For the most part, Rogue was not a social creature. By pure survival instinct, she closed herself off to a lot of things, and making friends was one of them. She had a few friends, just a few. A handful maybe. Of course, Spokane and then the illness, that shot all of that in the foot with a gallon of buck shot and a few sticks of TNT
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By no long shot has he completely forgiven her, the Mexican is still hurt, but after a good talking to by Lorna he's seeing a bit more sense. Usually (and this is his default setting really) Ric would ignore the issue at hand and be all blase about it. But he can't be because it's Rogue and although she said some pretty bitchy, nasty, selfish, mean -- okay getting off track here -- things, he misses his sister ( ... )
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Cigarette between his fingers, he sucks at the side of his thumb, a nervous gesture as he watches his Rogue and wonders what the fuck he's going to say. Sorry I slapped you but you kissed my boyfriend? No, that sounds too false. I only lashed out because you said those bitchy things. No, still placing the blame on Rogue, and despite her having said those things Lorna had been right and her wisdom played over and over in Ric's head at night; 'Are you more upset that she kissed your boyfriend rather than finding someone else to kiss, or are you actually genuinely under the impression that she was seriously ( ... )
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She said it softly, not wanting to spark another fight, but it was the truth. They'd both gotten way too involved in that and all the little niggles from their budding relationship was aired for the entire camp. "An' Ah think it was you that called it Operation Havoc, jus' puttin' that out there."
Back then, they'd used Remy as a reason to fight, or he had. This time it had been Mark. Sort of. "Y' think maybe we're gettin' too like siblings? Fightin' over boys?" It wasn't like she was too interested anyway, not like she could really get close to anyone anyway.
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He sets a completed cigarette down and starts on another one, needing to find something to do with his hands now that he's stubbed out his previous rolley. Rogue is right though, he'd been the one to give it a name, they'd also said stuff -- well Ric had said some really uncalled for stuff and nearly gotten his lights knocked out.
"Is that a complaint? Because I'd rather have that then nothing..." He licks at the paper, twirling the cigarette between his fingers and thumbs. "Anyway it's not the boys we're fighting over, or at least not what I'm fighting with you over.
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"Ah dunno really," she didn't want to be one of those cases, the siblings that she'd heard about that always got bitchy and catty. She'd always thought she and Rictor were different, that she wouldn't be that kind of sister and he'd never really get that kind of angry with her. "Ah mean, we kinda got outta hand."
See, she was putting her own blame in there too. She absolutely knew that she probably shouldn't have said those things, but it wasn't exactly her fault, she wasn't escaping with that, blaming his noise in her head for the reasoning, because he wouldn't understand. He just didn't want to understand. "We don't talk 'bout things. We let 'em pile up, we jus' explode once in a while an' it's kinda shit when we do."
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Starting with a new piece of paper he offers the pack to Rogue, she was the one who'd always done this for him when he'd made the slow transition. Sure, he still smoked a pack of cigarettes occasionally, but Rogue had at least made Ric promise that if he was going to slowly kill himself, could he at least do it a little slower with roll-ups. "I guess we did."
It's a case of where they are both circling the words I'm sorry, that much is obvious, but Ric just can't quite bring himself to say it just yet. Things got said, some of the true -- okay most of them true. Just Ric was finding it hard to understand why Rogue hadn't just told him up front what was going on rather than kissing Martini. With a nod Ric takes one of his pre-rolled cigarettes and ( ... )
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"Lorna was right, you were dealing with having me in your head and being sick... and I wasn't helping things by yelling." Ric spits a bit of errant tobacco out and takes a draw from his cigarette. Hearing it like this, that Rogue is worried about him makes Ric feel guilty. Scuffing his boot along the step, he watches the hazy swirl of smoke a it rises up from his cigarette and dissipate. "I know. I can't take back what I said either but Rogue I'm fine. Look, all that stuff you were dealing with from me, well you've not had the years to get over it. Accept that it's a part of you and get on with it. It's alright, I understand that now ( ... )
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"Lorna, huh." It doesn't bother her that he's talking about things to someone else, not really. It's good that he is, because it's helpful. But Rogue doesn't know who Lorna is, so it irks just a little. Even as she hears him talk, there's that voice in her head yammering away at the same time, Rictor's words almost drowned out by Julio's and Rogue tries to focus on rolling the cigarette but fails to block out the voices.
Stuff? Can't even say it, it's just stuff. High dependency, low rate idiot. Stuff. It's just stuff. Teenagers deal with stuff, stock brokers deal with stuff. This is serious, this'll kill him. Julio's voice just keeps going and Rogue stops rolling to stare at her knees. She has to swallow down the anger, stop herself from lashing out, from listening to that voice. "Well Ah'm so glad you understand that ( ... )
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"Yeah, darlin', we can talk about it later." She doesn't want to bench the issue, because God knows it'll be so hard to bring up. But she's still got to make amends with Mark, to make sure Mark understands that no one is really to blame for what happened, that it all just got out of hand and really, he should try and talk to Rictor.
It's going to be hard on her side, she knows that. He'll bury it along with everything else, pretend things are fine and make like they never had their fight. He'll treat her the way he always did -probably just a little wary of touching her until even that fades away. But Rogue isn't that good at repression, least of all when there's a voice niggling away at her. "So we're good?"
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