Fic: She Falls Apart - Nine
Title: She Falls Apart - Nine
Fandom, Pairing: RPF (Disney) Demi/Selena
Rating: Varies but we'll say M to NC-17 over most chapters.
Disclaimer: This is a work of complete and utter fiction.
Summary: Following An Untitled Prologue which was written for a prompt over at colorwithme this follows what happens between Demi and Selena after.
Authors Notes: Thanks to Faye letscall-l for being the beta on this one - your comments always help to keep me inspired.
Warnings: This fic deals with adult situations like sex (and on that note the girls are older now - obviously), alcohol consumption and some general adult themes.
This does deal with some sensitive issues of non-con/date-rape and rape - if this disturbs you please don't read it.
Chapter Nine
Demi’s fingers play with the buttons on Selena’s shirt while they make out. Selena’s noticed these little habits, Demi is always hovering on the edge of the next step she wants to take but patiently waiting for permission. Selena closes her eyes and whispers “You can take it off” she feels a knot tighten in her stomach at her own words. When she opens her eyes she see’s Demi’s expression and suddenly it dissolves. She looks so happy, but also concerned and loving. Demi’s fingers start to pop open the buttons, he head ducks down to plant a kiss along her collarbone. Soon the kisses are trailing along Selena’s skin as each button is removed, exposing more skin to Demi’s lips. Selena takes deep breaths as Demi slides her shirt of completely, she pauses and stares into Selena’s eyes, seeking permission to go further. She’s having trouble breathing normally, she does feel anxious about letting Demi go further but she nods. Demis fingers slide behind her back and unclasp her bra, as soon as the garment is removed Demi’s lips capture her nipple and all of fears seem to dissolve at the sensation. When Demi’s fingers move to her pants Selena places a hard over hers.
“Dem” their eyes connect and she can see the worry in Demi’s dark orbs, so scared she’s done something wrong. “I just …” She pauses “Promise you’ll be here in the morning?” Demi’s lips suddenly crash against her own. When they pull apart she smiles.
“I promise Sel,” She kisses her again as her fingers unbutton her jeans “I promise, as long as you’ll have me, there is no where I would rather be than waking up with you in my arms.”
Selena grins as Demi finishes undressing her before they both turn their attention to shedding Demi’s clothes. Their naked bodies fit together easily, lips sliding against each other and fingers explore soft flesh. Demi marvels at very gasp and whimper and when she finally slides a finger into Selena she revels in the gasp of her name spilling from Selena’s lips.
“Demi”
It takes Demi’s breath away to hear her name spoken like that. Selena’s fingers dig into her back as she slides her fingers over her centre. She teases Selena more a few moments, taking her time as she fears rushing anything will cause Selena to change her mind. As Demi’s fingers finally slide inside of Selena she can’t help but think how much more amazing it is with Selena being so responsive to her actions.
Selena is ushered into the green room to wait with the other guest star for today’s show. Nick is already sitting on a couch, he waves and gives her a sheepish smile. He stands up as she walks over and pulls her into a hug.
“Hey Selena” He whispers as they hug.
“Hi Nick” she replies as they pull apart
“How are you?” they haven’t seen each other in what feels like an age but she can see the genuine concern in the platitude.
“Doing better” They sit down side by side on the couch, she looks up at the monitor. The host is delivering his introduction to the audience. A picture of Nick flashes across the screen.
“I bet you’re looking forward to the movie release”
“Sort of, I’m getting a bit sick of the promo tour” She looks at her fingers, she wishes she had more time to spend with Demi before the other girl ended up on another tour or locked in a studio.
“I’ve noticed they’ve got Ryan doing a lot more than you”
“Yea, he’s been really busy. We’re meant to do some more events together closer to the premier”
“At least you have someone to share the burden with. This, it’s all about me, it’s my life out there for everyone.” This is Nicks solo project, promoting an album that is still raw with the emotion of his divorce. Selena’s listened to it, she’s read some of the critic reviews. They are raving about the album, boasting he was always the most talented Jonas and new album brings a strong sense of maturity. These days Joe’s attention has shifted to acting. Kevin is working behind the scenes, writing and producing, seeking more time and anonymity to raise his family.
“I’m sorry it didn’t work out” She does feel bad for her friends marriage breakdown; she remembers thinking how in love they were when they wed.
She notices tears suddenly spring into Nicks eyes “I really love her Sel” he quickly wipes at his eyes “It still tears me apart”
Selena is taken aback. She had been under the assumption the divorce was mutual. The tabloids, Taylor and Miley had all lead her to believe it was amicable, but here is Nick on the verge of tears over a casual comment.
“I guess some things aren’t meant to be no matter how much we want them” she tries to sympathise with him.
