The call
Title: The call
Pairing: Yamachii, Chiitaro, Ariyama
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Yamada was spending another night at home when suddenly he received a call that make him remember things he thought he have forgotten.
It was late at night and Yamada was sitting in the living room of the apartment he shared with his lover, when suddenly he’s cell phone buzzed; asking himself who could be calling him so late he answered the phone.
“Hello?” he asked. At first nobody responded, but just as he was going to hang out thinking it could be someone playing him a prank he hear it.
“Yama-chan?” a shy voice asked in the other line. Yamada couldn’t believe it, it’s been almost a year since he last hear that voice and still after all this time of convincing himself that he didn’t missed him, just a word of his lips and all the memories rushed into his head.
“Chii?” Yamada asked, he didn’t needed the answer, he could recognize that voice even at the other side of the planet.
Chinen didn’t answer so Yamada looked around to see where Daiki was before asking. “Chii, are you still there?”After a moment of silence Chinen finally spoke
“I… I just…” but he couldn’t finish as his voice broke and he stared sobbing.
“Chii, why are crying? Is everything all right?” There was alarm in Yamada’s tone of voice and he was surprised by how worried he could be over him, even after all this time.
“I… I guess I just missed you” the answer took Yamada by surprise. He didn’t answer. “I know I shouldn’t be doing this but I just…”
Yamada didn’t wanted to say what he was thinking. Yes he missed Chinen, he missed so much he’s little squirrel. Well, maybe he should drop the he’s part; Chinen didn’t belonged to him anymore. So he answered something else instead.
“But, you have Ryutaro” Yamada’s heart still hurt when he think about it.
“I…” Chinen stopped sobbing, they were both whispering.
“Yes, he is in the next room. I feel bad about saying this but sometimes… sometimes I wish you were here with me, sometimes I wish he was you” Yamada didn’t answered. What should I say? I just can’t tell him how much I want to be there with him right now. I can’t tell him that I also want to be Ryutaro sometimes. Yamada thought. But he didn’t needed to answer, it was as if Chinen wasn’t expecting one. He just continued “Yama-chan, after all this time, after all the fights, after the difficult broke up… I guess you keep being important for me” now Chinen was crying again.
Yamada felt guilty about what he was feeling, he was with Daiki now after all. But he just couldn’t stop feeling happy to hear that. He was happy to know that Chinen missed him; that after all, he wasn’t the only one who cared. It was just so sweet to hear Chinen call him Yama-chan, Chinen voice was still like a melody to him.
“Chii. Why now? Why today?” Yamada needed to know, he has been thinking about the little guy all day.
“I dreamed about you last night, about us” Chinen answered. “Do you remember our first date? I dreamed about it”
Now Yamada was surprised
“Really?” Yamada asked in disbelieve “I dream of you too” he says “I dreamed I was with you again in that park”
“Yes, we spend all day at the park, and after that day we used to spend all the time together. I remember that Ryu was getting annoyed of our sweet moments.” Chinen say all that with emotion, remembering all the great times.
Yes, at that moment they have been all friends, Yamada, Ryutaro, Chinen and Daiki. They were always together. Yamada was remembering how much fun they used to have, when suddenly a question popped up in his mind.
“Do Ryutaro know you’re talking with me?”
Chinen didn’t wanted to answer “No, well he…”
“Would he get mad?” Yamada asked.
“Kind of.” answered Chinen. “What about Daiki? I don’t want to cause you problems.”
“I… I don’t think he has a clue”
Yamada get out of the living room and to the balcony of the apartment. Daiki was doing something in the kitchen and Yamada didn’t want him to hear the conversation. Yes, they have been together for a couple of months now, and Daiki has always been there for him. But still at this moment Yamada was thinking of how would have been if Chinen were the one by his side.
After all he has never stopped loving the little giant.
It was just so good to hear his voice, for a moment he wished that they have never broken up.
And then he felled bad. For a moment he thought he should really hang up, how could he be thinking about another guy when Daiki was just a few feet apart? But he didn’t, he knew he should but he didn’t wanted to.
“Yama-chan? Are you still there?” Yamada just realized that they haven’t been talking for a while
“Hai” he answered. “I’m just thinking about how confused I’m right now. I was fine… I thought I was. And suddenly I hear your voice and everything becomes so confuse, my heart become so confuse.” He did a pause to think before he talked again. “It just that hearing you calling my name make me so happy, but I have another person now and so do you. We loved each other but it didn’t work out and now… now…” Yamada didn’t finish his answer; he couldn’t find the right words to express how he felt.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t wanted to confuse you. I shouldn’t have done this. I guess my feelings just took the best of me; but I promise I won’t disturb you again” he try hard not to cry but Yamada could anyways hear the hidden sobs between he’s words. “Bye… Ryo-chan”
“Bye chii” Yamada was just going to end the call like that, but decided that he needed to say something of his feeling “And Yuri… I really miss you too”. With that hanged up, tears rolling down his face.
He took some time to calm himself before entering the living room where his boyfriend was waiting for him, giving him questioning looks, eyes full with curiosity.
Yes, it was true Yamada didn’t love the penguin boy yet, but the older guy loved him and Yamada have premised himself that he’ll try his best to return that feeling.
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HI, I know it have been long since the last fic I posted. This is kind of boring, I'm sorry about that.
Actually this is kind of a songfic, I was listening to "Lips of an angel" by Hinder and this pop up into mi mind. :DD
I wanted to post something today since I wont be able of entering LJ for about 12 days, so sorry if I can't answer your comment for now. But PLEASE COMMENT so I can know if you guys keep reading what I post. ^_^
And sorry for my bad english, I really didn't have time to review this and I have to go now.
