~~maybe im looking in the wrong direction, maybe im looking for any direction~~
i had another odd dream. first off, weekend sucks so far. friday i went out with friends, and miranda went skating with leann. dad was bummed cuz we were gone. then i didnt call dad everytime i went somewhere, which pissed him off. and all day yesterday (saturday), dad was sorta depressed. its all about him having to let us go and he thinks he failed as a father because i curse and dont tell him where im going, oh not to mention i brought my mp3 player when he told me not to. so his crummy mood affects me, and i also have to take care of my little annoying cousins. yeah, not much fun.
in the love life department, im doing like usual. im one of those people that things just never work out. and thing is, i dont really know what i did this time. all i know is shes hung up about other people, and if i actually did call last night im afraid i would have just made her more upset...well, as long as shes off limits, and i dont want to seems like im switching gears to fast, but morgan seems to have been sorta attracted to me lately, and even after all the stories, i am too. well im leaving for 2 mos. in 2 weeks, that will give alison time to cool off maybe? and if i still REAALLY LIKE HER (not "love" i was uhh being dumb?), i dont know ill call her if she is feeling okay. otherwise ill just backdown. besides i might see mandy this summer or jill, (not that i really liked jill but she was a nice girl) and hopefully my old friends can help take alison off my mind...and now that i think about it, i prolly should have let her do the eyeliner thing...........oh well enough brooding over the past... heres a good song... and im sure you all know it...it sorta is how i feel right now~~
She seems dressed in all the rings... of past fatalities
So fragile, yet so devious - she continues to see
climatic hands that press her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home - forever
Oh...
She is everything and more, the solemn hypnotic
My dahlia, bathed in possesion - she is home to me
I get nervous, perverse, when I see her, it's worse
But the stress is astounding
It's now or never, she's coming home - forever
Oh... She's the only one that makes me sad
Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy - aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face - to recognize
Such a pheromone cult to terrorize
I won't let this build up inside of me...
I'm a slave and I am a master
No restraints and unchecked collectors
I exist to my need - to self-oblige
She is something in me - that I despise
I won't let this build up inside of me...
She isn't real - I can't make her real
~~SlipKnot~~
in the love life department, im doing like usual. im one of those people that things just never work out. and thing is, i dont really know what i did this time. all i know is shes hung up about other people, and if i actually did call last night im afraid i would have just made her more upset...well, as long as shes off limits, and i dont want to seems like im switching gears to fast, but morgan seems to have been sorta attracted to me lately, and even after all the stories, i am too. well im leaving for 2 mos. in 2 weeks, that will give alison time to cool off maybe? and if i still REAALLY LIKE HER (not "love" i was uhh being dumb?), i dont know ill call her if she is feeling okay. otherwise ill just backdown. besides i might see mandy this summer or jill, (not that i really liked jill but she was a nice girl) and hopefully my old friends can help take alison off my mind...and now that i think about it, i prolly should have let her do the eyeliner thing...........oh well enough brooding over the past... heres a good song... and im sure you all know it...it sorta is how i feel right now~~
She seems dressed in all the rings... of past fatalities
So fragile, yet so devious - she continues to see
climatic hands that press her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home - forever
Oh...
She is everything and more, the solemn hypnotic
My dahlia, bathed in possesion - she is home to me
I get nervous, perverse, when I see her, it's worse
But the stress is astounding
It's now or never, she's coming home - forever
Oh... She's the only one that makes me sad
Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy - aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face - to recognize
Such a pheromone cult to terrorize
I won't let this build up inside of me...
I'm a slave and I am a master
No restraints and unchecked collectors
I exist to my need - to self-oblige
She is something in me - that I despise
I won't let this build up inside of me...
She isn't real - I can't make her real
~~SlipKnot~~