Unitended Rant
Dear All,
Well I am back at Kuwada at nothing to do here today. I mean literally. I should have stayed at home today. I have no classes and nothing to prep. So I studied kanji for an hour and will go back to it later. The weekend was ok. A friend came in and we did pizza and movies at Ping's. Which is now unquestionably the group HQ. It has been for awhile I just was hoping people might come over to my place to hang out every now and then.
But that just is not going to happen. It kinda irks me that I am always shelping up to Champ to see them and no one ever comes over to my place. While there are plenty of very logical reasons for this, it still irks me. I know they all live in the same building. I know they all take similar trains and such. But it would be nice of them to drop by every now and then. It just gets lonely sometimes at my place. Kanako and I spend a lot of time together, but she is not there everyday. If she was that would be a different story. It kinda got to me this weekend when the gang "came over" to my place. Well really they had all gone to a koto lesson together and then got dropped off at the sushi place near my house. Since they were walking back anyway they stopped by. I helped Ping find a print cartrige online. Then they left. It is just odd that I never see my friends that are in the city. Now not seeing the inaka crew all that often makes sense. They don't live here. But not seeing the city types kinda bothers me. I try to hang with them during the week but we always seem to just miss each other.
The real issue for me is that this really feels like high school (everyone went to a different school) or first year in Theta Xi (everyone lived in the house and I didn't) all over again. And to tell everyone the truth I am pretty sick of it. It just seems like I go up to Ping's 2 or 3 times a week and no one every comes down to visit me. I call or text to see whats up and find out that everyone already made plans (with each other) and they are all very sorry but they are busy. I know no one is intentionally leaving me out of stuff, but it just kinda happens that I don't get told or informed of things. Because I am not there. Out of sight out of mind. Thats me, easy to forget.
It could just be I am in a b**** mood today. I was all excited to wake up and try to teach at Kuwada and then got here and found out I have nothing. Not just nothing today, but nothing at this school for the next 2 weeks! No classes no nothing. This is ofcourse assuming no one changes me scheduel between now and then. So I have been studying kanji and Japanese grammar this morning. Study a foreign language in your head for an hour or more and then tell me you are not a bit more likely to complain.
Guess i have just been too much in my own head lately. Well the midyear semminar this week should allow me to hang and talk with people for a bit. Hopefully anyway.
Well I am back at Kuwada at nothing to do here today. I mean literally. I should have stayed at home today. I have no classes and nothing to prep. So I studied kanji for an hour and will go back to it later. The weekend was ok. A friend came in and we did pizza and movies at Ping's. Which is now unquestionably the group HQ. It has been for awhile I just was hoping people might come over to my place to hang out every now and then.
But that just is not going to happen. It kinda irks me that I am always shelping up to Champ to see them and no one ever comes over to my place. While there are plenty of very logical reasons for this, it still irks me. I know they all live in the same building. I know they all take similar trains and such. But it would be nice of them to drop by every now and then. It just gets lonely sometimes at my place. Kanako and I spend a lot of time together, but she is not there everyday. If she was that would be a different story. It kinda got to me this weekend when the gang "came over" to my place. Well really they had all gone to a koto lesson together and then got dropped off at the sushi place near my house. Since they were walking back anyway they stopped by. I helped Ping find a print cartrige online. Then they left. It is just odd that I never see my friends that are in the city. Now not seeing the inaka crew all that often makes sense. They don't live here. But not seeing the city types kinda bothers me. I try to hang with them during the week but we always seem to just miss each other.
The real issue for me is that this really feels like high school (everyone went to a different school) or first year in Theta Xi (everyone lived in the house and I didn't) all over again. And to tell everyone the truth I am pretty sick of it. It just seems like I go up to Ping's 2 or 3 times a week and no one every comes down to visit me. I call or text to see whats up and find out that everyone already made plans (with each other) and they are all very sorry but they are busy. I know no one is intentionally leaving me out of stuff, but it just kinda happens that I don't get told or informed of things. Because I am not there. Out of sight out of mind. Thats me, easy to forget.
It could just be I am in a b**** mood today. I was all excited to wake up and try to teach at Kuwada and then got here and found out I have nothing. Not just nothing today, but nothing at this school for the next 2 weeks! No classes no nothing. This is ofcourse assuming no one changes me scheduel between now and then. So I have been studying kanji and Japanese grammar this morning. Study a foreign language in your head for an hour or more and then tell me you are not a bit more likely to complain.
Guess i have just been too much in my own head lately. Well the midyear semminar this week should allow me to hang and talk with people for a bit. Hopefully anyway.