A Post
I am really frustrated with the loss of a friend right now. This is my first time to actually write anything about it and I think it is about time to let some feelings out. I had a really great friend for a few months, always making sure I was taking care of my homework and myself, really great company, funny, good to talk with, and we seemed to enjoy spending time together. Well, complications have made our friendship pretty much non-existent. Once in a while I see this long lost friend and they are not who they were only a few months ago. The spark is gone, the humor hides within never to surface. I have not been able to tell this friend any of my feelings towards our relationship and wish I could. My feelings are hurt when I ask to hang out and am told that time is tight and though it sounds fun, it never happens.
My life mentality is better to have a door open than closed. I feel like I have been completely shut out of my friend's life and the fact that I am leaving for Spain in a month and a half doesn't mean anything. Maybe I am taking the situation too personally, maybe I am reading too much into it. Either way I don't feel good and know I need to do something to fix my feelings sooner or later. I just feel so yuck about it.
My life mentality is better to have a door open than closed. I feel like I have been completely shut out of my friend's life and the fact that I am leaving for Spain in a month and a half doesn't mean anything. Maybe I am taking the situation too personally, maybe I am reading too much into it. Either way I don't feel good and know I need to do something to fix my feelings sooner or later. I just feel so yuck about it.