Been awhile
So I played in the outdoor league today..and totally sucked..definitely wasn't myself...I played a game after but was on the field this time, and yea...sucked some balls then too...my skills aren't where they were b4...so I decided to look up some statistics bout this season as I look out my window watching the co-eds play...I'm pretty upset bout where I am..last year I was #1 nationally in division III..now I'm 3rd..it really bites..and I could blame alot of things like my team was just so bad this year...or I didn't play all my games...cuz I played half or whole games on field. And I even told my coaches that I didn't want to play field sometimes, cuz I wanted to work on my statistics, but they didn't listen too much. But no matter what I can only blame myself and be hard on myself. I'm actually really bummed.and I swear...next year I'm workin my ass off to be #1 again, no more bullshitting, cuz it definitely doesn't leave u anywhere. I want to be the best for the next 2 years...I was already last year..and I messed up this year, but I want to try to be the best 3 of 4 years..it's really time to step it up....