Ahhhhh depression mode
I feel depressed..
Nothing seems to be working out for me..
I dont feel like i can do anytihng right...
and i feel like i am letting all my friends down....
And on top of that i am having problems with Darrell..
I am acually afraid i am gonna lose him as a friend..
But whatever i guess that type of stuff always happens to me..
I always have something good..
but i always lose it soon after..
or it goes horrably wrong..
Taylor..stared out really good..got bad..lost him
Nick..Was REALLY good...Lost him..
Darrell...Was going good...now there are all sorts of problems...Afraid im gonna lose him..
Its like an endless pattern...
Its not just guy stuff tho..
that just makes my depression worse..
Its like it has to happen when i am already depressed..
I dont even know why i am depressed...
But all i can do is sleep all day..
and stay up all night thinking about everything....
It seems that getting high is the only way i can be happy..
Hopefully this passes really soon..
i dont like the person i am when i am depressed..
i normally end up doing stuff i normally wouldnt or i will say stuff i dont really mean and get mad at people when in all reality i am just mad at myself..
=[
i really hate depression..
feeling down on myself..
I already have a low self esteem..
this is the last thing i need...
BLAH!!!!
Nothing seems to be working out for me..
I dont feel like i can do anytihng right...
and i feel like i am letting all my friends down....
And on top of that i am having problems with Darrell..
I am acually afraid i am gonna lose him as a friend..
But whatever i guess that type of stuff always happens to me..
I always have something good..
but i always lose it soon after..
or it goes horrably wrong..
Taylor..stared out really good..got bad..lost him
Nick..Was REALLY good...Lost him..
Darrell...Was going good...now there are all sorts of problems...Afraid im gonna lose him..
Its like an endless pattern...
Its not just guy stuff tho..
that just makes my depression worse..
Its like it has to happen when i am already depressed..
I dont even know why i am depressed...
But all i can do is sleep all day..
and stay up all night thinking about everything....
It seems that getting high is the only way i can be happy..
Hopefully this passes really soon..
i dont like the person i am when i am depressed..
i normally end up doing stuff i normally wouldnt or i will say stuff i dont really mean and get mad at people when in all reality i am just mad at myself..
=[
i really hate depression..
feeling down on myself..
I already have a low self esteem..
this is the last thing i need...
BLAH!!!!