Ah that little bug
So there's this boy in my neighborhood. He lives probably 50 feet from my house. He's 21, well-built, nice tan, jet black hair, and has the most amazing eyes ever. It's almost intimidating staring into them.
Ah, it is ovbious that I am absolutely smitten. Completely. Head over heels gaga for this guy.
The softest skin I have ever felt on a guy, great sex, sexy tattoos on his body.. Oh my god he's just fantastic!
I can't say he's perfect, because there's definitely some personality differences between us, but overall, I think we'd be a great match for each other.
Problem is, he's so soft-spoken and mysterious. I try to learn more about him, get in his head, but he's a Pisces, and doesn't roll that way. He doesn't want an airy Gemini all in his business, interogating him like a criminal, trying whatever she can to get closer to him.
As a result, I've developed a mix of complete awe and discouragement towards him. I want to get closer to him, but it's hard when the other person isn't really opening the door wide enough for you. I want in. I want to know everything about him. He's my little science project that I want to observe and experiement with. He's my little pill, my little obsession, my ecstasy. He makes my heart race and want to dance and smile and put my hands all over every inch of his body.
He is by far, the most attractive man I have ever been with, and I'm really just hoping and praying that I'm not just a little "toy" in his mind. I am not one to be played with. And if you try to play with me, well sweetie, you are going to get a rude awakening when you wake up and find your car covered in something not so lovely. =)
Heehee. Yes, I am a little disturbed in the head, so whatever emotion I feel, I take strong caution before I act on it.
I'm insecure to the max in a sense, with this particular test subject.
I've never been with something just.. So spectacular in my eyes.
However, because I'm still in the process of learning about him, I can't say that statement will always hold true.
Eeeeee. He's just so fucking adorable too! >.<
I need help. I need Jesus. I need a joint. I need something to get my mind off this guy, who is at this moment, probably sitting in his room 50 feet away from me, if he hasn't already went tot work today.
Might as well take the rest of that xanax (and I don't even take that shit under normal circumstances)!
Ah, it is ovbious that I am absolutely smitten. Completely. Head over heels gaga for this guy.
The softest skin I have ever felt on a guy, great sex, sexy tattoos on his body.. Oh my god he's just fantastic!
I can't say he's perfect, because there's definitely some personality differences between us, but overall, I think we'd be a great match for each other.
Problem is, he's so soft-spoken and mysterious. I try to learn more about him, get in his head, but he's a Pisces, and doesn't roll that way. He doesn't want an airy Gemini all in his business, interogating him like a criminal, trying whatever she can to get closer to him.
As a result, I've developed a mix of complete awe and discouragement towards him. I want to get closer to him, but it's hard when the other person isn't really opening the door wide enough for you. I want in. I want to know everything about him. He's my little science project that I want to observe and experiement with. He's my little pill, my little obsession, my ecstasy. He makes my heart race and want to dance and smile and put my hands all over every inch of his body.
He is by far, the most attractive man I have ever been with, and I'm really just hoping and praying that I'm not just a little "toy" in his mind. I am not one to be played with. And if you try to play with me, well sweetie, you are going to get a rude awakening when you wake up and find your car covered in something not so lovely. =)
Heehee. Yes, I am a little disturbed in the head, so whatever emotion I feel, I take strong caution before I act on it.
I'm insecure to the max in a sense, with this particular test subject.
I've never been with something just.. So spectacular in my eyes.
However, because I'm still in the process of learning about him, I can't say that statement will always hold true.
Eeeeee. He's just so fucking adorable too! >.<
I need help. I need Jesus. I need a joint. I need something to get my mind off this guy, who is at this moment, probably sitting in his room 50 feet away from me, if he hasn't already went tot work today.
Might as well take the rest of that xanax (and I don't even take that shit under normal circumstances)!