for all the people who have been waiting for an email from me, sorry, here's an update and I'm sending it with warm fuzzies as well ( Read more... )

Predawn Nov 30. The light creeping in past the blinds is oddly fluorescent, white moonlight and orange sodium streetlamps reflecting off the snow and the pearl grey overcast sky. The cars lined up along the street are hunched silhouettes, snow obscuring all details (except the clouds of exhaust piping out the back as the owners desperately try to ( Read more... )

One of the houses I work at has a Siamese cat that has a congenital birth defect, it has only three legs and a floppy stump on its right shoulder (hence the name Tripod). Being Siamese it is aggressively friendly, and very vocal and always follows us around, begging for attention. (First bad thing...)I was giving it a good rub on the ear and its ( Read more... )

So, my new life ( Read more... )

The neighborhood where I lived in Istanbul was only a few blocks from the Fenerbache football (soccer) stadium. You may know the extremes some people will go to in support of their favorite football team, well, imagine 50,000 Turks pumped up by a week of championship games and the two bloodiest rivals playing, and gathering at the stadium for ( Read more... )

I've been home for 3 weeks now. I have been suffering from reverse culture shock a bit, but not too badly, mostly just a bit depressed that I have to find a real job and missing my friends. I have found a real job, bottom of the skill ladder, but decent pay and flexible hours, giving me the option of picking up a course or two before I start Uni. I ( Read more... )

the vacation that lasted too long...Well here I am in limbo, waiting to go home and start my life of school and regular job and not yet disconnected from my old life in istanbul. Sleeping on the guest bed with my mom while my room has been taken over by its new occupants and living out of a backpack because my furniture has been spread amongst the ( Read more... )

looked at my contract yesterday and realized I dont finish until the 31st, rather than the 29th. Its amazing how 2 days can bring you down...The weather has been fine and I have all sorts of sunny summer fantasies as I sit behind my desk, but I can wait....I think. Many friends changing their situations as well, I cant believe Dodds is going back ( Read more... )

Back from my vacation to Marmara island with Claire and Sara. Got a slight tan, a lot of rest and had fun with an old friend and a new one. Felling much better and counting the 47 days until my contract is up and I go on vacation with mom and travel Turkey and Greece.

I wonder if this is what depression feels like....listless, no desire to socialize (less than usual even)binging on my vices, every emotion so close to the surface I could go homicidal or start weeping at the slightest provocation...crap.

if i get through today it will be tomorrow....