"if you look too much in the rearview mirror, youre more likely to crash"
i am babysitting right now. the perks of having a lap top. i can have it downstairs and keep myself entertained while the kids play. of course i can hear and see everything they do from where i am. im not a bad babysitter sillies. right now they are playing with stamps. who knew stamps could keep kids entertained for this long.
i updated like crazy yesterday but livejournal decided to be stupid and erase everything i spent forever typing. good for you i guess cause it was a lot of rambling. i do feel that it is my duty to update fairly regularly to keep you crazy cats entertained when you are bored and livejournal is your only source of entertainment. trust me, ive been there, i know.
this week has been both good and bad. its been good in the sense that ive gotten to spend some good time with family. ive been babysitting every day and am starting to make a little money. i have to start working more in order to have money to move into out apartment this summer. the one we originally wanted didn't fall through so now we have to look for another one. we have a few prospects but we'll see what God has in store for us. so finding out about that was on the downside. another plus is how happy ipa is with her current situation. i am so glad she has found a great guy who can make her happy and im really glad he's not being stupid anymore. i am however, beginning to question my future profession and wonder if it should include being a therapist of some sort. another bad thing is that he hasn't called me all week. im beginning to see where i come into play in his life. it hurts, ill be the first to admit. but i have to get over it and i have to put that part of my life in the past. i do love him still. that doesnt just go away. and maybe it never will. but i will learn to love someone new...i have found, though, that it's easy to fall into the past. its easy to turn to the past, where i was comfortable and secure. but then i have to remind myself that that didnt necessarily make me happy either. we'll see what God has planned. i know it's something great. i just want to be someone's priority. i want to mean the world to someone and i want them to love me passionately, with all that they are.
sorry this was a long one. oopsy daisy. the whole family is gone this weekend and im here all by my lonesome. someone come rescue me from boredom PLEASE. just kidding, ill find things to do. tonight im hanging out with blake...should be interesting. we'll see. peace and love.
oh, here's my horoscope for today. thought it was interesting: "There will probably be quite a few things that need your attention on Friday, but you just might not be feeling like your usual self today. This weekend could be an opportune time to talk things over with someone special and try to resolve any problems you may have been having. It should be a great time to make a fresh start, so don't be afraid to take the initiative where romantic matters are concerned right now. "
i updated like crazy yesterday but livejournal decided to be stupid and erase everything i spent forever typing. good for you i guess cause it was a lot of rambling. i do feel that it is my duty to update fairly regularly to keep you crazy cats entertained when you are bored and livejournal is your only source of entertainment. trust me, ive been there, i know.
this week has been both good and bad. its been good in the sense that ive gotten to spend some good time with family. ive been babysitting every day and am starting to make a little money. i have to start working more in order to have money to move into out apartment this summer. the one we originally wanted didn't fall through so now we have to look for another one. we have a few prospects but we'll see what God has in store for us. so finding out about that was on the downside. another plus is how happy ipa is with her current situation. i am so glad she has found a great guy who can make her happy and im really glad he's not being stupid anymore. i am however, beginning to question my future profession and wonder if it should include being a therapist of some sort. another bad thing is that he hasn't called me all week. im beginning to see where i come into play in his life. it hurts, ill be the first to admit. but i have to get over it and i have to put that part of my life in the past. i do love him still. that doesnt just go away. and maybe it never will. but i will learn to love someone new...i have found, though, that it's easy to fall into the past. its easy to turn to the past, where i was comfortable and secure. but then i have to remind myself that that didnt necessarily make me happy either. we'll see what God has planned. i know it's something great. i just want to be someone's priority. i want to mean the world to someone and i want them to love me passionately, with all that they are.
sorry this was a long one. oopsy daisy. the whole family is gone this weekend and im here all by my lonesome. someone come rescue me from boredom PLEASE. just kidding, ill find things to do. tonight im hanging out with blake...should be interesting. we'll see. peace and love.
oh, here's my horoscope for today. thought it was interesting: "There will probably be quite a few things that need your attention on Friday, but you just might not be feeling like your usual self today. This weekend could be an opportune time to talk things over with someone special and try to resolve any problems you may have been having. It should be a great time to make a fresh start, so don't be afraid to take the initiative where romantic matters are concerned right now. "