Fic: She Falls Apart - Eight
Title: She Falls Apart - Eight
Fandom, Pairing: RPF (Disney) Demi/Selena
Rating: Varies but we'll say M to NC-17 over most chapters.
Disclaimer: This is a work of complete and utter fiction.
Summary: Following An Untitled Prologue which was written for a prompt over at colorwithme this follows what happens between Demi and Selena after.
Authors Notes: Thanks to Faye letscall-l for being the beta on this one - your comments always help to keep me inspired.
Warnings: This fic deals with adult situations like sex (and on that note the girls are older now - obviously), alcohol consumption and some general adult themes.
This does deal with some sensitive issues of non-con/date-rape and rape - if this disturbs you please don't read it.
Chapter Eight
Selena smiles into the camera as she answers the questions. She giggles in the right places, smirks when they ask about Ryan. She’s calm and natural and of course the talk show host just loves her. They’re not allowed to ask about the break she took from filming but they manage to sneak in some other gossip.
“So you’ve been seen hanging out with Demi Lovato a lot lately” Jackie grins with all teeth, a fake smile as she prepares a question “Are you two BFF’s again?”
Selena’s smile falters but she quickly recovers, she feels like she might as well be back in Dr. Carter’s office justifying the friendship. Except Dr. Carter knows the whole story. This woman just wants some gossip to up the ratings, wants to know what brought the former Disney starlets back together.
“Yes” She smiles and wishes she could leave it at that but she knows it’s not allowed. She wants to tell them that she’s more then her friend, she’s her girlfriend that she’s the one who’s there every night holding her till she falls asleep. That it’s Demi who’s there with soft kisses when she wakes up from another nightmare. They all know about Demi’s party lifestyle and how recently she seems to have toned down.
“We sort of reconnected.” Selena shrugs, “We’ve known each other forever, it was quite natural that once we found some time to hang out we’d just fall back into being best friends” She smiles warmly. It’s somewhat truthful, she’s not at all surprised that just having Demi around she’s let the other girl fill an important role in her life. It’s what happens with history.
“Oh look we’re running out of time. Thanks for being here Selena”
“Thanks for having me Jackie” They hug. It’s all for show of course.
Jackie addresses the camera “And don’t forget you can see Selena on the big screen again from the 21st” The studio audience clap. There’s a break in filming where a commercial will play and Selena is ushered back stage. She’s grateful to be able to get out of the studio. She quickly grabs her blackberry and checks the time. She has an hour before a phone interview, plenty of time to get home. She quickly types out a text to let Taylor know the interview went well. She misses Taylor incredibly and is already looking forward to the trip they arranged to meet up with her on tour. Miley will have already joined her as the supporting act for the later part of the tour. Selena was excited because Demi had the time off to come too. She’s only allowed to go because she’s doing some local interviews and promo’s but even though it’s a work trip she can’t wait to see Taylor and Miley again.
Demi sits with a guitar perched in her lap, scribbles of paper are scattered over the floor. Mandy has paused in the hallway to watch other girl concentrating on her music. She smiles as her presence goes unnoticed. Somehow in the time Selena had let her into her home and her heart the spare room had become Demi’s music studio. Mandy wonders why Selena doesn’t just officially ask the other girl to move in with her. The house is too big for Selena alone, although she always seems to have friends staying over. She misses having her daughter at home, but she knew when Selena bought this place she wanted to have more independence. There was also some underlying idea that she and Brian needed more time alone, but she hadn’t really wanted her baby girl to leave.
“Hey Mandy” Demi has suddenly noticed her.
“Hey Demi, how’s the song coming along?” She moves into the room and takes a seat on another chair. Demi shrugs.
“It’s coming along” She sighs deeply “It’s just hard to decide what direction the next album will take. I want it to be different and really reflect the changes in my life”
Mandy smiles, she’s pleased with Demi’s recent changes, from the rock star persona that seemed ready to head for a burn out Demi had suddenly become very grounded as she helped Selena. Mandy guessed having a friend go through so much trauma would really put things into perspective.
“It’s been rough, for a lot of us lately” Demi muses as she picks up some of the papers scattered over the ground. “Miley and Nick broke up, he’s really putting effort into his solo project. Selena just keeps growing as an actress” Demi smiles softly. She purposefully doesn’t mention the reason they are both in Selena’s home. It doesn’t need to be said. “I just can’t find the right tone to express everything”
Mandy smiles “It will come to you”
She sighs “But then I need to get the record label to approve it”
“Why don’t you just release what you want, find an independent label or something”
“I have a contract” Demi counters.
Mandy just shrugs “People break those all the time, just refuse to make an album unless you can make it how you want. Demi they don’t own you, you’re the one who’s making money for them.”
