Still no net, but gotz me a computer!!
01/16/2005
Life and the road - Poem
I finished my last cigarette on a 3 am run from Richmond, some where I found my soul in someone else's hands, so I stole it back, at once city I found my kids and my lover. We made it to Boone North Carolina, Where I found the vampires that were leaching the life blood out of me; it was my past. I finally killed the demons that where haunting as well as hunting me, time will tell if they return from their cold gray tombs. But I draw ed the line, my army ready to fight, lets ride...
Jason Carroll - 11-10-04
As I get further in my therapy, the more I figure out how much I've missed. There are pieces of my life that I've mentally blocked out and now it's slowly coming back to me and to be honest it's hard to deal with sometimes because, because of all the memories I've been blocking (if that makes any sense). But one thing I can say is, is that if anyone has doubts about making it back, if I can do anyone else can. I guess the point to what I saying is, that the hardest thing to do is NOT give up. An getting all this all out there, hoping that at least someone might read it and get something from it that helps them too; plus writing all this to my blogs is a form of therapy for me. Ok onto some lighter stuff, as I mentioned before I am using a home made computer, that runs Linux-Mandrake 10.1 http://www.linuxiso.org/ and if anyone wants to learn about Linux go to http://www.linuxquestions.org/. 1 am going to start trying to learn more things about Linux and so on, so I can put them on my open source blog.
01/19/2005
Well its the first major snow fall of the year and I still wish I was in a warmer climate. When I was living Maryland, I didn't mind the snow because I was in high school at the time and I was looking for a excuse to miss school. But living in Tennessee, got me use to a warmer climate and I love living out in the woods. I've practicing more, I want to start playing music again; hopefully when I get some money coming in I can start taking lessons again.
01/21/2005
Lately I've been slowly coming to the realization on why people say life is hard sometimes. I mean I had a hard life growing up, but it seems like lately its been rubbing salt in the wounds. Because now I am having to make all the choices on my own and I know theirs no clear way I can go. I remember a uncle telling me one time “expect the worst, but hope for the best”, well I can definatly say things are looking really ugly right now, hopefully things can start to looking better soon (geez why did I give up drinking LOL, just kidding).
Life and the road - Poem
I finished my last cigarette on a 3 am run from Richmond, some where I found my soul in someone else's hands, so I stole it back, at once city I found my kids and my lover. We made it to Boone North Carolina, Where I found the vampires that were leaching the life blood out of me; it was my past. I finally killed the demons that where haunting as well as hunting me, time will tell if they return from their cold gray tombs. But I draw ed the line, my army ready to fight, lets ride...
Jason Carroll - 11-10-04
As I get further in my therapy, the more I figure out how much I've missed. There are pieces of my life that I've mentally blocked out and now it's slowly coming back to me and to be honest it's hard to deal with sometimes because, because of all the memories I've been blocking (if that makes any sense). But one thing I can say is, is that if anyone has doubts about making it back, if I can do anyone else can. I guess the point to what I saying is, that the hardest thing to do is NOT give up. An getting all this all out there, hoping that at least someone might read it and get something from it that helps them too; plus writing all this to my blogs is a form of therapy for me. Ok onto some lighter stuff, as I mentioned before I am using a home made computer, that runs Linux-Mandrake 10.1 http://www.linuxiso.org/ and if anyone wants to learn about Linux go to http://www.linuxquestions.org/. 1 am going to start trying to learn more things about Linux and so on, so I can put them on my open source blog.
01/19/2005
Well its the first major snow fall of the year and I still wish I was in a warmer climate. When I was living Maryland, I didn't mind the snow because I was in high school at the time and I was looking for a excuse to miss school. But living in Tennessee, got me use to a warmer climate and I love living out in the woods. I've practicing more, I want to start playing music again; hopefully when I get some money coming in I can start taking lessons again.
01/21/2005
Lately I've been slowly coming to the realization on why people say life is hard sometimes. I mean I had a hard life growing up, but it seems like lately its been rubbing salt in the wounds. Because now I am having to make all the choices on my own and I know theirs no clear way I can go. I remember a uncle telling me one time “expect the worst, but hope for the best”, well I can definatly say things are looking really ugly right now, hopefully things can start to looking better soon (geez why did I give up drinking LOL, just kidding).