I need to go and edit a fic of mine. Edit as in "shorten the beginning which is too long and meandering", not as in "check for typos and inconsistencies". ... I am stalling.

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When I am writing something, it almost always feels like I am squeezing words out of myself. The story is in my mind, but it can't just flow out, it needs to be squeezed through and dragged out - and I won't relax until it is done, too, because it's there, pressing on me, pushing to get out ( Read more... )

*poking at AO3 ( Read more... )

On the one hand, I do want what I'm writing to be read by someone - I keep feeling the story doesn't quite exist without being read.

On the other hand, right now I don't feel I can bear the weight of other people's interpretations.

... so I keep hiding. I wonder when I grow back a writer's skin.

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I am trying to learn to take intervals between work - the non-computer intervals. Not so good for now - some cross-stitching, half an episode of Sasameki Koto, and then I turned to websurfing again. But it's a start. I think ( Read more... )

Why wasn't I provident enough to go and start learning Japanese five years ago? Silly me ( Read more... )

I am still not writing, but thinking rather a lot about writing. But I feel kind of guilty for not actually writing. I know perfectly well that I have this conviction trained into me, that time spent on planning/organizing things is time wasted, time you spent doing _nothing_ - and this ties in together rather well with my love for producing things ( Read more... )

Today my body seems to have decided that I'm having a holiday, and that's it: I got up and worked for less than an hour, and then I climbed back into bed and couldn't get out of it until maybe 4 PM ( Read more... )

Will this job ever end? ... at the speed I am working now, it probably won't. I'm not sure whether I'm writing today, though I have another silly drabble idea ( Read more... )

I think I am all out of one-shot drabble ideas. Time to plan - it feels like something longer than a page needs planning. Also it feels like I forgot how to plan stories. At all. Too tired from work, I guess - and work goes too slowly because I am tired ( Read more... )