You can't pull me up from under here, so don't try.
I feel disgusting today. Extremely disgusting.
Makes me just want to sit at home all day.
I don't feel as if I'm worth much of people's
time.
So my therapist and I decided I need to go on
medicine. But since the psychiatrist she works
with doesn't use our insurance, I might just
have to go to my family doctor, but I don't want
to because he is a moron and knows nothing
about the medicine I need. Plus I don't want
to talk to him, he is a fucking douche bag. But
my mom is gonna check if I can go somewhere
else, somewhere where people actually know
what the fuck they are doing.
I watched the Prestige last night. That was a really
good movie. I liked it
I have so much god damn homework this weekend.
I hate fucking school. I felt like crying yesterday. Rarely
does school bring me to tears because I just try not to
care that much, but there is so much fucking work. And
it seems no matter how hard I work in math my teacher
finds a way to bring me down. I can't fail that class or
else I can't graduate early, and nothing will get in my
way of that. I need to work harder. I have what...two weeks
to bring my grade up. That's like at least 4-5 quizes and
two tests. I need to raise my grade at LEAST 15 points,
to get a C.
I'm not worried about my future. Just that of my parents.
I want them to be happy and no amount of therapy or
medicine will make me believe I am not a burden to
them(which is what my therapist hopes for). Actions
speak louder than words and their actions tell me I am
and it makes me hate myself everyday, among other things.
Makes me just want to sit at home all day.
I don't feel as if I'm worth much of people's
time.
So my therapist and I decided I need to go on
medicine. But since the psychiatrist she works
with doesn't use our insurance, I might just
have to go to my family doctor, but I don't want
to because he is a moron and knows nothing
about the medicine I need. Plus I don't want
to talk to him, he is a fucking douche bag. But
my mom is gonna check if I can go somewhere
else, somewhere where people actually know
what the fuck they are doing.
I watched the Prestige last night. That was a really
good movie. I liked it
I have so much god damn homework this weekend.
I hate fucking school. I felt like crying yesterday. Rarely
does school bring me to tears because I just try not to
care that much, but there is so much fucking work. And
it seems no matter how hard I work in math my teacher
finds a way to bring me down. I can't fail that class or
else I can't graduate early, and nothing will get in my
way of that. I need to work harder. I have what...two weeks
to bring my grade up. That's like at least 4-5 quizes and
two tests. I need to raise my grade at LEAST 15 points,
to get a C.
I'm not worried about my future. Just that of my parents.
I want them to be happy and no amount of therapy or
medicine will make me believe I am not a burden to
them(which is what my therapist hopes for). Actions
speak louder than words and their actions tell me I am
and it makes me hate myself everyday, among other things.