An Iron Will
Feb 19th.
Things are looking good to begin digging tomorrow morning! It seems all my planning & hard work at preparations have paid off. It seems my guards will be busy for the next week or so, off on some other duties, allowing me the much needed & necessary time in order to begin the soundings to find the best location to start my escape tunnel!
In the preparations I've been doing over the last few days or so, I've realized that my main difficulty in finding escape will not be the hard work, the planning, the elements of rock and earth to work around and through... but rather my internal fortitude to put myself through the paces of continuing my intensive labors, even on the days I'd rather just lie in bed or relax around my room.
I've discovered that this prison has a normalizing effect; the longer one stays here, the more normal they accept imprisonment to be, for themselves - a natural progression, logically. You can tell the ones who've been here for the longest amount of time - they talk & act as if this state of affairs is what everyone naturally chooses, even if given the choice between true freedom or this prison.
Others like myself, though, have a fire in our eyes - we're confident there must be a way to escape, despite all the odds - and all the horror stories of others who've tried & failed. It's kind of sad to see others - especially some of the intelligent, insightful people here - just assume that this prison is all they'll ever know, so they'd best see to it that their prison cells are as nice as they can make them. Especially when we've all heard at least a few of the stories of the escapees enough to know that an escape is possible.
But I digress. Tomorrow will be an exciting day - a time which I am sure I will fondly look back on, once I am freed of this isolated cell. I wonder if this is how all innocent prisoners must feel, the day before they begin their escape. In some ways, I can hardly wait. In others, I know the journey outward will be grueling, fraught with danger on many sides, and frustrations as well. But I think I've finally reached the point where I know it's really my only option.
After I begin the soundings and find the optimal breakpoint through this rock, I'll set up the rock-chipping tools I've carefully constructed, and begin focusing on an EPP (escape penetration point) which will be the main escape route. Of course, I'll have to set up an AVP (Alternate ventiliation Passage) and ERS (Emergency Recall System) in case any real emergencies DO happen... but I'm hoping for the best.
One day in the not-so-distant future, freedom will be mine.
Things are looking good to begin digging tomorrow morning! It seems all my planning & hard work at preparations have paid off. It seems my guards will be busy for the next week or so, off on some other duties, allowing me the much needed & necessary time in order to begin the soundings to find the best location to start my escape tunnel!
In the preparations I've been doing over the last few days or so, I've realized that my main difficulty in finding escape will not be the hard work, the planning, the elements of rock and earth to work around and through... but rather my internal fortitude to put myself through the paces of continuing my intensive labors, even on the days I'd rather just lie in bed or relax around my room.
I've discovered that this prison has a normalizing effect; the longer one stays here, the more normal they accept imprisonment to be, for themselves - a natural progression, logically. You can tell the ones who've been here for the longest amount of time - they talk & act as if this state of affairs is what everyone naturally chooses, even if given the choice between true freedom or this prison.
Others like myself, though, have a fire in our eyes - we're confident there must be a way to escape, despite all the odds - and all the horror stories of others who've tried & failed. It's kind of sad to see others - especially some of the intelligent, insightful people here - just assume that this prison is all they'll ever know, so they'd best see to it that their prison cells are as nice as they can make them. Especially when we've all heard at least a few of the stories of the escapees enough to know that an escape is possible.
But I digress. Tomorrow will be an exciting day - a time which I am sure I will fondly look back on, once I am freed of this isolated cell. I wonder if this is how all innocent prisoners must feel, the day before they begin their escape. In some ways, I can hardly wait. In others, I know the journey outward will be grueling, fraught with danger on many sides, and frustrations as well. But I think I've finally reached the point where I know it's really my only option.
After I begin the soundings and find the optimal breakpoint through this rock, I'll set up the rock-chipping tools I've carefully constructed, and begin focusing on an EPP (escape penetration point) which will be the main escape route. Of course, I'll have to set up an AVP (Alternate ventiliation Passage) and ERS (Emergency Recall System) in case any real emergencies DO happen... but I'm hoping for the best.
One day in the not-so-distant future, freedom will be mine.