More Updates from me!!
02/02/2005
Well I am going back into the reality that I semi-lived in. Its still hard getting use to all this, but I have a lot of time to make up for now. Sometimes I will be laying awake at night and think what will happen next, or if I will ever achieve my dreams. One of my therapist really hit the nail on the head, when he said that I am a man of simple needs. All I want is to start a family, still do something with computers, cars and music and have some money in my pocket, an I will be fine. Thats what I can honestly say I want out of my life, just living the simple life. Other times I wonder, if somewhere up above someone or something keeps sending me angels, when I feel like I can't take it anymore. On the good side, I was asked to be a god father to a friend of mine.
02/03/2005
I think I figured out why my mom keep ed me isolated from some parts of my family, one reason is our personalities make us want to fight with one another all the time. I wish life could just go back to being simple again, but I guess things are always going to be that way neither. Something I can't figure out this out and if anyone can explain this one to me I would be greatly appreciated on this one. When I was a rock bottem, I was truly at peace, when I had no money and still in the hole. I can say I was more at peace then I am at now, I figure it out and its driving me crazy (no pun intended). I was hoping all this stuff would start happening, but it seems like with all the good thats happening; the more stress and bullsh** that comes with it. Maybe I am just putting more into it, because I know I am not the only one that feels this way, I just wish I knew how to deal with it.
02/05/2005
Well today went better then I expected, I was thinking I was going to fight with some more relatives; but it turned out things went smoothly. Which is a blessing in it's self, because I don't deal with stress to well and it seems lately thats all my days consisted of is major amounts of stress. One thing I miss is my simple life, playing some music, maybe do some work on a car and thats just for starters. I know when I was living in Tennessee, when I would watch James youngest daughter, I would get a kick out just watching her play and laugh.
Well I am going back into the reality that I semi-lived in. Its still hard getting use to all this, but I have a lot of time to make up for now. Sometimes I will be laying awake at night and think what will happen next, or if I will ever achieve my dreams. One of my therapist really hit the nail on the head, when he said that I am a man of simple needs. All I want is to start a family, still do something with computers, cars and music and have some money in my pocket, an I will be fine. Thats what I can honestly say I want out of my life, just living the simple life. Other times I wonder, if somewhere up above someone or something keeps sending me angels, when I feel like I can't take it anymore. On the good side, I was asked to be a god father to a friend of mine.
02/03/2005
I think I figured out why my mom keep ed me isolated from some parts of my family, one reason is our personalities make us want to fight with one another all the time. I wish life could just go back to being simple again, but I guess things are always going to be that way neither. Something I can't figure out this out and if anyone can explain this one to me I would be greatly appreciated on this one. When I was a rock bottem, I was truly at peace, when I had no money and still in the hole. I can say I was more at peace then I am at now, I figure it out and its driving me crazy (no pun intended). I was hoping all this stuff would start happening, but it seems like with all the good thats happening; the more stress and bullsh** that comes with it. Maybe I am just putting more into it, because I know I am not the only one that feels this way, I just wish I knew how to deal with it.
02/05/2005
Well today went better then I expected, I was thinking I was going to fight with some more relatives; but it turned out things went smoothly. Which is a blessing in it's self, because I don't deal with stress to well and it seems lately thats all my days consisted of is major amounts of stress. One thing I miss is my simple life, playing some music, maybe do some work on a car and thats just for starters. I know when I was living in Tennessee, when I would watch James youngest daughter, I would get a kick out just watching her play and laugh.