Hope you guys like it. ^.^
Pairing: Yamachii, Chiitaro, Ariyama
Genre: Angst
Rating: PG
Summary: Yamada was spending another night at home when suddenly he received a call that make him remember things he thought he have forgotten.
It was late at night and Yamada was sitting in the living room of the apartment he shared with his lover, when suddenly he’s cell phone buzzed; asking himself who could be calling him so late he answered the phone.
“Hello?” he asked. At first nobody responded, but just as he was going to hang out thinking it could be someone playing him a prank he hear it.
“Yama-chan?” a shy voice asked in the other line. Yamada couldn’t believe it, it’s been almost a year since he last hear that voice and still after all this time of convincing himself that he didn’t missed him, just a word of his lips and all the memories rushed into his head.
“Chii?” Yamada asked, he didn’t needed the answer, he could recognize that voice even at the other side of the planet.
Chinen didn’t answer so Yamada looked around to see where Daiki was before asking. “Chii, are you still there?”After a moment of silence Chinen finally spoke
“I… I just…” but he couldn’t finish as his voice broke and he stared sobbing.
“Chii, why are crying? Is everything all right?” There was alarm in Yamada’s tone of voice and he was surprised by how worried he could be over him, even after all this time.
“I… I guess I just missed you” the answer took Yamada by surprise. He didn’t answer. “I know I shouldn’t be doing this but I just…”
Yamada didn’t wanted to say what he was thinking. Yes he missed Chinen, he missed so much he’s little squirrel. Well, maybe he should drop the he’s part; Chinen didn’t belonged to him anymore. So he answered something else instead.
“But, you have Ryutaro” Yamada’s heart still hurt when he think about it.
“I…” Chinen stopped sobbing, they were both whispering.
“Yes, he is in the next room. I feel bad about saying this but sometimes… sometimes I wish you were here with me, sometimes I wish he was you” Yamada didn’t answered. What should I say? I just can’t tell him how much I want to be there with him right now. I can’t tell him that I also want to be Ryutaro sometimes. Yamada thought. But he didn’t needed to answer, it was as if Chinen wasn’t expecting one. He just continued “Yama-chan, after all this time, after all the fights, after the difficult broke up… I guess you keep being important for me” now Chinen was crying again.
Yamada felt guilty about what he was feeling, he was with Daiki now after all. But he just couldn’t stop feeling happy to hear that. He was happy to know that Chinen missed him; that after all, he wasn’t the only one who cared. It was just so sweet to hear Chinen call him Yama-chan, Chinen voice was still like a melody to him.
“Chii. Why now? Why today?” Yamada needed to know, he has been thinking about the little guy all day.
“I dreamed about you last night, about us” Chinen answered. “Do you remember our first date? I dreamed about it”
Now Yamada was surprised
“Really?” Yamada asked in disbelieve “I dream of you too” he says “I dreamed I was with you again in that park”
“Yes, we spend all day at the park, and after that day we used to spend all the time together. I remember that Ryu was getting annoyed of our sweet moments.” Chinen say all that with emotion, remembering all the great times.
Yes, at that moment they have been all friends, Yamada, Ryutaro, Chinen and Daiki. They were always together. Yamada was remembering how much fun they used to have, when suddenly a question popped up in his mind.
“Do Ryutaro know you’re talking with me?”
Chinen didn’t wanted to answer “No, well he…”
“Would he get mad?” Yamada asked.
“Kind of.” answered Chinen. “What about Daiki? I don’t want to cause you problems.”
“I… I don’t think he has a clue”
Yamada get out of the living room and to the balcony of the apartment. Daiki was doing something in the kitchen and Yamada didn’t want him to hear the conversation. Yes, they have been together for a couple of months now, and Daiki has always been there for him. But still at this moment Yamada was thinking of how would have been if Chinen were the one by his side.
After all he has never stopped loving the little giant.
It was just so good to hear his voice, for a moment he wished that they have never broken up.
And then he felled bad. For a moment he thought he should really hang up, how could he be thinking about another guy when Daiki was just a few feet apart? But he didn’t, he knew he should but he didn’t wanted to.
“Yama-chan? Are you still there?” Yamada just realized that they haven’t been talking for a while
“Hai” he answered. “I’m just thinking about how confused I’m right now. I was fine… I thought I was. And suddenly I hear your voice and everything becomes so confuse, my heart become so confuse.” He did a pause to think before he talked again. “It just that hearing you calling my name make me so happy, but I have another person now and so do you. We loved each other but it didn’t work out and now… now…” Yamada didn’t finish his answer; he couldn’t find the right words to express how he felt.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t wanted to confuse you. I shouldn’t have done this. I guess my feelings just took the best of me; but I promise I won’t disturb you again” he try hard not to cry but Yamada could anyways hear the hidden sobs between he’s words. “Bye… Ryo-chan”
“Bye chii” Yamada was just going to end the call like that, but decided that he needed to say something of his feeling “And Yuri… I really miss you too”. With that hanged up, tears rolling down his face.
He took some time to calm himself before entering the living room where his boyfriend was waiting for him, giving him questioning looks, eyes full with curiosity.
Yes, it was true Yamada didn’t love the penguin boy yet, but the older guy loved him and Yamada have premised himself that he’ll try his best to return that feeling.
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HI, I know it have been long since the last fic I posted. This is kind of boring, I'm sorry about that.
Actually this is kind of a songfic, I was listening to "Lips of an angel" by Hinder and this pop up into mi mind. :DD
I wanted to post something today since I wont be able of entering LJ for about 12 days, so sorry if I can't answer your comment for now. But PLEASE COMMENT so I can know if you guys keep reading what I post. ^_^
And sorry for my bad english, I really didn't have time to review this and I have to go now.
Hope you guys like it. ^.^