for all of this, im better off without you
home sweet home. its great to be back in Virginia Beach. ive missed it more than words. mainly ive just been really homesick. im going to be working a LOT this summer. which is good because i really need to work. im trying to distract myself....take away any memory of him that i can. i took out everything about him in my myspace and such. i took out all the pictures of him in my phone..or rather ipa did because it was too hard for me.
and even though i know we're only on a break...it feels like it's over. and that's what i have to tell myself because it makes it easier. "it's easier to think of him as a distant something rather than an important someone".
so for now i will try not to think of him when i hear sad songs on the radio. ill try to watch sappy romance movies without getting upset. because i have to move on with my life. and i have to be stronger than ive been. thank God i have great family and friends to help me. and those who can't help me...please don't try. you just make things worse. you probably dont even know who you are though..oh well
i just need distance from him physically and mentally. and if and when he comes back to me, ill decide if i want to let him back in. but for now, i just need to not speak his name, not think of him when there's nothing else to think about. we'll see how that goes. wish me luck
i love everyone :)
and even though i know we're only on a break...it feels like it's over. and that's what i have to tell myself because it makes it easier. "it's easier to think of him as a distant something rather than an important someone".
so for now i will try not to think of him when i hear sad songs on the radio. ill try to watch sappy romance movies without getting upset. because i have to move on with my life. and i have to be stronger than ive been. thank God i have great family and friends to help me. and those who can't help me...please don't try. you just make things worse. you probably dont even know who you are though..oh well
i just need distance from him physically and mentally. and if and when he comes back to me, ill decide if i want to let him back in. but for now, i just need to not speak his name, not think of him when there's nothing else to think about. we'll see how that goes. wish me luck
i love everyone :)