reason I'm still alive." Akaya explained and rubbed the back of his neck.
Fuji stared at him. "Sti--still alive?!"
"Oh, were you not here during the whole fiasco?" Akaya laughed a little and ran his hand through his hair, "Yeah....um....that's why I'm not allowed in the snow by myself or nothing....I went out into the snow after my ex and I broke up and I almost died at the shrine....I got really bad hypothermia but An-chan found me and saved me....."
"I... heard something about that, but... never got the whole picture, I'm afraid. I'm sorry to hear that, really."
Akaya shrugged and sighed, "I healed, it's not a big deal....."
"Of course it is." He reached out a hand and ruffled Akaya's hair.
Akaya pouted at him and put his hair back into an appropriately messy state.
Fuji found himself giggling at the pout. Cute.
Sticking his tongue out at the tensai, Akaya couldn't help smiling afterward. The other didn't have a bad laugh. It was a shame it wasn't more common.
"... I really can't believe this. I think I'm friends with Mizuki... And now you as well." It was quite the wonder, when you thought about it.
"Ehhh? You're friends with my cousin now? He never tells me anything! Damn data-jerk!" Akaya pouted again and made a mental note to poke his cousin right in his side the next time he saw him.
"Yes, we are. I think." He laughed meekly. "He sort of scolded the hell out of me the other day though, so..."
"Ooooh, you got Haji-scolded....I'm sorry....though you mustve done something pretty bad....he doesn't do a real scolding unless he's really mad...." Akaya mumbled and watched Fuji curiously.
"Well... I guess it was pretty bad." And here I am, almost about to do the same stupid shit again. What the hell's wrong with me?
"Wanna talk about it?"
"..." He thought, quickly. Well, Akaya had confided in him, so he figured he could return the favor. "Yes. I... binged out. And then made myself throw up. And he noticed."
"Bulimic?" Akaya asked, voice not judging at all as he watched Fuji.
He nodded.
Akaya nodded a little again and looked to the other side of the room, "How often do you do that?" His eyes wandered down to the bag of junk food subtly.
"... Not often. At all. But I... I just want to... I don't know. Make myself clean. That... sounds stupid, doesn't it?"
"No...but you should know, puking? Not the best way to do that, man." Akaya smiled a little and leaned against Fuji's side a bit, "Go to the shrine.....get a purification ritual done, come home, drink some sake and watch a sad movie with a friend and let out all the emotions you got pent up. I think that's a pretty good recipe for feeling cleaner."
"That... doesn't sound like a bad idea, honestly." Fuji glanced over at him and smiled. "But... I'm not good at letting all my emotions out like that."
"That's what the sake is for," Akaya grinned from ear to ear.
"I guess so." He smiled. "... Clever."
"I think you should give it a try......" Akaya said and smiled though one of his hands reached over and took the bag o' junk food from Fuji's hands, "And I'll take your temptation away, sound good?"
"... Help yourself." He blushed, glancing away. Maybe he should just have... a little...? Maybe?
"How bout this, why don't we watch a movie and eat these together? That way there's no binging and we don't have to think for a bit?" Akaya suggested happily.
Fuji thought about it and then nodded. "Sounds lovely. What is it with you and Mizuki and snuggling in front of a movie?"
"We're snuggly guys, what can I say?" Akaya laughed and went over to get his folder of dvds, "What should we watch?"
"I don't know. What do you have?"
"Lots~!"
"That's helpful," Fuji chuckled, moving closer to peek at the DVDs himself.
Akaya went through them with him, smiling a little because he was always happy to show off his DVD collection.
"This is quite impressive," Fuji said after a while. "How about... this one?" Some sort of super sentai show. Which meant he probably didn't need to think at all.
"Heh, that one's funny~ Sounds good to me~!" Akaya chimed and pulled out his laptop, putting the dvd in it then settling himself comfortably against the headboard with the junkfood so Fuji could get in close next to him.
Fuji did, pulling up the covers closely and turned his attention to the computer screen. Soon enough the cheerful opening theme played, and Fuji found himself humming along.
Akaya ate happily as they watched the show, stuffing himself with junkfood in the name of saving the older boy from himself.