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overall, im doing alot better with things.
ive accepted things the way they are, but i do still have a bit of optimism and hope deep in the back of my mind.
i think about her often, and mostly wonder how she is.
im not stalking her, but i have looked her up once or twice. it looks like she had a good time with her eldest at the event this weekend.
today im feeling a bit anxious. im not overdue for my meds yet, but i have also been thinkibg about going back to work bext week, and also back to school foe the kids tomorrow.
ive also felt a bit lonely the last few days. just want to hang out. be with somone.
im still focused on my values. i am rsther pleased woth how the karaoke event ended up working out.
im frankly surprised by the mature appology and well wishes exchanged with Rebound. it was strange. i wish i could be hostile for someone other than myself jn that situation, but i did notice some glances. i avoided her well enough through the night.
Lisa however is a different story. She wasnt actively hostile, but i could feel the daggers. we were polite and courteous.
i left the bar feeling better than when i arrived.