“I never really though about it like that” She jumps up and gives Mandy a hug “Thank you” She smiles as she smells a familiar perfume that takes her back to being younger. She thinks its nice how some things just never change.
Selena quietly closes the bedroom door before calling Taylor. Demi is busy helping Mandy with dinner and she decides now it a good time to talk to the other girl. It doesn’t take Taylor long to pick up the phone.
“Hey Sel” She greets her cheerily
“Hey Tay” She smiles as she throws herself onto the bed. “How’s the tour going?”
“Fantastic! Miley got here this morning, we’re so excited for tonight’s show”
“I bet you are” Selena chuckles “I’m sure the crowd are going to love it”
“They will, Miley has some amazing new songs she’ll be playing”
“I can’t wait to see them myself” Selena smiles
“I know, when are you guys getting here?”
“Well Demi’s going down before me, I have some interviews and an appointment with Dr Carter then will meet you guys at the show” she bummed she doesn’t get to fly down with Demi, but she knows once she arrives it was going to be so much fun.
“How are things going with you two?” Taylor asks. Selena has explained every step of the developing relationship to the other girl through emails and phone calls.
“Good, she’s been patient. But she’s Demi and I know that she wants more”
“Sel, she loves you and she’ll just have to wait for that”
“I know, but that’s the thing, she’s been so patient and supportive it makes me think.” Selena takes a deep breath, she wonders if admitting what she’s been thinking would make it come true “well it makes me think I’m ready to do that with her”
“It’s your choice” Taylor advises, she knows Demi has been a big support for Selena but the rumours about the other girl worry her. If Demi hasn’t changed as much as they think she has then Selena would just end up another notch on her belt.
“I know it is, so does she” Selena stresses, she wouldn’t be considering this if she didn’t completely trust Demi not to hurt her again.
“Well, be safe” the two girls share a giggle at Taylors comment. Selena grins, happy to be talking to her ‘big sister’. They chat idly about the tour and the upcoming visit until Demi knocks on the door and pokes her head in.
“Dinner’s ready baby” Selena nods then says her goodbyes to Taylor as Demi hovers in the door. Before they head downstairs Selena wraps her arms around Demi’s waist, pulling her into a hug before pressing their lips together.
“Thank You” She whispers
“For what?” Demi asks before placing a chaste kiss on her lips
“For being here” Selena slides out of the hug and heads toward the stairs
“You’re welcome” Demi laughs as she follows her. “Now hurry up, I’m hungry”
Selena giggles, pausing on the steps and purposefully blocking Demi’s path toward the kitchen.
“Thou Shall Not Pass” She grins at her girlfriend who simply wraps her arms around her and picks her up. “Hey” Selena protests as Demi drops her at the bottom of the stairs. Demi gives her a toothy grin “I’m hungry baby, nothing stands in the way of me and your mothers cooking”
Selena watches as Demi sits with the guitar in her lap, playing her the song she’s been working on. She’s excited to hear the new music Demi has been working on, she’s glad Demi’s taken over a room to work on her music. Selena smiles as she takes in the soft acoustic rendition of the new song. Demi’s voice works perfectly with the guitar as she sings. She can’t help but feel the new song shows a level of maturity, the general tone of the music is slightly different. It’s the lyrics that really strike her, it’s obvious to her that it’s about Miley and Nick’s divorce on some level but it’s subtle. When Demi finishes she smiles shyly and Selena remembers the first time Demi ever played her music, when she was so desperate for Selena’s approval. She’s giving her that same look now and Selena’s heart swells as she recognises that piece of her old best friend in the young woman before her.
“It’s beautiful Demi” She smiles before leaning over and giving her a quick kiss.
“Really?”
“Of course!” Selena laughs, it surprises her sometimes how deeply insecure Demi can really be. “It’s really good”
Demi puts the guitar aside and pulls Selena into her lap, wrapping her arms around her waist she places a kiss on Selena’s nose.
“Thank you, it means a lot that you like it”
“I can tell the new album will be really great” Selena presses her lips against Demi’s softly. Soon the kisses become more heated and Demi’s fingers slide under Selena’s shirt, tracing patterns over her bare skin. As always Demi doesn’t push it any further, she continues to be patient. When they pull apart Selena rests her forehead against Demi’s and just stares into her eyes for a few moments. She can see the unhidden lust swirling in her dark orbs and it sends a shiver down her spine to realise how much Demi wants her. Demi who was now being so incredibly patient in waiting for something she wanted so desperately. Selena couldn’t help but feel a bit guilty that she wasn’t quite prepared to give that to her girlfriend.
Demi presses a quick kiss against her lips “It’s worth the wait” she smiles and Selena blushes at how Demi can so easily read her.
Chapter Nine