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I had been looking forward to going out tonight, till i heard that my friend Walter had joined FOS and made it an open event for them too..... and a couple people i dont want to see right now are going to be there tonight. I've been doing a decent job building resiliency, but one person in particular who I cannot begin to trust even a little, is going to be there, and I'm CERTAIN is going to gossip about me.
I keep trying to remind myself, that I can't control other people, and that I just gotta be true to myself.
I'm missing her today. I've been doing a good job just acknoldeging these feelings of late, but I really am missing her today. I know she was out at the Mud Run today with her daughter (and I posted a private video to my FB page offering my support, but she can't see it until she unblocks me)
Gotta keep-on keepin-on.
I deserve to resume my life, and can't let my negative feelings towards certain people, cloud my life, or my home. That's not being true to myself.