Clock Ticking : TMI Warning in effect

[sweety167]

I had one of the worst periods on record this cycle. Not even by level of pain, not that it wasn’t horrible in that regard as well, but this was the first time I’ve been so fully depressed by the physical fact. I felt so empty, so truly and completely empty in the physically female sense. My body, mind and being mourned the fact that I wasn’t

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[karbear1]

It happens to all of us. I go back and forth between hoping I get myine and hoping I don't.
Why do we think 28 is old! We have lots of baby making time left like 12 years before it should be difficult. That's lots of time.

[sweety167]

It all depends on family history then I suppose. According to mine, I'm gonna need a hysterectomy in 12 years.

[karbear1]

You're not running out of time. Not even close. 12 years is a long time!!!! YOu and Devon will have them when the time is right, maybe right now isn't the right time. It may be next month or a year from now! But it will happen. Can't really plan these things. Sides I thought you werent planning to have any for a year or 2?

I am kinda weird I both hope that I get it and I don't. I don't think I know what I want. I want children but I don't know if right now is the right time.

[sweety167]

Yes, my brain knows that 2 years is a reasonable and responsible starting point. But my heart... that is a whole other issue.

I think it's the same "want it, but don't" problem.

[karbear1]

yeah the heart can sometimes throw logic out the window.

I started mine last night and it was a relief but at the same time I got that sad feeling. Then I thought of a good thing...I got it...which means my body is working the way its supposed to....so atleast we can think that way if we didn't get and weren't preggers then there would be something wrong. I think just thinking that way is a good thing.

[sweety167]

that is a very positive way to look at it.