Well there I have gone, writing a fairly long paragraph that was depressing and meandering, but now I feel better and all those words seem foreign to me now, and I don't think I should post them. Yes, I am literally in the hardest part of my life thus far, but I see very little profit to be gained from getting angry and bitter at anything or ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is our seven hour practice; we're breaking it into two parts and in the middle will be Lawrence's funeral. It feels almost disrespectful to be happy tomorrow when I feel everything is dusted with a sort of unshakable somberness that I think may affect even our acting. It's going to be hard to push through it. I don't even know how I'm ( Read more... )

This is a mess ( Read more... )

If there is anything in the world that can cultivate courage in a human being, it is the Lord of the Rings trilogy movies ( Read more... )

I've been coming to my livejournal everyday it seems, trying to force out some bit of wisdom, but all that comes out is strained complaints. As much as I hate the very idea of planning anything, it seems that sitting down and attempting to write out the person I'd like to be in 10 years might be a good idea.

I could write down a bunch of lovely ( Read more... )

 These few weeks again I feel as if I'm at the edge of something, something spectacular, and something deep. I feel as though I'm standing on a cliff of everything I've ever known, and the Lord is beckoning me to go deeper, spiritually and intellectually. But it's so scary, this idea. Of leaving behind all the things I've known to explore something ( Read more... )

And now I see that nothing is too impossible. :]

And it comes to this time in my life when the most frivelous things seem to throw my emotions into an uproar.

In all honesty, it's truly just a drama group, you know? And I got my script on Monday, and I haven't really read it yet. But I have a feeling something horrible is going to happen soon. It's kind of like during Florida's really terrible ( Read more... )

[wrote this just now, completely unedited. I hope to add more soon. God bless.]

the unfinished list of the fears I have conquered:

doors that will not open, and doors that will not close, because I can never seem to change all these things, but I know of One who can; lions that strip me of everything I am, for now I see my scales that lie on the ( Read more... )