the story of my life
Here goes... I don't remember the last time I posted on LJ, but right now I need to vent and that is what LJ is all about.
At this moment my life can be summed up by what has occured today. This morning I changed the sheets on my bed... this evening the cat pissed on the sheets... I just asked the guy who owns this house for different sheets and when we entered my room my light was on so he asked what time I left the house then yelled at me for leaving the light on for four hours while I was out. I left the house frustrated and in tears because I am having such a hard time right now. I want to be home I want to stay here. I don't know what to do with my life.
I have a friend that I care about who is smoking a lot and I am emotionally effected by it because I know he knows better. I can't change people and it is hard to change myself.
I want to be home because I am terribly home sick. I miss my friends. I miss my comfort foods. I miss dancing in SF. I miss movies and QaF with James. I miss Yoshi Laurie time. I have friends here, but it is not the same.
Yesterday I had a dream that I left Spain without telling my friends here that I was going to leave. In the dream there was a moment that I was reminded of things here in Sanlucar while I was at home with a friend and I got terribly nastalgic and wanted to return to Spain as soon as possible. I don't know what to do. At this moment I am SO unhappy. I feel like i have been crying for the past week.
I still have lots of things I want to do while I am here. I still have yet to experience Feria, I still need to go to Valencia, I haven't mastered Spanish (not that I ever will), I can't get enough of dance classes.
I don't know what to do and right now... I just don't know
At this moment my life can be summed up by what has occured today. This morning I changed the sheets on my bed... this evening the cat pissed on the sheets... I just asked the guy who owns this house for different sheets and when we entered my room my light was on so he asked what time I left the house then yelled at me for leaving the light on for four hours while I was out. I left the house frustrated and in tears because I am having such a hard time right now. I want to be home I want to stay here. I don't know what to do with my life.
I have a friend that I care about who is smoking a lot and I am emotionally effected by it because I know he knows better. I can't change people and it is hard to change myself.
I want to be home because I am terribly home sick. I miss my friends. I miss my comfort foods. I miss dancing in SF. I miss movies and QaF with James. I miss Yoshi Laurie time. I have friends here, but it is not the same.
Yesterday I had a dream that I left Spain without telling my friends here that I was going to leave. In the dream there was a moment that I was reminded of things here in Sanlucar while I was at home with a friend and I got terribly nastalgic and wanted to return to Spain as soon as possible. I don't know what to do. At this moment I am SO unhappy. I feel like i have been crying for the past week.
I still have lots of things I want to do while I am here. I still have yet to experience Feria, I still need to go to Valencia, I haven't mastered Spanish (not that I ever will), I can't get enough of dance classes.
I don't know what to do and right now... I just don't know