“I just wanted her to be happy with me. I turned a blind eye to it all. I thought I could be the one to make her happy. In the end I had to let her go to do that” He shrugs “Honestly, I am genuinely happy for them.”
Selena’s face scrunches up in confusion “Them?”
“Sorry, I thought you knew. She left me. At least now I know she’s really found happiness”
An assistant pops his head into the room “Nick we’re ready for you” He pulls Selena into a hug before leaving for his interview. She sits there as the new information slowly clicks into place. She laughs softly and wonders why she didn’t work it out sooner.
Demi bounds up the stairs in the hotel then barrels down the hall to Miley’s room She can’t contain her excitement. It’s been far too long since she’s seen her friends and she has an endless amount of enthusiasm for the upcoming days she would get to spend with Miley and Taylor. She pauses in front of the door and grins to herself. It wouldn’t be long until Selena would be joining them also, in the mean time she planned to spend some time with Miley.
She slides the key card she ‘acquired’ into the lock then pushes open the door.
“Holy Fuck!” She exclaims as the door swings open to the sight before her.
Miley and Taylor spring apart. Taylors face is pure shock while Miley’s is pure outrage.
“What the fuck Demi?!” She exclaims “Knock much?”
Demi is suddenly giggling “I’m so sorry, I was going to surprise you”
“Well mission accomplished” Taylor deadpans.
“So, wow.” Demi is grinning at them “How long has this been going on?”
She notices the guilt creep across Taylors face, Miley glances down at her feet and suddenly Demi feel awkward as she realises how long it has probably been going on.
“Right, well maybe I should leave you two” She turns to move away but Taylor is suddenly beside her.
“It’s okay, I have to get going anyway” She pauses at the door “Demi, please don’t tell anyone.”
“I won’t” She doesn’t understand why it would need to be a secret but she still doesn’t intend to tell anyone.
“Especially not Selena, I think I should really be the one to tell her.”
“Ok” Demi nods. She’s surprised Taylor hasn’t told Selena. The two were like sisters and Demi figured she would have known. She turns to Miley who rolls her eyes at Demi.
“Don’t say anything. We are not talking about it”
Demi shrugs “Ok well fine then.” She then bounces up and down. “So oh my god, what songs are you doing tonight?” She grins “and what are you wearing?” She watches as a smile grows on Miley’s face. Soon they are bouncing around the hotel room discussing Miley’s recent shows.
Selena sits in Dr Carter’s office and fidgets. She glances at the clock again, when she’s done here she gets on a plane to meet up with Taylor, Miley and Demi. She’s watching the seconds tick by as Dr Carter continues to try and get her address the issue she refused to talk about.
“Selena I think you really need to address what happened instead of ignoring it”
She pouts “I don’t want to” she’s been avoiding most discussions about what Michael did. She knows it’s why she’s here but still avoids the subject as much as possible.
“Let’s just talk through what you remember from that night, see if it jogs any memories”
Selena sighs. She just wants to pretend it never happened, she doesn’t want to try and remember. She’s happy for it to be one big empty space in her memory, she doesn’t know how’d she cope with remembering details.
“Well, I was there with Taylor but she was pretty busy looking after Miley” she almost starts to talk about Taylor and Miley as she remembers them dancing that night. She is wondering how it took her so long to work out what was going on with the other girls. A memory surfaces, Demi was there. “I saw Demi there, she was flirting with someone when I went to get a drink. Michael was at the bar. I guess I was distracted enough for him to spike my drink” She shakes her head. She wants to escape this but suddenly that evening is assaulting her, images of people dancing and the events of the evening flicker through her head. The way Demi looked in that skirt, the jealousy of her flirting. The hurt over what had happened between them.
“I remember talking to Demi in the bathrooms actually” she shrugs “I guess we had a fight about what happened.”
“Do you remember leaving the club?” Dr Carter asks.
“Yea” Selena nods “Sort of, I remember getting in a cab” She frowns as she thinks about this. She remembers getting into a cab, it’s always been there in her mind from that evening but she remembers something else today. “The driver asked ‘where do you ladies want to go’” Selena frowns then a smile creeps over her face.
“So I wasn’t with Michael” Relief washes over her, until she looks up at the concerned face watching her.
“Selena, do you think that maybe Demi was the one who drugged you? We’ve already talked -“
“No!” Selena didn’t let her finish before jumping out of her chair. “How dare you, Demi is my girlfriend. She loves me, she fucked up in the past but she wouldn’t do that” She shouts before she turns and storms out of the room. She has a plane to catch after all. She ignores Dr Carter calling after her. She ignores everything as she heads to the airport, she’s happy she didn’t leave that club with Michael and she wants to focus on that.
Chapter Ten