suddenly inevitably has arrived, and it's funny how normal something so new can feel when you've been waiting for it this long. his hands felt like an apology, and we never stopped touching. my lips are bruised and i keep chewing on them, and i'm too whatever-it-is to try and make this poetic ( Read more... )

Hours are not spent lamenting the time I’ve wasted trying to reconcile myself to the fact that the grievances are not going to stop just because I act in a dignified manner. Words flow like rain and are rich and condensed and elastic - there is tension and pull, and for once something creative is gobbling them greedily. I’m too used to writing in ( Read more... )

It was inevitable that I would come back to this, like the tide and the sea, and this never ending cycle of being ok and feeling like I'm betrayed. Though things have finally calmed down, and I've gotten my life back on track, so to speak. Sleeping is still beyond me, and my boyfriend's alarm clock is angrily beeping to wake him, while I remain ( Read more... )